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Monday, August 7, 2006

There is a reason they are called crushes....
I spent most of the night tossing and turning, but failed in sleep, because all I could think of was her. Then around 2, just as I finally fade off to sleep, my phone beebs it's text message beeb. I open it to find her answer, and its is just as I expect, although it is still not what I want to hear. So now I sit here typing this to keep my sanity, wondering why I cant seem to replicate what I had in Maryland once again. Am I just doomed to be alone here, is this duty assignment a punishment for something that I have done that I am not aware of? 5 people in this state, 5 and I have been in a relationship for jut over a month between them. I am just giving up at this point, there is no reason to continue in futility. And in an odd irony, i read this in what I usually consider my joke of the day: my horroscope. That certain someone had you on tenterhooks, and they've finally come to a decision about the role you play in their life. Funny thing is, once your hear it, you realize you cared more about the suspense than the person. Well I can only pray this is true, because I cant stand feeling like this, it clashes with my normal hyperness. I guess it is a good thing sh doesnt ever use myotaku, because as much as this sucks, she doesnt need to read this and feel bad for making the decision she did. This post probabl will get deleted after I feel better anyways. Oh well anyways now I am going to try to sleep for a couple hours, before football two a days start up.

Forever single,
Ace of Hearts
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