Tuesday, June 20, 2006

   Omg.... wow. =/ So long since I've been on.
I am by far the biggest loser ever. I've just been busy trying to get my life together... and get ready for the first performance of the Phantom... which btw... is tommorrow. -dies- I'm so nervous... But I got the part for the FULL Christine... and Mrs. P got rid of all the other ones. -diesdiesdies- So.. I've gotten a lot of hate mail from Sarah LeMatina and a couple other Christines... chaaa T_T

ANYWAYS...

The updates:

Basically my step sis finally graduated. We're having her party on Thursday. (cake and the whole works... and fireworks oh boy lol) She's 21 and she's finally graduated high school. She doesn't deserve a party no offense... I mean seriously... she can't even get into a college! >>" Well I'm done being cruel to my ... 'family.' The divorce shit is finally coming to an end... except my mom might be moving to Virginia. And in my heart I don't want to go... I mean I love my fucking friends so fucking much! And they know who they are because they've saved me from myself so many fucking times. And just to be frank I owe a giant fucking thank you to Seth... because I almost lost EVERYTHING this year.. and in the end everything came together in such perfect order... basically thanks to him. And Jenna. I just met you not too long ago... and you saved me in so many ways... I just don't think you'll ever understand. Chrissy - I know we never really got along... and sometimes it was my fault, too... but honey I owe you SO FUCKING MUCH. You've been my hero when I needed one. All of you guys... my friends... my new found friends... Seth, Jenna, Chrissy. Thank you. And the drama department... omfg... just thank you for the award. I'm honored to have it and I really don't think I deserved it but just the honor of getting it is... it just means the world to me. Thank you... I know I'm ranting... but I have to say thank you to all those people who... who just cared. Thank you.

Anyways... besides the year being a hellish nightmare... and finally getting through it all I think that the greatest update is... I plan to stay here. I know my mom wants me to go to Virginia with her and her side of the family... but even though I love her... I think I know who my real family is now. No, it's not my dad and his new girlfriend... its... its my friends. And they've acknowledged it too. We're in this together. And finally after years of wondering, 'will I ever have true friends?' ... it finally happened ... and now I know what true love is.

As corky as it sounds its true. And I love you all to death.

PS: Thank you Seth Jebediah Roseworth... Thank you for showing me the way...