Wednesday, May 24, 2006

   Shizuka and Seto -

I've been following this play on youtube forever. The pairing is ShizukaxSeto. But it's a little more complicated then just Shizuka and Seto... You see... Kisara is still on Seto's vacant mind... He loves her... and can't let go of her... Shizuka reminds him so much of his lost love... and whenever he sees her... memories of Kisara are plentiful. Basically this is the overture between all three of them... in the end Seto and Shizuka fall in love and Kisara smiles down on them... It's short but sweet... and I like it. =D

(made by Bellebelle3 on Youtube... really good job... ^^;;)



~*No new updates. Same old shizz. Alls quiet... Parade on Monday. Choir practice Friday and Saturday... >_> ANDDD... thats it. W00!*~
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

   -shrugs- Finally a worthy update...

All day its been a battle. I'm exhausted and totally burned out... Today was a nightmare... It started off fine and then got harder and harder to deal with... I'm really tired and have a huge headache... everyones an asswipe... and no one bears compassion anymore... it's like... sad... >> Truly and utterly << sad. Lately... I've bee more depressed then usual. I just want to press rewind and start over again with everything in my life... I have to say Seth has been a great friend to me... he hasn't given up on me... me of all people! In fact... he's stuck with me throughout all my tears... my whines... my moans... and even my worst betrayals... its like... he sees through me... and understands me inside and out... It's been a struggle... these past few days... now officially a week... and I'm still sick of it all. I've fallen under a spell of depression. I've tried to keep myself busy with the opera coming up and all... but its just... all this shit has me rethinking everything. My attitude has gotten really fucked up with my parents... and I don't know why. I can't get along with ANYONE... the only one who sees me through is Seth these days... He listens to my stupid whining while all my other friends sort of went their own ways... but... that was my fault. I haven't been the greatest person in my life... and I've chased away most of my friends with my fears and tears... Other times its just a matter of being afraid to open up... After... "Missy" came into my life... things changed... And now I can't trust anyone. I sometimes wonder if I'm turning into Missy... but then Seth snaps me out of it and tell me I'm only human. I wish I could believe these things he's telling me... He wants me to let go of the past... but I can't. I'm so confused about everything... With the Phantom Play coming up soon... And my neuroticness coming to an all time high... Seth volunteered for Phantom in my scene with it... >>". Despite whatever I may say about it... doing a scene like the one in the opera with him will be easier.... then doing it with a high schooler I never really knew... Life is giving me shit right now... But if all works out perhaps I can get through this. I'm cynical and bitter lately... but right now I wanna thank my true friends for seeing me through this mess. Even Taylor helped... at least she wiped away my tears. >< I think my lifes about to change people... and wow... boy am I ready... over and out.... Kisa. <3



~*This is the scene I'm suppose to be in... -twitch- I'll never be as pretty as she is... BUT I'LL TRY! The other scene I'm in is not in the movie... but its minor. >.> All and all I make a splash apperance for 20 minutes out of the whole thing... >_>"""" I just hope I can act good enough*~
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   PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
All I have to say... is if anyone the fuck gets in my way in the next two fucking minutes I'm gonna fuck them over... FUCK EVERY FUCKING ONE. No ones got the right in the fucking world to put anyone down. And I've seen it all tonight, mother fucks. Here's what I have to say...

FUCK EVERYONE WHO HAS HURT SOMEONE ON FUCKING PURPOSE FOR THE SAKE OF AN EGO BOOST.

It pisses me off. So now that we've got that clear, good?

Casual update before I scram
~*Got my dress for the Phantom Of The Opera today... its pink... tight and revealing -_-" Everything I hate in a dress - choir tomorrow... band parade on Monday.*~
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   SOAD


SOAD - When Angels Deserve to Die...

-cries- This is how I feel now. >.< Totally hopeless... >>
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Sunday, May 21, 2006

   W00T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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THEIR SO POINTYFUL!
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   -_-
So... today was kind of uppidy. Seth was in a bitter mood -_-" Because eversince he got the Phantom of the Opera mask he's been acting UGLY... He keeps whining about horrid his life and such... its like... >>". He's also trying to control what I do with my friends... and Squa and I are not on good terms... >.>""" She expects me to just let what she did GO? Squa has dark secrets that bother me... and I don't think we can be friends anymore...

As for regular school life... it sucks. I'm sick of the shit with algebra. My parents expect me to give two fucks about it. And it's like... ... -_-" No.... Anyway... everythings up for debate nowadays... the only thing thats keeping me sane is the Phantom of the Opera... I'm getting my dress on Tuesday... and I'm just nervous frankly. Then choir practive for it on Wednesday... God... I don't think I can make it this year... it's so stressful...

Anyways... I sent of an apology letter to my ex. I got her a special little thingy that I think will make her smile... but the problem is I think shes still a little hurt by me... =/ So I don't know if she'll enjoy it or not...

A lots on my mind... >.> And I'm insanely sick of it all... I just wish I could do SOMETHING right... ><" It seems like nothing is going my way... >_> Nothing... God give me strength... oh how I need you... <3
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   Phantom of the opera.... >.>


This is so weird... but I found it on Youtube... Okay Kisara is Christine... Seto is her boyfriend... and Bakura... is the Phantom. =D I like it actually. -dances- BUT... It is a little strange... I WARN YOU. This wasn't made by me... it was made by bellebelle3 on youtube.com. You should check out more of her works!
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

   Uh.. err hi!
So anyhow... >.< I finally figured out how to use the thing! -DANCES- Okay, that was highly immature but I know how to use the THING :D I mean... make the website. o.o W00t w00t w00t. <333 o.o So... I thought I'd post my thing I made... Don't laugh.. it's bootiful in its... freaky weird looking way. o.o Okay, wow... I really am the rambling one here, aren't I? Well hopefully I won't hurt myself before the nights done. xP


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   -___- Okay... so I totally suck at this... haha.
Well umm... how do I do this... OKAY! Let us see... My Otaku... and such... and such. -quiver- This is so embarrasing. How do I work this? Oh wait... okay... ummm... err... uh... Well this was a stupid post! All I'm trying to say is... I have no idea what I'm doing x.x
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