Sunday, September 24, 2006

fulfilling my role.....
song: everytime we touch
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you feel my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you feel my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you feel my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life

yea i know its mushy, but if you dont like it tough. SO yea this was another weekend that went way too fast. Friday, since I didnt have a game, I spent at traders after school. I was there until around 11, during which i was forced into giving massages by 2 of the 3 blondes... and got to meet satan in the form of one of my friends while i was doing it.....really scary. Saturday was very meh, cuz plans fell through that i was REALLY looking forward to. But I did get to play in the storm with tori, sethos, christa, michael, and some random guy. TWas fun. And sunday I spent hanging out with tori and sethos over at toris. Much fun to be had. And the other half was told to peeps this weekend, so yea... if oyu didnt know before, you know now. well peace out fer now yall, stay classy.

Ace of Hearts

and Ancrete
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Thursday, August 24, 2006

I dont know how much longer I can maintain this good boy facade. Only two other times have I had to restrain myself this badly, and one doesnt really count because I was extremly depressed and wasnt much in the mood for such things. Jeez can't it just end so i keep my little bit of sanity?!
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

my patience has run out... and I believe that a certain soemone is avoiding me, all they have to do is tell me and its over... thre people i love, so close and yet, all out of my grasp
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Sunday, August 13, 2006

affirmation
Just a little here or there to let me know what I am doing is not all for nothing. My patience is runnign thin, I feel like I've taken enough and they need to make a decision, so I can move on if its not to be. I dont even want a definite yes or no, just reasurrance I guess is how I'll put it, that is what I am after, just dont lead me on. I wil still be there as a friend, dont ever think I won't, but you know how I feel and this..... teasing.. is just really starting to push me away.

Ace of Hearts
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Monday, August 7, 2006

There is a reason they are called crushes....
I spent most of the night tossing and turning, but failed in sleep, because all I could think of was her. Then around 2, just as I finally fade off to sleep, my phone beebs it's text message beeb. I open it to find her answer, and its is just as I expect, although it is still not what I want to hear. So now I sit here typing this to keep my sanity, wondering why I cant seem to replicate what I had in Maryland once again. Am I just doomed to be alone here, is this duty assignment a punishment for something that I have done that I am not aware of? 5 people in this state, 5 and I have been in a relationship for jut over a month between them. I am just giving up at this point, there is no reason to continue in futility. And in an odd irony, i read this in what I usually consider my joke of the day: my horroscope. That certain someone had you on tenterhooks, and they've finally come to a decision about the role you play in their life. Funny thing is, once your hear it, you realize you cared more about the suspense than the person. Well I can only pray this is true, because I cant stand feeling like this, it clashes with my normal hyperness. I guess it is a good thing sh doesnt ever use myotaku, because as much as this sucks, she doesnt need to read this and feel bad for making the decision she did. This post probabl will get deleted after I feel better anyways. Oh well anyways now I am going to try to sleep for a couple hours, before football two a days start up.

Forever single,
Ace of Hearts
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Post party report!!!
Man Tori's party was freakin awesome!!!! It rocked so hard the cops came simply because it looked cool! Tori congrats on teh sweet 16, even though it was a couple weeks ago.... and super congrats on throwing a drama free party! It was nice to have our group get together and everyone just have a good time for once. See guys it is possible, and no one had to die for it to happen. So now i wont put up with anything less than that party, because that is how it should always be. If you have issues with someone, do so in private and not at the party, wait till after or omething like that. Anywho done ranting now....
One thing that came out of this party for me, is now... I cant stop thinking about this girl, no matter hwo hard I try to get her out out of my mind, she keeps popping back in. Normally, that would be all fine and dandy, but she already is in a relationship, and the last time I let my emotions go thier course, I screwed up BIG time. Now its driving me nuts, so I am getting this down on here, so I can maybe get a temporary reprieve and get some sleep, unlike last night where I tossed and turned all night, thinking about the party and if I said the right things to her.... well I guess there is no goin back and changing things anyway, but it wont go away, like my mind is stuck in some crazy loop from which I cant escape. *sigh* if only love was easier eh? I guess then it wouldnt be as special, or anywhere near as much fun. Well I am going to try and sleep.... night yall

Ace of Hearts
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