Sunday, June 11, 2006

The Number "3"
1- I went over to Evan's house and spent the night. Apparently she had a dream about me the night before. I was wearing a ninja uniform (not sure which one) but she said that I was just comming out of the trees. (If you saw Naruto last night then you know how) And in her dream she just stood there till she woke up. -.-

2- I couldn't sleep last night, I felt so uneasy. I just kept seeing something replaying in my head. Odd images pop up and they all involve some sort of pain. This one was of a wrist and i had seen it before (about a week before) but it just kept replaying. That same wrist, the grayish skin tone, the dark glow of the blood seeping from the wrist and onto the floor and the hand. it just kept replaying till i finally got sleep. But i was so scared. I felt death was near and I tell myself, "I'm not afraid of death, it's the pain that i fear"

3- I got home and amazingly no one yelled at me. So I'm sitting at my computer, waiting for this guy I like to get on the net. but something tells me that even after he said, "You are the only one for me," I have this feeling that he found someone else. I'm not dating him, I'm not his girlfriend, I've only known him for 3 or so months and alot of people are like, "Yeah! Go with him!" while there are people who are close to me who are saying, "No, I don't trust him, don't let your heart blind you." I just don't know what to do right no. For now, I want to get to know him. I love him yes, but how do you know when you are in love?
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Thursday, June 8, 2006

My mother
ok, if you have seen all the other updates about what my mother does then you'll understand my insanity...

i wrote this today on a piece of paper, it'll tell you why i wrote it too, or what led to it....

"'Please don't compare me to mother, please don't compare me to mother, please don't..." that's all that's going through my mind... as i try to do dishes it won't stop, I start to think more (about other things too) but it just keeps playing over and over.... "please don't compare me to mother," why won't it stop?!?! Make it stop!!! Please!! I'm crying... it's leaving but i know it will be back once I stop writing.... I was talking to Dad, Mom had said that i needed to go to bed at a better time, but she can't make me sleep! I don't want to be like her!! I HATE IT! Dad is always saying, "you're just like you mother..." I don't care what people say! I don't want to be like her, -- ---- ---!!"

(i had to cut it out sorry)

and that's what i wrote... I still hear it faintly.

i also hear the phone ringing alot too... it won't really stop either.

please make it stop...
~KFC
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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Several Days of Updates :3 you know you love me.
Well, here's the update.

Saturday: Amanda came over and she met the neighbors, and so far 2 of my friends (her being the second) have met them and they both say that they're hot. They're in a band and they're kinda new here. there's 4 of them, some random chick and some kinda big buy. i hear the land lord is this old hag though. Well that night we went outside onto a trampoline around midnight and we heard the guys getting drunk.

Sunday: it was my birthday and mum dropped cake on Claire.
Amanda spent the night.
Around midnight we went outside and messed around on the trampoline.

Monday: Parents went to work and Amanda was still here. not much really happened though. later Amanda went home.

Tuesday:
well i talked to this guy named Masami all day on the net, he's pretty nice but some how we went from talking about hackers to talking about ways to kill people. o.O but we didn't hate it.

Wednesday:
well, here we get to today. i try to sleep but the phone is ringing all morning (again -.-) so i try to get some sleep but i can't. this guy named Ian is over hanging out with Claire, we have some work that needs to be done before out parents get home, and Amanda will be comming over again to spend the night, i'm not sure how long she's staying this time though.

well, i've got some mail to check up on, and i feel lonely here on myO no one really PMs me anymore. i think that's why i'm loosing my touch at updating now. o-o

take care!
~KFC
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

hi!!!!!! (again!!!)
well yesterday i told you about my freaky school councelor, some people told me he seems like a petifile. owell, i won't have to deal with him next year at least. well i'm a school again and my throat kinda hurts. this is the last actual week of school for me. next week people are going to go on a Washington DC trip and i'm not going. i'm staying home on monday and on thursday of that week. so i'll probably be on guild wars most of those two days. i'm listening to blink 182 again ^-^ and on the walk home i'll be listening to Godsmack. why, you may ask, am i telling you this? well the answer, i do not know. ^-^

~take care
~~KFC
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

this is EXACTLY what i told a friend
lol, i'm sorry. i stayed home yesterday and slept most of the time. i'm still a little sick though i have to get to school ^^' owell, almost everyone who went to the dance got sick so i guess it won't make a difference. i was irritate yesterday beause i had to dance (i don't like to dance that much) in front of who know's how many people for my choir concert. and this councelor who works at my school (he always tells me to smile) was there and today he pulled me out of class just to tell me, "hey cassie, how are you today? (i answer here then he replies then says:) well i didn't pull you out of class for anything importaint, but i wanted to tell you that you did (or looked, i can't remember) great out there in the concert last night, and i was so happy to see you in another color (i usually wear dark colors). you looked wonderful in your red shirt (i thought it hugged me too much...) so, i'm happy we got some color (as in, "i'm glad that you wore something other than black and the other dark colors i see you wearing"). (i say something like: but black is a color - he thinks it's not but then i say after he denies it - in my world it is.) sorry it's so long ^^'
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ok, so I’m here in CCC right now (it’s some computerized class and I can’t see what I’m typing because I don’t want to get caught by the teacher….. my friend LZ isn’t here either. My other friend Patrick doesn’t have net right now so I can’t talk to him… (I miss him) well someone just printed something out and they should be coming to get it soon, I think my teacher is wondering what I’m doing too. I’m actually cold right now and they’re talking about banana splits. Well I gotta get back to my homework, remind me to update when I get home, there’s more to say ^^’

P.S. remind me about the councelor here, Mr. Myers.

~thanks

~KFC
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Monday, May 15, 2006

   hi!
Hey all, i'm back at school again. we're breading fruit flys -.-' Ev and i are partners in this project and our male died. (but he's not the mustated one o-O) anyway. i'm done with the powerpoint thing, but the teacher doesn't have to know that. i'm also listening to blink 182! ^o^ i feel so bored. oh on friday i went to this dance thing and got a major headache the next day and i still have it. maybe it's just hunger, sorry for all the periods, i don't know why i'm typing them so many times, i think it's a force of habbit from "......" <---- from that.

gah! >.< not again!! (the headache comes back and forth through the days i have it throughout the time but i get sudden bursts of pain.) um...... let me think.... oh!

1~ yes i'm in my school chior.
2~ i wrote a poem!
3~ remember that poetry contest from last year? well i'm entering this year's competition thing.
4~ for those of you who don't know about the competition....
i have to enter a poem by a certain time of the year (3 contests are held a year) if i get first then i win either $3000 or prizes worth that much. anyone who enters will get their poem published in a book along with all the other poems sent in.
5~ do you want to read it? (keep reading on and you will)

Your Last

Let the blood fall down like rain,
Never wash it away again,
Shattered glass lies like snow,
Touch it and you’ll know,
This is where it all shows,
This is the path you chose,
Break down in sadness; take it in,
Let loose your wrath; your last sin,
Tell me nothing; I want the end,
This is the last message you will send,
This is the collection of broken hearted dreams,
Out sanity unraveling at the seams,
What am I to be,
This is all I see,
Break down in sadness; take it in,
Let loose your wrath; your last sin,
You’ll die anyway,
So I have list to say;
Tell me nothing; I want the end,
This is the last message you will send,
I have one more message I need to say,
This is it; it’s your last day.

well i gotta go now, bye people ^-^

~KFC
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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

woosh!
ok, now that that's out of my system.... ok, here's more on what's been going on....

yes i love advent children ^-^

i just walked like 2.5 miles XD

i feel high again ^o^

ok.... ummm.. let's see.... oh! ok, i'm getting out of school early because they're gonna do construction on the school. but they're not going to replace the walls, just everything else ^w^

oh! when i was listening to the radio this is what i heard!:
some guy asked a girl to watch the sunset then took her onto a suspension bridge and watched it there, some guy saw them and thought they were gonna commit suicide and called the police. well they were "saved" but still have to pay the rescue fee.

i think it was in Russia. o-o

i'm kinda bored, but happy ^-^ hungy, but happy!!! ^o^ ok, ok..... *takes deep breath* i think i'm good.

well i dun remember anything else right now ^^'
c ya!
~KFC

P.S.! oh! i just remembered! on Monday and tuesday of next week is a rehersal and concert for the choir i'm in.
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Monday, May 8, 2006

   KFC is back
hey people. i'm at school right now and doing some stupid work. it's the final project for my science class, i can't believe this year is almost over. (18 more days!) i can't wait till summer vacation, i don't know what i'm gonna do but i'm gonna do something. well remember how i have Advent Children now? well i already have a waiting list on who wants to borrow it. -.- i spent the weekend with some friends and had some fun. Ev thought that the movie was boring and she brought Howl's Moving Castle but the DVD was broken.... well i'm found out, i gotta go, bye!

~KFC

P.S. ~ i can say more later, i'm trying to get better at updating more often ^^'
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Monday, May 1, 2006

Hey people
what's up? i've been getting ripped off ^^' i bought advent children for $20 when i could have bought it for $14. then i ordered an new Final Fantasy game which i'm gonna buy for $50 but, i found that i could have ordered it for $35 else where.
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