Friday, November 19, 2004

>.<
sry I haven't updated alot lately. I've been feeling kinda sick lately and pretty crappy at that too. I promise to get to y'all's sites this weekend. maybe tomorrow night, cuz I'm working all day Saturday.
Not really much else to say, except that I haven't gotten around to writing up "The Appointment" yet.
ttyl


Though they rarely caused mankind any serious harm,
these Japanese fox spirits known as kitsune
were well known for playing tricks on people
and could be a real nuisance. They possessed
the ability to transform into any creature,
though they would often retain their fox tail.
One could easily determine the age and level of
maturity of a kitsune by counting it's tails;
An immature, rambunctious kitsune would have
very few tails, while a wise and powerful one
would have as many as nine.

As a kitsune, you are clever, sensual, beautiful,
mysterious and effeminate (even if you are a
guy). You are also somewhat sneaky and like to
pull pranks on people, but otherwise you are
very pleasurable to be around.



Who is your inner Shapeshifter?
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The Wanderer...


What was your job in a past life? (LOTS of results & Anime Pics)
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

   What the....?!?!
Ok, someone named hunnixbunni (who hasn't signed my guestbook or commented at all on my site I might add) has me on their FRIENDS LIST!!! I'd think that if you are someone friend, you would at LEAST sign their gb and comment once in a while. From what I can tell by their profile, they're some punk 7th grader who lives in Miami and CLAIMS that anime is their life. The only reason I even KNOW who they are is the fact that they repeatedly entered poems in Shippou123's poetry contest(and 98% of them, I might add, weren't even that great to begin with!)
Please leave a comment here if you know anything about hunnixbunni. thx

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While I'm on the topic of poetry, I'm going to post another poem sometime later tonight or tomorrow. It's called "The Appointment". Some of you might not understand it, but it's OK if you don't because it is a true *personal* story (that only my family witnessed) put into poetry. I'm warning you now that it might be VERY depressing, but go ahead and read it if you will.
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Sunday, November 14, 2004

Yet another quiz result

You're an Autum. You're much more laid back then
most and you're very comfortable in new
situations. You rather let things go with the
flow than try to change them. You have a lot of
close friends who love you because you can help
them with their problems. You're a very patient
person and it take a lot to get you rattled.
You're deffinately a lover not a hater. (If you
can't see tje pics, go to my homepage and look
near the bottom and find your result)


What season are you? (pics)
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Meh, I was bored.
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Thursday, November 11, 2004

   Happy Veteran's Day!
Let us not forget those who fought and died to keep our country free. God Bless America!
-I hope my cousin's doing ok(he's in the army) My grandpa was in the army too, he fought in WWII and if he hadn't gotten pnuemonia while swimming the English Channel and been too sick to fight on D-day, I wouldn't even be posting this right now. And the irony of it all is that he died on the EXACT DATE 50 years later.-

Otherwise, there's not much to say, for the morning has barely begun, so here's a fun little quiz for y'all.

You are an elf. You love nature and are swift and
clever. You tend to be more poetically gifted
and write lore that is beyond compare. You
strive to help others and love nature. You are
noble, fair and brave. People covet your talent
and beauty. You are gentle in spirit and see
everything through honest and kind eyes.


Which Mystical creature are you bound to? (cool pictures!Finished!!!)
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(and the odd part of this result is that this is what I actually look like for the most part o_O)

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

   More Stupid Bakas....T_T
Hullo again, and yes, more bakas today. You'd think that by now the entire 8th grade Blue community would know WHY a wear a dog collar by now, but no. The minute I step in to homeroom and set my books down, all the guys who are there already look up from their conversation and have Ben Floyd ask me,"Hey, why do you wear that dog collar?" So I painstakingly had to convey the not-so-recent events to them. And that was only 1st period! Two periods later, in gym(everyone's too busy with work in Algebra to ask any questions but educational ones), Kevin Klingshirn asks! Thankfully, however, one girl, Kelly Tylicki, who's in my 9th period science class, already had asked(about a week ago)and conveyed the alabi to him, saying that I get 'mad' when people ask that question. I don't exactly get mad, just aggitated. And furthermore, Brad Buchanan(stupid jackass) has to go and ask me the EXACT SAME QUESTION in 4th period Language Arts! Luckily, Hannah Jones explained it to him. But it still bothers me. I've been wearing this thing for 2½ weeks now! I've also been called a psychopath by two girls in my Spanish class. I just looked it up in the dictionary and this is the definition: pychopath-An individual with a psychopathic personality; a mentally unstable person. I AM NOT MENTALLY UNSTABLE!!!! I get aggitated about it very easily now because it's not hard to make the connection between the dog collar that I wear and that the dog in the pictures I ALWAYS carry with me HAS THE EXACT SAME COLLAR ON!
HOW MANY MORE PEOPLE MUST ASK ME THIS QUESTION BEFORE I AM LEFT IN PEACE!?!?!?!?!?!

Well, there's my little rant for today. Hope you didn't get too bored. Later!
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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

   a little better now.....
I'm feeling a little bit better today, but my eyes still won't entirely open because they're so swollen from crying. I wish my friends wouldn't talk about plans that they have that don't include me over the phone like they just did. It makes me feel horrible.
Here's something I came up with during that hurtful phone conversation. (The paper I wrote it on is kinda wet cuz I was washing the dishes*grrrrrrrr*while they just kinda talked):

"You forgot"
You left me here
to be alone
with my undying pain.
And now I sit here
in the cold
and never ceasing daggers of rain.
It's my soul pouring out,
every last drop,
nothing will be spared.
I want the rain to never stop.
For if it does,
the sun will shine
and mock me in my pain.
The rain is my blood,
running away
from the hideous body of me.
Let my blood pour out,
leave the taste in my mouth,
let it be my final meal.
As a lay down to sleep,
let it be
the last time I'm awake.
Let it be the time
my soul will take
to the skys above;
soaring free at last
from the prison of this world.
Let my bed give me rest from my torment and pain,
but let remain
the unceasing rain.
As a reminder to all
that you forgot;
that as I died,
you searched and sought
for a soul that would never
be seen again,
how you were never there
when I needed a friend.
Let it remind you how you never held my hand.
But do not weep for the loss of me,
for now my soul is finally free.
Do not bury me
for the worms to feed,
but burn my body
in the firey heat.
During the ceremony,
my soul will speak:
"You forgot; now I am free.
I may only be found
across the Eternal Sea."

Yah, that's it. And thanks to nekoyasha55, for telling those muchachas locas that I am not a psychopath *mutters* stupid insenitive bakas -___-''' *grrrr*

Oh, and last night on the phone, my dad was saying that my mom meant that we couldn't get a dog right away, but that we could get one in the spring(after the holidays), or in the summer when we have time off from school.

All I keep wanting to do is just die when I lie dowm to go to sleep. What peace and bliss I could find in the death! Oh, if only there was some way as peaceful as death to ease my pain.(I hate guidance counslers and shrinks) I cry almost every two hours for him now. I feel like I want a new dog right away so I can snuggle my face into it's soft, warm, fluffy fur-but then again, I don't because I know it wouldn't really feel loved because I still really miss Duke, so how can I give my full, undying love to a new heart so quickly in such hasty transition?
That's my ranting for tonight.
c ya!
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Sunday, November 7, 2004

   guess I'm staying.......for a while at least: bad news
At your insistance, I will stay on myO, but I don't know for how long. I feel that my existance here is only a pained, prolonged one.

I cried all day today; I barely ate anything, and I only raked leaves for about an hour.

And now for the bad news:
my mom says that she won't let me get another dog. ;_;

I don't want to go to school tomorrow because I feel like I'll just randomly burst into tears in the middle of Languages Arts or some other random class.

Until we meet again,
K-chan
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Saturday, November 6, 2004

   If only........

DOG! Wouf! Right, you search a good and loyal
friend with who you can work too and that's a
dog. They will protect you and are so playful.
Dogs like to be promoted and they learn fast.


What's your ideal pet? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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If only I could have my Dukey back........;_;

hullo, and yes, more pain today. I wish I could just be absorbed into another world like Dragonlance or Lord of the Rings and forget my pain. Duke's ashes came back. We're getting an urn made instead of the unbefitting plastic box they gave us. I want to die. I feel like I'm boring you just as you read this. Maybe I should leave myO and stop bothering you with my insignificant pain. I should just rid this retched world of myself forever. No one cares anymore. I wish they'd stop pretending and asking stupid questions. I'll go now........goodbye, perhaps forever, i must decide wether this pained mere existance is worth it or not.
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Friday, November 5, 2004

   Random Poem
Please tell me what you think of this poem.

Tell the Tale
Write me a poem about how the wind blows through the trees
On a warm summer’s eve. About the last time we kissed
At dawn in the mist. How the birds shall ever fly away
Before the break of Autumn’s Day.
Write me a poem about the rain. A sweet summer shower,
Or a harsh hurricane. Its soft caress, cool gentleness; its heart-racking
Pain
That can forever stain.
Write me a tale of fantastical things. Where there are elves and enchanted rings
And dragons soar on their wings. Where there are magical forests and sprites.
And wizards light up the night for our delight.
Write me canticle to remind us of old. Reteach me all our songs, so often retold;
Of warriors bold and hearts ice cold that grew to shape our much feared fate.
Write me a poem about fire and might. Where power is everything
And you’re able to fight. Where tyrants rule, and in the game of life,
You’ve played the fool. Why a hero never came to reign, and end
My people’s pain. Or why I’ll wait forever more; behind stone walls,
Behind closed doors. Will the enemy never fall? Will he claim the lives
And souls of all? Our sons and daughters, they must run.
They hide in fear and miss those dear
Who were captured and fell; at the toll of the bell.
Write me a ballad about the battle in blood.
How we fought for freedom, but died mercilessly in the mud.
Write me a story about a better life. Where there’s
Courage, love, and freedom. Not war and strife. Where men are
Free
From sea to sea.
Rewrite our history in the book. Of a world based on trust instead of lust.
How we all taught instead of fought. How we cared and shared;
Not hated and glared. Rewrite our fate
Before it’s too late.

Write for me the lore anew
That will tell our tale
Through
and through.

Yeah, it sucks, but oh well.
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Thursday, November 4, 2004

   Hullo, back from lala-land and too much hw. Here's some questions I would like answered. I got them from aurus, who got them from Shanny.(I always site my sources so I cannot be called a plagerizer)

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression [of me]?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
16. What song are you listening to right now?
17. Do you love me?

okay, now that that's over...I finally finished this drawing for my Spanish "Día de los Muertos" project and researching different fantasy books, so know I will have nore time for u guys and girls out there :D

Yeah, I still REALLY miss my dog, Duke. I always keep a picture of him w/ me and I'm still wearing his dog collar. People keep asking me about it at school, and one girl even thought that I had had specially made. Um, hello? It's a NORMAL dog collar that you could buy at any nearby pet store! And besides, who wears a dog collar that says "Duke" on it when their name isn't Duke? Stupid people bother me -_-;;;;;
I'll add a poem that I've been working on later. ttyl

k-chan
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