Saturday, August 21, 2004

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Hey guys! So far, my cousin has been in town for this week and next week too, at least until I start school on August 31st.
We've been shopping and she practically begged me to buy a skirt... So I did... but damn, it's so short... *shudders* I hope I don't have to go through that again.

So what about u guys? Anything new?
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Saturday, July 31, 2004

   YAAATTTA!!!!!
Hehehe, I;m so happy otaku finally let me log in after so many passwords, so many e-mails and the long wait! It feels like forever~!

So how is everyone? Man, I feel so deprived since I've been gone from otaku... =( But many things have changed.
The messaging thing and stuff, I have yet to use that ^-^

*sigh* It's at times like these when I actually HAVE otaku back, but I dunno what to talk about... Oh! Today actually was quite depressing and I think I'm falling back into depression... And also my friends have cast me aside like a piece of trash not meant to be here! Gives one a whole new damn perspective about the world.


Anyways, I'll ttyl!

~Keiko
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Saturday, June 26, 2004

   I got Internet!!! ^_____^
I got internet!! And then i said let their be internet and there was!
You see, I have 2 computers in my house and one of 'em don't got internet right? And the one i'm usually on is my sister's (older)And then we got a router and we have internet! I can chat in the living room now... But one of the downs is that Otaku won't lemme log in from there.... I think I have to wait at least a day or so... -_-'
darn it all!
Anyways, blog later!
XOXO
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004

   Depression sucks ass....
Quote of the Day: I 'Think' Therefore I'm single.

Well, the concert went terrific! Sorry I haven't blogged in such a long time tho... Now is the end of the year, and I am a graduate... I leave most of my friends tomorrow, I doubt we'll meet up often, after all long distance relationships are screwed up, for instance, if you had a close friend and then you talk to them maybe a few months later... And they've met someone new and have forgotten about you. Been there, done that. it's all screwed up, or maybe it's only because I can't maintain a stable relationship... because if I can't then i'm sorry, I don't know what to do, and i'm being frank. One of my friends is moving to Calgary, and most are just attending different highschools; sometimes things are just so f**ked up. Pardon my language, but then again I don't care, do I?

It's at times like these I relfect upon myself, and if left alone too long, I often discover more things about me I want to change. Of course I'll never admit it openly (and this doesn't count), but I DO also have feelings too, and some people don't take that into consideration after getting to know me. In a way i'm sad to leave Carlyle, but in a way, i'm happy, and i'm relieved. That is solely because I want to get away from the mockery, and the things that I have to tolerate every single day. Maybe someone will twist my words around and use them against me, but I write now in total honesty. And NO ONE can tell me what I feel and do not feel, because if you don't live my screwin' life then obviously, you DON'T know how the hell I feel! It's actually funny, sometimes I think some people forget i'm human too, and i need to be cared for.

Everything they say are like silent pleas to me, come rest by my side and I shall comfort you. Tell me your secrets and confide in me, and I promise I shall never forsake you... what lies. Let me tell you one thing, anyone and everyone can hurt you. Your best friend one moment and then your worst enemy the next. Frankly I don't quite understand this myself, but it's as if you are lost from within, pursuing the end, but you'll never see it, because it's not meant to be there for you.

You can walk down the street, wearing top designer clothes, or walk wearing rags. But in the end we are all the same. Don't you think so? We are all humans... Nothing is ever really forgotten. People suppress memories mentally because it was either too painfula nd horrific to remember, or they just don't want to remember it any longer. Like your childhood, or maybe your third grade year? But there are also some memories which you keep throughout your life. Humiliating ones, that scar your mind, and tear you apart day by day. I don't know who reads these, but I'm thankful if anyone does. Someone listens.


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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Wth is Borderline??

borderline


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Spring! You are a child of spring. You bring life
to the dead earth after the winter. As a spring
child are you caring, ctreativ, fresh ,sweet
and so pure! You love to hang around in the
nature and look after their creatures.
Sometimes you can be suddently depressed and
sad and you isolate yourself in black clouds
and you don't let somebody to you. Your tears
are the raindrops which fall down day after
day. You should live in the season with the two
faces, in spring. Your friends are the kids of
winter and autum because they are as silent as
you are. The summer kids are a bit to energetic
for you but you can get along with all of them
very well!


In which season do you belong?
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Quizzies!!!

You're taffy!! You're a clever and kind person,
but you tend to hold grudges. You are not big
on dishing out forgiveness.


Which kind of candy are you?
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-I'm taffy?!?!!?


You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
rate my quiz, I think your voice in just
beautiful?


What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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-A siren huh? I guess its okay....


You belong beyond the claim of all humanity. Though
here, you are emotionally dead to the world and
nothing here has any bearing on you, good or
bad. You feel nothing and are simply waiting on
the end, which will come to pass without much
change, after which you will fade into the
nothingness which you lived. If that's how you
like it, that's that. If not, change your
responses to things and maybe the world will
change with you.


Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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-no comment...


Let's not bicker and argue about who killed who!


What Monty Python Character are you?
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-I'm a guy?... Dude.....
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Saturday, June 12, 2004

Let me see....
"You will never be Good enough,
You will never be Strong enough.
You were not Born through Love,
You will not Rise Above."

Those words from a song seem to echo thru my head... It cuts deeply to hear truth speak, I wonder tho... Do all quotes and meanings apply to everyone who feels the same way? Because from Anywhich way I try to look at it, this saying feels so true, so right...

Like you can hear the incessant ranting and nagging of your peers, your family...
Your screwed up family and deprivation of a childhood. Wonderful life no?
Anyways just needed to rant before I left my room....

Bye
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Evilness....

How evil are you?






Take the What's Your Song? quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.



You are Ashurei.
The only thing that interests you now is power.
You love to kill people. You love to torture
others. As long as they don't mess with you
power. You are extremely dangerous.


What War of Genesis Character are you?
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Friday, June 11, 2004

A bunny?

you are the "I hate you so bad" happy
bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your
not ashamed of it.


which happy bunny are you?
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look it!!

Senko -


What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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