hey guys im off of school today, dont know why but i am!! well i had a talk with my mom grandma and aunt and it was really weird~!!! they were talking to me about my life down at my dads which they wanted t know what is said about my mom and why i want to live down here so much and then we all cried and my aunt lisa was hillarious!! (she is the funniest out of all) im justl ike her too!! well my day is good except that i just got up from a very good sleep so oi would hve time toget on annd talk ot yu guys today!! well im going to end with a poem and go back to sleep or somethng!!
~rissa~
Infected with the impurity of a sick girl.
Shunning those who love her, turning her back on the world.
I am facing reality head on.
My weakness for you overrides, I must be strong.
Ashamed of what God has left in my hands.
This empty Hell they call life, I do not understand.
If we die anyways, left only with the past.
Our last breath, only a recap of what will never last.
I am perfect in suicidal wants and urges.
Wanting to feel alive, as my worst nightmare emerges.
The only saviour I could feel has left me here to rot.
You were something to hold onto whether you knew or not.
Peeling petals off of dying daisies.
Exhausted from "what if's" and "maybe's"
I don't believe in bliss for it never came to my door.
Paralyzing silence as I once again fall through the floor.
This never fails to thicken the sorrow.
Facing myself without you today and tomorrow.
Gone forever, so far away, soon you will dissolve in my memory.
Screaming inside for you and only you to save me.
Falling and suffocating as I stumble into my mistakes.
I'm sorry for everything I've done, my redemption, what will it take?
Close my eyes and pray for something new.
I'd do anything if just for one moment I could be with you.
Just being alive is never quite enough.
I must endure the worst kind of pain you've ever heard of.
But for one second I feel whole, as I hear your voice.
Now I know, above all I must make my choice.
Will I live for no one or die for you, for I am only seeking for perfection.
The ugliness that is me becomes my reflection.
Maybe we all come to be too quiet.
No one speaks their heart as we let others pass by it.
I am just like the others afraid of how I feel.
Swept under pressure and that makes my mind surreal.
My love for you stays on the inside, and I will pick up the pieces.
Embrace my hopeful words and cover the creases.
But you can see me, you just don't know what's inside.
I'm smiling for you, that's the fake happiness on the outside.
You are with her, and I am standing on the edge of everything.
Wanting to plunge to my death, yes I would do anything.
If it would make you happy if I was dead.
I will shatter my dreams, and die instead.
I would die to make you smile.
That burning light that makes you who you are, an eternal fire.
I'd do anything to keep that fire burning forever.
Even if it meant, my wrists were bleeding and we weren't together.
I know I'm stupid, and worthless and hopeless.
But maybe you'd notice if I was gone from this.
I love you so far.
I won't forget you are.
Just say the word and I will dissapear.
Forever from you, forever from here.
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Monday, May 15, 2006
hey guys wats up!!
hey wats up im so gald to get to talk again to you guys!! oh and srry to you guys that couldnt read it!! i changed the color and all!!! well my day was pretty good and i only have my guitar to practice and im off tomorrow so i might be on at aboutu 9:00 am tomorrow while my mom is gone to the docor with my brother!! yays i get o see you guys more!! well the poem thing is still going and my love life is down the drain!! yeah *sniffle...sniffle* i talked t him last night and asked him about if it was true when he said that he doesnt believe in love and he said he really doesnt so the i asked him if it ws all a lie when he told me he loved me and he said he didnt understand love and i explained what i could to him but it was no use i dont even know why i try!! well i hope you gys are doin' ok and are having a great day!!!
heres your poem!!
~rissa~
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There was a boy and a girl that deeply loved each other
All the thoughts they had were only about one another
A terrible fate they faced ending with hearts broken
The pain they both felt was never voiced or spoken
One day they sat together she leaned against his chest
She had to tell him something; put things to rest
She sighed ready to speak what she had to say
He was oblivious to the pain he would feel that day
Im sorryshe said I cant see you anymore
The words froze his body; frost nipped at his core
Why? he yelled as watched her slowly cry
I love you more than anything without you I would die!
She yelled those words in hopes that he would see
He only yelled selfishly How could you do this to me?
She got up slowly and began to walk away
She stopped for she had one more thing to say
I love you she said heres one last kiss
Lips touched lips a felling theyd both miss
When the kiss was broken she quickly ran away
He walked home for there was nothing more to say
He went over what happened as he lay on his bed
Then it hit him thoughts swirled in inside his head
Without you I would die is what she said to him
The words she said were things not to simply skim
He needed to see her, to her house he began to run
How could he be so stupid and done the things hed done
He got their a second to late; in her house he heard a bang
As he ran to look for her; his ears loudly rang
He opened her bedroom door and there she was lying
He saw her blood on the floor and then began crying
She had shot herself and theres nothing he could do
He whispered to her lifeless body Ill always love you.
Later her father came and opened her bedroom door
He saw his daughters lifeless corpse lying on the floor
Days later her boyfriend lay alone in his prison cell
Lonely and heartbroken his skin was deathly pale
One morning he was discovered his body hung from a bar
He had killed himself so lonely without his star
A note sat beside him the police had found and read
Only one would know the meaning of what it said
My love, without you I dont know what to do
I love you so much so killed myself for you
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
Thx!!!
thx for you guys worrying about me!! i am a little sad but that was a poem i found and really liked!! i am sad though bcuz my best friend TJ and me are really close friends and i kinda asked him but then he said it was basically just friendship but were still really good friends and love and care about each other!! another reason though is that he lied and told me he wasnt going out with anyone and he is so yeah!! but ne ways other than that i am just fine!! last night i had a blast! me and my step mom went out to get our nails done then we came back and we all took her out to Don Pablos for dinner!! it was really good!! we then went to the fundome and skated till' 9:00 and it was hillarious bcuz my dad totally showed me up in skating!! he was really good(he's had yrs of practice though!!!) i also found out that everyone from school that i knew was there and it really freaked me out cuz i didnt know what was going on ut ten i found out that it was devons b-day party and i wasnt invited so yeah!!! but i still had fun cuz i was with my family!! well im going to start putting up poems and if you want to read them if not you dont have to but ill tell you if i find them or write them!! well heres another one!!
~rissa~
(this one really fits the TJ thing)
Why did we have to meet?
Why did I have to fall for you?
You've touched my life,
You've read my soul.
You became my friend but I felt more.
I asked you if you felt the same way,
But you only said no.
I was crushed and cried a little,
And have tried to move on,
Have tried to forget you.
But I just can't do that,
Because I love you.
i also liked this one!!
Cutting
The tip of the icy blade touches my fragile skin,
I grasp it tightly and drag it across my wrists.
Pain starts shooting up my arm.
Droplets of crimson blood start seeping out.
More and more,it doesn't stop.
An unexplainable bliss fills me.
Watching the blood seep out.
I feel calm , soothed and content.
I'm relesing all my pain,my hate from each drop.
The wound closes up, the blood stops seeping out.
My blissful heaven is gone.
My wonderful high is gone.
The harsh reality comes back to me.
All that is left of my heaven are scars.
With each tell a story,
A story that only I know.
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
HI's!!
yes the last poewm was true and yes it is really sad!!! i have another one to give you and its not that bad!! see look i just made a rhyme,but im going to go so i dont waste your time. nah i am just playin' i was just trying to see how easy it was to rhyme and it's pretty easy!! so i hope your guys day went well mine did and im going later to get my nails done!!! Yays for me!! well heres the poem and i love ou all!!!
~rissa~
Tortue Me. [Poem]
With A Title Like This.. Don't Be Shocked.
.Torture.Me.
Torture Me,
Until I Die,
I'd Rather Be In Hell,
Than Cause You To Cry.
Hope I Die Slowly,
Hope You Put Me Through Pain,
Hope You Push Me To Madness,
Hope You Drive Me Insane.
Like Scissors Through My Heart,
A Blade In My Skin,
As The Blood Flows Out,
Of The Holes From Within.
Like A Hole In My Head
Like The Gunshot To Make,
So Lets Do It Again,
For Good Times Sake.
Light The Match,
Let It Fucking Burn,
The Smell Of My Skin Melting,
To Make Your Stomache Turn.
Hit Me, Smack Me,
Please Just Attack,
Scratch Out My Eyes
Let It Turn Black.
Hear My Screams,
As You Gouge Out My Eyes,
Let It Remind You,
Of The Tears In Your Eyes.
Cut Off My Fingertips,
After Ripping Out My Nails,
Nails Of My Fingers,
And The Sound Of My Wails.
Then Go Ahead,
Pull Out My Hair,
Tiny Strands At A Time,
Just To Be Fair.
Cut Off My Tongue,
So I Can't Speak,
So I Only Taste The Blood,
From The Wound, Does Leak.
Make Me Swallow My Blood,
The Salty Taste,
Pour It Down My Throat,
And Across My Face.
Cut Me To Pieces,
Pull The Tourniquet Tight,
So I Die Slowly,
And Maybe Not Tonight.
Dismember My Body,
Beyond Repair,
Without A Face, Hands,
Arms Or Hair.
And Do It Slow,
It's Only Fair,
After What I've Done,
Took Your Heart To Tear.
Just Before,
I'm Completely Dead...
Hope I Can Express,
What I Mumbled In My Head.
I'm Sorry For It,
Sorry For It All,
Sorry For The Big Lies,
Sorry For The Small.
For The Cheating,
The Continuous Heartbreak,
But, Hell, This Is Karma,
My Lifes Yours To Take.
Leave Me Here,
Let Me Die,
To Take Back The Hours,
Of Life You Spent Crying.
Take Me To That Place,
Abandoned, Alone,
Where You Finish Me Off,
And Leave My Flesh And Bones.
Leave Me Here To Die Bitch,
Leave Me To Bleed,
Let Me Die Alone,
It Was Never Meant To Be.
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Friday, May 12, 2006
 hey this is sad and i want you to read it all!!
My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid I must be bad,
What else could have made my daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly.
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all,
I can't do a wrong.
Or else I'm locked up,
All the day long.
When I awake,
I'm all alone.
The house is dark,
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car,
My daddy is back
From Charlie's bar.
I hear him curse,
My name he calls.
I press myself,
Against the wall.
I try and hide
From his evil eyes.
I'm so afraid now,
I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl.
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor,
With my bones nearly broken.
And my daddy continues,
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!" I scream
But its now much too late,
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate.
The hurt and the pain,
Again and again.
Oh please God. Have mercy!
Oh please let it end.
And he finally stops
And he heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor.
My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.
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please don't post this again on quizzila, but please send it to your friends, and please do not give me any credit.
This poem was written and passed around the internet after a three year old girl was murdered by her father. Three years old! What can you do? Keep passing it. If you have a website, post it on your site. And always, always speak out against it at every available opportunity.
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