Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Quite a long time.
Yes. It has been such a long time since I had written a journal entry. Let me say just a few things. I have changed so much. I've grown up and I don't auctally act like a child anymore. My life has changed dramaticly. I doubt that my friends on my list comes on much anymore... A few more things. My parents had gotten a divorce and I am quite happy about it. My mother was taking pain killers to 'ease her pain'. I find it so silly. She doesn't live with us anymore and we are living a much happier life. Nothing ever goes wrong anymore. I think back to the past and I find myself thinking of Misao and Khriz. Oh, how do I miss them so much. How I was so rude to Misao and how I think that was so rude of me. How I kept hurting Khriz... Thinking that I hurt myself inside, too. I'm recently trying to get ahold of them as much as I can, so I can apologize, even if they don't accept it.

Well... I don't know much of what to say. I've graduated from high school in May. Congradulations to me! This summer, I had gotten a haircut, which looks very awesome. Plus, along with a lip peircing. I am quite proud of myself that I had auctally gotten that done. This lip peircing is looking very beautiful on me, I love it. Well... This is the update. I haven't gotten a boyfriend since... the mistake of Cody. I've had... at least three guys after me. One had already asked me to party with him 4 times. I've turned him down. Another named Nicholas, asked me to a date. I set him up and he kept talking to me. Playing hard to get is quite fun, auctally. Though, I don't wish to be with anybody anymore. Heh. It's much easier than being with somebody, that is for sure.
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Hey
Things are great. Though, Last night, my mother made me cry again. Me and my sensitive feelings. XD Today my mom gave me some of her make-up. And it is auctally good make-up. It brings out the eyes. some of my aunts foster kids are here. Well all of them. There are only 4. they are a handfull. Dont know why they would want to come here. Nothing is special here. Simply boring. 'Cept the two days of movie night and popcorn until 12:00 xD
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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Remidner to self
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Sunday, August 5, 2007

Getting better
Everything is getting better.
Mother wants to spend time with me more.
She isn't depressed much.
I dont think that she is on the Pain Pills anymore.
I do think that I ws to angry at her to notice it.
I believe that is an attack of the devil.
To keep me from being happy.
Well, It just hit me.
The devil can't make me sad any longer.
Mother just spend around 100 dollars oh me for school clothes and items.
i an quite happy.
The Lord if helping her out.
I just hope tht she keeps up with this attitude.
We do have disagreements but everybody does.
I will learn to respect her more than anything.
My only problem now, is my uncle and his cancer and his children.
Lord, Please guide them to the light
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Friday, August 3, 2007

Sometimes i wonder
You know, sometimes I wonder whether I fit in the family.
I wonder, why does my so called "mother" keep calling me stupid?
It doesn't come out as, "you re stupid", It comes out as "why cant you do anything right" type of statement.
It hurts. She is always the one who makes me cry.
I dont want to cry anymore from her.
She hurts me so much.
I want to be gone.
I want to be out of here.
Lord, please help me!
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