Wednesday, February 21, 2007

love the Roy ~_^ ooo la la




=) changed my background.. actually i can say, i added a background...thanks to yensid for helpin me out ^^ (seriously i was html-ly un-educated until she she recommended some helpful sites. because i apparently cant read and missed the recommendations on almost every page of this site) 0_o
much appreciation to her (bows humbly).

not much new in the day-to-day with me. wake, shower, work, eat, sleep...repeat. im not complaining. (thats the cancer in me) always need to feel purposeful. the only problem i have is that the paycheck is tiny and id like to make enough to save and continue the ongoing saga of escaping suburbia. (seriously, you know the town from Edward Scissor Hands? where every house looks the same, and the men all leave in the morning at the same time? and the woman do housework all day?)...thats my neighborhood. (shudders) creepy


~kenyo

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

ok at the risk of sounding like a total idiot....
i accidentally deleted my background and i dont know how to put one back on....
there i said it...i am html deficient...
my secret is out
please help
~kenyo
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

mmm aoshi ^^



well im back.
im sorry its been a while. i have been working and running around so much, i havent had time to sit and think for a quick minute. the stress is killing me, but im the type that loves to have something to do all the time, to feel useful.
anyway, i got a new car. Yay! im pretty excited about that. its nothing special, actually its an old thunderbird. but it only had 47k original miles on it and its real clean. much better than the P.O.S. cavalier i was driving. and its green. my favorite color ^.^ lol
nothin much new to report..
the blizzard has finally hit ohio. so i cant really go anywhere for the next two days. ill probably go build a snowman tomorrow ^^ i havent done that all year. i have a siberian husky named mattie, and shes been chomping at the bit to go play in the snow. so ill have fun being dragged around tomorrow.
i saw a couple of movies recently...
first was Children of Men: while the plotline is intense and the direction is superb, i wouldnt suggest seeing this movie if your in a particularly good mood, because it will shoot it down in a heartbeat. all i can say is, after seeing it, i went home and gave everyone in my family a hug, because it truly makes you appreciate everything you have.
the second was Because i Said So: now im not really big on chick flicks, theyre usually corny, over-dramatic, and extremely weepy. and this one fit in all of the above, but it was a feel-good story about a mother and daughter. and i have to say i did enjoy it. not a five star film by any means, but a good one to rent with mom on a sunday.

well, thats it for me. time for a cig and a long hot bath
later
~kenyo
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Thursday, January 25, 2007

I have had this strange urge to drop kick something all day..
I woke up at 7:30 this morning for no frickin reason. which, does not happen. (i wake up at 2:30 every day). the shit part about it is that, i had my alarm set for 1:30 so i could get some chores done. so im awake at 7:30 wonderin why the hell thats possible...just staring at the ceiling...
i finally fall back asleep and wake up at 10. to the phone ringin.
Now, i love sleep...its something i cherish dearly. My parents call me a vampire because i stay up till 3 or 4 in the morning and sleep all day. So at this point....im pissed.
I ignore the phone and forced myself back to sleep cuz i know if i didnt within 15 minutes, id be awake all day, and i wasnt havin that.
I wake up the third time and sit straight up, guess what? my alarm didnt go off. My battery had died at some point and it was 3:15 in the ever lovin afternoon. As soon as i realize what time it is....i also realize....i dont have a car.
Last week i was in an accident and the guy who looked at my damage decided to total it.
Ive been driving my parents car while they drive the rental. and i had forgotten that they returned the rental yesterday.
So here i am...sitting in bed...enraged at my own stupidity.
And thats how i started the day.

When i came home this evening to get online...my mother walks downstairs in a huff to scold me from being on the computer.
And now...i wanna damage something.
Its cool how i can be a respectable adult while im out in the world, but as soon as i get home im 5 again.
(anger)
(deep breath)
Its ok...its incentive to escape suburban hell.

this too shall pass

~kenyo
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

the first snow!



It snowed for the first time yesterday ^^ im so glad cuz i thought we would actually get through the winter without it. i know there are several thousand people in the mid-west who are hating me for saying that. but i cant help but be excited that i at least got to see a small amount of snow this year.

I feel like ive been in a bad mood for about 6 months. (you: huh?) lol and yes i just realized this yesterday. ^_^x Its very strange cuz it hit me out of nowhere. I have to be honest and say im not the most emotional person youd ever meet. In fact ive been called the Ice Queen on more than one occasion...which is more or less, exactly how i come across. I have to actually TRY to feel things. and most of the time i dont even bother. (why am i sharing this info?) well, for my benefit. Simply by sharing these things with others helps me to cope with expression. For the majority of my life i have shared Sesshomaru's expression: "if you cant understand my silence, you will never understand my words."
A talk with a friend yesterday helped me to realize that ive been living a half-life. You have to open up to feel anything good. And even though the ice is melting very slowly....im trying. and thats more than ive done for myself in a long time.
:end sappy expression:

so, thanks for reading this far
peace all around

~kenyo
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Sunday, January 14, 2007

nothing but rain



So i got into another accident on my way to work today ^_^ yay! Some idiot rear-ended me at a stoplight. He said he thought i was gonna go through it, but he had plenty of time to stop. He actually slid into me.
Im not too worried about the damage to my car because its a major POS but i know im gonna be sore tomorrow. Thank the stars i dont have to work though.
What a dreary month january is turning out to be.
Lovely way to start out the year. Things can only get better i suppose...
I just cant wait to start watchin some new anime..
any suggestions? theres a lot i havent seen...
im pretty sure WEISS is next on the list but after that, i suppose ill just go with the wind...
any input would be helpful though ^^

~Kenyo
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Wednesday, January 3, 2007

I really wish it would snow



So now that the holiday craze-fest is over...i can breathe again. I swear Christmas gets worse every year. At first, i thought it was because i was gettin a little older and my childhood was slipping away..but now that i look at it from a further perspective, it really is just getting rediculously watered-down.
I wonder if in ten years, when i have kids (god forbid) that there'll be no Santa at all, and christmas morning everyone will hand out gift cards to best buy. It sucks. Not even from a religious point of view either. I know santa and gifts is not what its about...but the spirit of the season is just dwindling....its sad.
Im pretty sure global warming isnt helping either. Snow would probably help.
So im done bashing the holiday. I will keep praying for snow though. I miss it.

So my buddy has me watching this new show....well new to me anyway. Its on the british network and its called Dr. Who. And, im kinda addicted. And that doesnt happen so easily. Not only is the story line well thought-out but the writing is excellent. Im duly impressed with it.
Just thought I'd put it out there. Not too many people have heard of it.
Gotta spread the word.

I also watched the first Rurouni Kenshin movie the other night. The set was a christmas gift which im very thankful for. They're beautifully animated, and now i wanna watch the whole series again before i see the other one. I probably will. Morgan's an anime-nut with me. She'll do it. ^.^

So thats about it for me...need a cig, and Jade's calling.

~Kenyo
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Thursday, December 21, 2006

   haha im doin somethin crazy



Yep im gonna dye my hair. White.
(begin lecture on how ruined my hair will be)
i know. i realize this means i have to strip out all the (dark) color, and my hair will become extremely dry and damaged. But seriously, at this point, i dont care. Honestly, i would rather it look ruined than mundane as it is now.
You see, i shudder at the thought of conformity....even if it means destroying something beautiful. (sinister grin)
Man i am evil....my friends are right.
lol its funny cuz its true. ^.^


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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

   ...Ok then..



Ok...so my dad walked in tonight wearing a pink, flowery dress....
I swear my parents get weirder everyday. Aparently he lost a bet on a football game. I have to say he looked beautiful ^_^
(images of Yukimura flashing in my head)
I ask myself everyday why Im not trying harder to get out of this house and thats just one more reason on top of the heaping pile that is my life.
Anyway, i started a new job last week. Im a pizza cook now. Yay income!! I forgot what it was like to get a paycheck. Before this i was a preschool karate instructor. The job was alright, considering i had to deal with snot-nosed, germ-infested, 3-foot sacks of unco-ordinated mush. AND, i had to drive everywhere over god's green earth to each preschool. AND, i never got paid. Once. I worked there for 3 months and never got a paycheck. The reason i stayed so long was because i enjoyed the training i got. So, now im thinkin, i pay for my own training, go back to the dojo and kick Shihan's ass for not payin me. (no, im not bitter -_-)And somehow, i dont think its wise to even figuratively talk about kicking a 3rd Dan's ass....Oh well.
Ok time to retire. My kitty's calling me.



~Kenyo
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Monday, December 18, 2006

Hello OtakuWorld

My first post ever! Yay! I truly hope it holds attention. If not...i apoligize. I'll get better with time. I kinda figure this space to be a form of expression anyway yaknow? A chance to get things out, reguardless of how others react..that's my thought anyway. In which case, i must warn anyone who reads not to take me too seriously. I have an extremely dry sense of humor, and i tend to come off a bit....harsh. If this is the case at any time, tell me, i enjoy friendly banter ^^. Speaking of cigarettes....(huh?)...i need one. So anywho, please enjoy my page. And thanks to the MorganLady for helpin out. (kisses)
Toodles
~Kenyo
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