Sunday, August 14, 2005

A fictional reality
Trapped in a pill, striped and white tipped.I have a dose given everyday, checked time and again.
Locked in with a manic room mate who used a fork to comit a hanus sin upon there very soul. A gash here a tear there, looks like he got caught in the fridge again. Angst caged, put down to "heal" our "broken" minds. Every night I pray for a sleep unthoughtful, so my family can say they "love" me once more before they o.d. me in this ward for the trapped. My day is never golden when I wake up away from comfort, just because my blood screwed up so badly and twisted my knife in their gut, just to steal my glory, the glory of me gaining my pinochiohness. I wanna be real in a world that is a fake marble made of perverted plastic instead of honest see through glass. The life I was to live, is dy ing a very humiliating death. As every muscle screams to noone but the dirt supporting the baloon of sadist thoughts, as a tiny pin pops it, it puts out a flame burning a dull grey. The ashn smoke rises to the sky of pitch diamonds, as the time around me slows down I hear a few final words. "I am sorry this world didn't take you, I did." Then I realize that those were my dying words to the only one I loved as I layed down across there body, I breath a wind to stetch across the world.
(I realize that a few parts are a little weird, and to me it doesn't feel complete yet but how is it? Oh I finaly fixed my comp as said in pos below and loaded my cd on it here is my gf. )
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Friday, August 12, 2005

Now to the bable
Well I finaly beat the game I have been trying to beat for a very long time, the last 2 times I owned the the game it was stolen and messed up by someone. But I beat it, It was called Xenogears. It is an awesome game I suggest to everyone. But its the thing that xenosaga came from. It is a very deep storyline and it has beautiful cutscenes, and it makes me think at the end it sayus episode 5, so does that mean there were 4 other games? But I will end my blabber, there. visit everyone soon. Bye.
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Thursday, August 11, 2005

I seperated a poem
(Living in the dying embers, and breathing the last of the oxygen around. Dying in the green grass the oxygen then becomes used.
Life is sucked away as the water rains down, on to my head from a barrel of what is above me. )

Well thats fixed up a little. I will definitley do a new poem soon, but not yet first I want to make one that everyone will not necisarily like but at least see what I see, you understand?
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Well...
School starts next week, I can't wait I have also made fixes to some poems I posted I will post these new improved poems sooner or later. I am getting ready for school, til then I will just post normal blabber, lol well I hope everyone elses summer is ok, mines picked up at the end.
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Tuesday, August 9, 2005

i finished
Those cursed chores I sear I picked up a friggin chair that was like my weight and I aint light so that was hard then rearranged my room and cleaned it and my allergies are killin me.
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Monday, August 8, 2005

I know...
I know what my sites symbol is, it is my avi, I have had that thing for so long that I think it has become my "thing" I won't be on tomorrow by the way, gotta do some mega chores, so wednes day I will be.
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Cyber Dreams
Digial eyes peering through the screen. Keeping warm in the asylum by the firewall.
In 1's and 0's I see everything outside my world. Plugged into the world, attached by a cord.
Thoughts welling up unnaturally behind glass. Four walls, built up around my dreams, one winow to show my dreams to the world.
So much of everything comes to me through these walls, through my cyber dreams.

(Hope everyone likes it.)
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Sunday, August 7, 2005

Hi
Well while I was grounded, I had a chance to think of a new poem and I will post it when I am not being lazy.
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Saturday, August 6, 2005

   I'm back
Well I am not grounded anymore, but how is everyone, having fun I hope. School starts soon enough so back to class I am happy bout that.
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Monday, August 1, 2005

Ok...
From now on when I say something I will clarify on meanings of what I type. But what I meant was I am going to be offline for a while, so no sites will be visited, for roughly almost a week. This is cuz I did something stupid please don't ask what though.

Bye, see everyone soon.
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