Saturday, June 24, 2006

How long has it been since I've been on this thing?
Well, Dance show has been done. Band has been done. Camp has been done. Pictures for your viewing pleasure later below.

I feel so despondent and reclusive.

I hate counselors. They fuck everything up.
I hate that I sound so pessimistic. I hate that I'm leaving alot of the people whom I care about behind.

ANYWAYS.
Dance show was cool, I got all prettied up, Band Concert was cool, I sang my heart out. Camp was awesome, I got eaten alive, very literally, and got mauled by a bear.

DANCE SHOW:

Dance Billboard, Broadway


"Ready for my close-up Mr. Bertrand"


Dance Troupe


"Check out my tongue, no food right?"


Two to Tango. Take One!


Two to Tango. Take Two!


Posers?

Super-cool eye make-up

BAND CONCERT:

Presenting, Tiffany Le singing, "Here, There and Everywhere by The Beatles"

"Sing it from the heart madam!"

Me smiling.

...and the spotlight beamed down

...a pause

Three Muskateers of Music

CAMP:

I got mauled by a bear!

Negative picture of the wound

Solarized picture of the wound

Enjoy the pictures. I hope I will update soon, visits will start up soon too. =D
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Saturday, March 25, 2006

Honestly, it's just a bunch of things that added up to how things happened at lunch yesterday. You have absolutely no reason to be sorry.
I was sick, and I had a headache and then I just acted harshly because I was worried and didn't know how else to act in that situation. I know I despise talking over the internet about things like this as well, but all things considered I'd prefer to about this particular subject, to save us both from tears and rampant emotions.

Ok, so time for me to explain myself. Firstly, I don't want you to say anything about anything you don't want to just because you feel forced. I understand that everybody has problems and things that they simply cannot share with others. But I just wanted you to know I was worried and even if you told me, my opinion in no way would change from what it is now. I understand that I've been really like, loose and laughy these past weeks, but you know better than anyone I'd drop everything in a second if I could do anything to help you.

I was only hurt that you kept on mentioning the fact you talk to Ms. Pappas about it... normally I wouldn't, but it hurt because it was like telling me you have more confidence in her than you do in me and I wasn't ready to deal with that. Although now I understand the fact that that was just you taking one step forward into telling me, I guess we were both affected.

We both have huge stresses right now, and no one's to blame really. Things'll just work itself out in time. I'm really sorry that your great uncle passed away.. and I wish it wasn't the weekend, so that I could personally comfort you, because all my words sound so shallow and cold in this email. But keep in mind, time heals everything. You might not forget things, but you learn to live with them and learn to be a better person from your past experiences. Nothing worth having comes without a past of pain and suffering, or without a lot of hard work.

Take care lovies.
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Thursday, March 23, 2006

Lately I've been having these like caffeine-drugged days. I'd wake up, go meet Spazzy and then off with us in search of our Cappuccinos and my Mochaccinos.

^^ The energy you need for running at 6 am in the morning. We go to school and run indoors for about an hour and relax for 15 before running off to homeroom. It's cool, I love that burning feeling. It's distracts you from daily happenings and everyday life.

How ironic. Just when I was happy for him, guess what he does? He breaks it off with galpal. Now he's single again, probably in search of another girl. What a user.

He IS a nice boy though, shall I comfort him?
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Monday, March 20, 2006

Sometimes, he does these crazy things that make me realize why I went out with him in the first place.
These small actions that still make my heart warm and my stomach flutter. But I know that things will never be the same again, and I wouldn't take him back for the world, I'm enjoying the life in the single lane ^^ However, no matter what, he still makes me laugh, still makes me smile, still manages to brighten up my day if only for a small while... and he still cares. I wonder if he ever thinks of me now that he's got a new galpal on his arm.

I wish he had seen me playing all my sports, regardless of the state I look in a a baggy t-shirt and bermudan shorts.

I wish he had seen me sing, I sang so prettily, just for him.

I wish he had seen me dance, even though I may falter from time to time, I enjoy dancing.

I wish I had made more time for him. Sometimes I'm too involved and busy for my own good.

...and sometimes, for a moment, a fleeting bittersweet moment... I wish he would hug me again. Just once.

Tiff'ni
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Saturday, March 18, 2006

Pictures to be uploaded later, but, in the meanwhile.
Delta hotel was cool stuff, surprisingly it wasn't as uncomfortable or suffocating as I had expected. Sadly, I couldn't get my daily fix of Bubbletea because all the stores were closed at 9 in the morning... but alas, I had it later on in the day.

I arrived and was immediately asked to conform to everyone else... so I donned the ugly shirt and tried the orange cap. I decided to forgo the orange cap because it just made me look oddish. I received my number, the dreaded number six... and then my chaperone had to wear a tag on which was lovingly written: I'm Cheering for TIFFANY LE. Haha... who's my bitch?




-Mr. Brown... haha.

I didn't win, I was amongst the other 54 losers... but I'm just gonna keep on doing what I do best! Be better than that loser of a winner!

... Bonsecours room was a cool. A "Cheer Up Room" if you will. I swiped a whole Hubba Bubba gum tube, Lifesavers, Hubba Bubba Tape Gum, 2 Fudgies, 1 Cookie, 1 Chocolate milk, downed 3 mini waterbottles, ate one mini candy, and had one brownie. Yea. It's not like I'm the person paying.... so...yea. Anyways, I told you about my "cheer up" speech to fellow competitors already? Complete crap that I didn't believe a word of myself, but it made people feel better... also, I guess they don't get sarcasm and dirty jokes in there... because all I got most of the time were the sound of, crickets chirping. Then again though, I think the people in the room were grade six and under... my bad.

-Tiff'ni

Pictures:


-Fiski, Spazz and Mr. B (Chaperone)


-Moi


-What a clean bathroom! ...T_T


-The stink of conforming...


-Scanning for vulnerable competitors to mug.


-Can you find my picture?


-Me (Twix), and Fiski


-Twix et Spazz


-The stage


-Inside the Delta Hotel, Montreal


-Me trying to look snotty. ^^


-If I ever drop out of school... I wanna be a "Chasseur", Je suis votre chasseur pour ce journee madame.


-Spinny doors!!


-Look how hard Mr. Brown is trying to blend in and look rich.


-Nervousness is getting to me!


-Proper girls sit like...




-Why yes you are!


-There is no word for this moment...


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Sunday, February 19, 2006

Hiya lovelies.
I know I haven't exactly held up my oath to update regularly anymore.
Things have gotten so hectic I can't remember what day it is most of the time, and I'm fumbling around for a lot of things right now.

Hehe, I did say I would upload pics of my new hair though, and upload I shall. I quite like the short hair on me. It's quite becoming. ^^





Well, that's me at Bonaventure (in the green blazer) just this weekend. I hope to start revisiting sites again... I miss you all very dearly though. I hope you know that.


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Sunday, January 8, 2006

I'm going out to another dinner tonight. It seems like everything is just pulling me farther and farther away from the section of my life when it was just about me and him. Every movie I see, once again reminds me of him. Every rainy day, reminds me of dancing in the rain... I couldn't forget him even if I tried, he made all the little things that made me happy, come to life, he breathed life back into me.

But now I'm getting out a lot more, the pain of the exertion I feel from playing winter sports is definitely helping me.

I'm not sorry it's over, some things aren't meant to be. At that time in my life, I gave him what I could, opened up as much as I could. I don't regret meeting him, and that's all there is to say.

KI
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Saturday, January 7, 2006

'Now listen well... will you marry me?
Not now, boy.
Are you well in the suffering?
You've been the most gravious of hosts,
You may be invited, girl, but you're not coming in'

I'm going to a hockey game today... with those rowdy bunch of kids again. I went tobogganing with them, and skating... was suppose to go skiing, but I didn't.
Then I'm suppose to sit down and have a civilized dinner. T_T

They jump on the tables and they scream and curse in french.
I resent them.

Gotta go now, will get to sites either tonight or tomorning.
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Tuesday, January 3, 2006

Well, it's official! We're off to find my daddy! So many things I want to say to this guy... I'm finally putting a face on the shadow who is my father.
I'm so excited. Of course, I won't be able to see him right away because we still need to hire the detectives and the lawyers, but I will eventually.
I want to face that jackass and tell him whatfor.

Once, I was asked, "Doesn't it feel weird, or do you ever miss your dad?" I can imagine myself getting oddly angry or embarassed by this question... but I didn't feel anything. I suppose its a tad sad that I felt nothing towards a mention of my father, but how can I miss something I've never had?

Sometimes I question myself though, what would my life had been like if I did live with both parents? Would I be anything like the person I am now? Would I have the same views and strong belief in some of my values?

I've often wondered what it would be like to have a parent attending all those concerts, sports events, or to show up to television appearances when I achieved something great and got recognition, to see me dance, to see me sing, see me try my best in everything.

It's something I've put thought into... but I highly doubt I'd want him of all people to see me at my highest, or my lowest.

I also ask myself whether or not there's going to be any love; any form of it.
Now that I think about it... I do love him.

I love him the way he loves me.

Not a single acknowledgement of my existence, no support, choosing to remain an insignificant shadow in my life, rather than show himself for the person he is. Making me doubt myself when I'm at my absolute lowest. Yes, this is our love.

KI
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Monday, January 2, 2006

Hullosies friends and felons alike.
Well, I'm back, and hopefully, I'm going to be back for a long while..
I guess I sort of lost touch with many people after the break-up with whatshisname.

And I can totally explain.

Firstly, when I was with him, it was sort of like I was on a happy high, I didn't need to worry about anything because I was so content with being with someone who gave you so much of their time and so much attention.
But for every ultimate high you have, I suppose you have to prepare yourself for a really bad low.

I was stuck in a funk for a while and I just needed to find my place again. I'm hoping to, get in-touch with everyone again... and I apologize for the absence.

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