Thursday, March 29, 2007

a morbid end........wrong!
theres no such thing as a morbid end.......the way that it ended may be morbid and horrible, but the end is always the same, tranquil, ending are tranquil because its gone, non-existent, only in memory shall it exist, death is tranquil, calm and unchanging, unlike the dynamic and ever changing life, life is morbid, death is tranquil and calm,"Apathy; the death of caring," lololol ima copy right that one. shit.....makin myself laugh caused a loss of my train of thought.....
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Monday, March 26, 2007

   omg.....
i jus finished flame of recca....it was a sad yet happy ending......almost the same end for fullmetal alchemist.......both series made me cry at times, both made me laugh...i regret missing school now, cuz now i jus wanna go up and hug all of my friends really tight.....and i know i'll miss them when we part, from high school ima mniss many ppl when they graduate this year, ppl are uber important to me >< i luv all my friends,and i wanna beat up anyone who hurts them.....unless they are hurting each other then i jus hugg 'em all ^^..ima hate when any of us die,i know i will hate it when i die...there are ppl i know who will be sad when i die, and i dont want them to be sad >< and i know i'll be sad if any of my friends die, so to all my friends, i order you,its a command- dont die!dont leave me or i'll get really sad, or even angry, i'll find u in the after life and slap u big!sigh.....but my heart is pounding....sometimes i hate that i get so into these things.....i end up feeling as if i was in these stories myself.....i get so emotionally attached....and now....ima go eat some cereal and put another dent in my metal door.....u kno, the one that connects the garage to the kitchen? what ever...i need to punch and beat on someone..cya guys.(yes i get like this at the end of every series- i mean who didnt get emotional at the end of digimon season 2?)
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   hahaha!
i laugh at those who had to go to school today XP meow!! skippin is so fun!
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Saturday, March 17, 2007

   neat.....
luck frogs work!!!
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

its dark everywhere
it feels weird almost empty........its dark,i feel needs, but cant attain them, i am only a hollow shell, why do i have needs?i cant feel the cold, i want to,humanity the eternal flaw? if so its also the greatest strength, its imperfection, that is perfection.....being perfect sux...we are all perfect, and we hate it and some look further to attain something that doesnt exist, right now i'm jus rambling......demons are angels that have fallen, simply higher entities who formed their own thoughts not one with the great creator.this ofcourse is simply lore but its as real as it gets so in a sense it is real to the human mind, this lore was created by it so surely it is just as real to it......the supernatural is not so great and mysterious, the human mind has already been up and down through it, through the mystery, the abnormality, if it is comprehend able by the human mind, it is not truly supernatural is it? the existance of demons has never been proven everything that has been said demons had done are all clearly do-able by the human hand.the seven deadly sins, lust, wrath, greed, gluttony, envy, pride, sloth, they are considered sin, yet the ability to do conceive their ideas and perform them is human nature, so is being human a sin? all acts and states of, can grant acute happiness, is happiness a sin? whats wrong with being selfish and greedy? we live to die smiling don't we? freedom cant exist without a sense of humility- o and ppl reading this, these are random ideas that pop into my head, not all of them make sense, i'm rambling.intolerance can sprout from ignorance, and for ppl who do have that kind of intolerance are stupid. hate settles cravings. not hunger. the same to violence.
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Sunday, March 11, 2007

   nyah!
i need to do somethin....i need to spar or run or something, i wish jacob was here......we'd spar now or something....i'm watching bleach....on youtube, and some of these antagonists are really pissing me off........i feel like punching something really hard, srry, i get emotionally attached to anime series, like the stuff really moves me, i either cry or get really pissed.......like, right now i'm mad at the 12th squad captain of the soul society.....he thinks so little of other ppl.....everything is a test subject, or some meaningless creation, i hate him.i hate him the same way i hate itachi.....from naruto.....or yagami raito, from deathnote...the same way i hate kouran mori, magensha and moku-ren from flame of recca.....well i mainly hate moku-ren for being such an ass-wipe pervert............i hate those kinds of ppl, sadly there are lots of them in the world.........and i want to beat the crap outta all of them... watching anime does this too me.......well, some anime, other anime, make me feel like those ppl i hate, no reguard for human life, anime like elven lied......i guess i really have two egos.....creepy...... but the good thing is most of the time i'm good!!! but others......iunno, its kill kill kill kill kill! ^^ that sounds kinda bad i kno- and i dont really kill ppl ^^;;;;- i actually have a deathnte tho ^^;; lol
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Thursday, March 8, 2007

   today....teh suck
but it wasnt as bad as yesterday ^^
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Wednesday, March 7, 2007

   bleh.....
today was a shit day, somebody called me ugly not jokingly....i'm not teh prettiest, but u gotta say it to my face? and i didnt get nearly enough hugs today and skipping class is stupid, cuz ur bored most of the time and ur always nervous and paranoid that the campus security ppl will get u.....they saw me at all 4 lunches and didnt even bother......sigh.....i'm failing english and math....but a highlight was driver's ed, the cop that came in today was cool,-btw, ppl are douche bags, and i'm tired of being a push over.......one day ima jus explode and be an asshole to everyone, and ima beet up a select few.......usually i'd be filled w/ self pity and depression, now i'm jus starting to get pissed and angry......i need to let loose......
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Monday, March 5, 2007

   cra!
driver's ed was fun.....!!!
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Saturday, March 3, 2007

   another short and confuzing post
bleh, something cool could have happened tonight but instead something else cool happend, but a different kind of cool....old ppl are good ppl to talk to.....
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