Tuesday, November 7, 2006

   uh...
I figured I should post something since I haven't done so in... um... AGES!?!?

I have Flash now, so I started making flash animations... 8D too bad theotaku doesn't take anything but art in jpeg >< *cries in a corner* so much beautiful quality.... gone.... all gone!! *huggles PNG format*

Thanks to everyone who commented on my latest pic. Everyone seems to like it when I post something of Rock Lee. Since he's my inspiration and has changed my life for the better, I think I should post some more myself, and draw more of him.

And you're all probably looking at me like 'wtf'? I'm 19. I'm plenty old enoguh to know what's real and what's not. And an anime character 'changed' me? Maybe I shoudl type this out. 1 to explain to you guys that I'm not just some weird lewzer head over heals otaku, and two, I want to talk about it XP

When I first saw Rock Lee in Naruto, I was scared, quite honestly. He creeped me out. He looked odd, had a strange outlook on everything (or so it seemed) and was VERY close, almost frighteningly close to his sensei. To keep it simple, I pretty much clung to my liking for Sasuke.

Anyways, I had already read in shonen jump about Lee's fight with Gaara, even though I hadn't seen the anime before then. So as soon as the weights came off of Lee and he started opening gates within himself, I knew what was going to happen, and could only watch as Lee was defeated, stood up and tried to fight without conciousness. I felt bad for the guy, and admired his sub-concious will to finish, but never thoguh much else of it. The same with 'never be a shinobi again'. I felt bad, but again, never thought much else of it.

Until it showed him at the hosipital, out back, doing pushups to get back into his training. I could only stare as he determinedly forced himself to do these pushups, while the nurses tried to get him to stop.

Nurse: Lee-kun! *reaches for him*
Lee: *turning quickly* Please don't touch me!
Nurse: *stares*
Lee: Please... don't inturrupt my training. I... I am not through yet!
Gai: *in memory* There is no point in working hard if you don't beleive in yourself.
Lee: Just... just.... one more time! *referring to push ups* *yelps, and falls over, passed out*

I remember when I saw this, I just stared, and I don't remember when the tears started streaming down my face, but they did. I remember staring, un-able to beleive how much this kid tried... he was in IMMENCE pain, and he was still out there, doing what he could to acheive his goals, still saying that if he couldn't do it, he's try harder... still saying that if he failed, he would do something harder. I wanted so much to scream at the screen, hoping to God that he would hear my shout, but like I said, I'm old enoguh to know the difference between reality and immagination. I do remember whimpering and saying out loud while staring at the screen that it was hopeless for him... he should just stop pushing himself, and move on... but that moment changed me. It was his dedication and his will that shone through, anime character or no.

I had to leave the computer and stop watching at the time, and cry, think... alot of that stuff. After that, I told my friends my thoguht's on it, and since then. he's been my inspiration.

When I went to try out for the national anthem, I wrote his name in the palm of my hand, and looked at it just before I sang... I never sang as loud or nice I think, not that I had ever heard. I thoguht I had lost the fight, but was determined to better my voice for a bigger task later down the road. Again, because of Rock Lee. But I DID get the audition, and I did get the role.

This animation's story and pre-created will gave me the will power to change ME. I stopped not giving a damn about my life anymore. I Stopped getting depressed over little things. I stopped keeping my thoughts to myself in classes. I have so much more motivation, inspiration, will, and need for life than I did before, all because of a simple drawing that was animated on a computer frame by frame with a written outline and a voice actor.

It's changed me for the better, and I don't think I could ever let that go. Sure. Lee isn't a beautiful bishonen, he's not overly cool, and he can only perform Taijutsu skills, but to me, he's the best anime character I've ever seen. I look foreward to every episode, filler or not, that shows his face even in the slightest, because he continues to inspire me, continues to push me, continues to make me see how much my life is worth living.

I just wish I could tell Kishimoto that. I wonder how he would react, knowing that a simple animation from his immagination helped changed a person's life for the better, and probably saved her life?

Anyways, I'm done with the sappy weird stuff. Thanks again everyone.
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

   *looks around* *dull sigh*
I thought I could make a come-back here on theotaku.com, but it seems like it still hasn't changed from when I left. Not many people seem to care about commenting on pictures anymore. A few people have, and I've gotten a handful of votes (funny how my worst picture in my opinion got the most votes... I dont care about votes... I want to know what people think to better imprive my art) and fewer comments. Maybe I'm not active enough, but then again, one of my best peicse was refused here the first time, then accepted... and now that my favorite and newest peice is in, it gets one comment.

.__. I wonder why I bother sometimes. I should stick to what I'm truely recognised for and something I've worked hard on on my own. Singing. Or maybe I'm just being emo. But can't help it. It's rather disappointing to me to see my work simply ignored all of the time. I'm not top rate, I know. But I'd like to think I'm good. .__. Sorry if anyone does watch me here... or... I guess it's called being on a friends list, and sees this and thinks that I'm horribly emo... Maybe it's just cause today's been stressful.

In some good news, I did make the singing audition I wrote about a while ago. It made me very happy.

Is anyone familiar with Full Moon wo Sagashite? I have a peice that I sang on Eternal snow, if you want to hear.

http://media.putfile.com/Tag-sings-Eternal-Snow

hopefully that works. If not, then I guess Theo still makes you try and work out that blasted html that drives me nuts >< Anyways, if any one listens, this is where I feel my talent lies. This was recorded a few months ago, and I'm a BIT better now. I can open my throat now on command, but I couldn't when I recorded this.

Thanks.
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Monday, October 2, 2006

   Heya!
I submitted the picture a second time and it got through in no time. But the first one never got through at all oO same picture though. Strange how theotaku works now. Bah. anyways...

My Rock Lee obsession is only climbing. He's such an inspiration to me and gives me confidence in everyday tasks. I mean heck, I got off my lazy butt and started cleaning my appartment the other day cause I felt inspired to do more than i already am. Okay... not really something Rock Lee does (clean that is), but he still inspires me.

I have an audition today at 4pm to sing O Canada at the summer intake graduation. Wish me luck! ^_^ I'm excited to go!
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Saturday, September 30, 2006

   Myerg
My first few days technically back and... eh. I tried to put a picture up four days ago, and it's still not in. That's pretty disappointing considering I think it's my best work, and also, they let pencil sketches scanned sideways in here. I submitted another peice of work here, hopefully it'll get through.

Bugs me that my work used to get through the filtering system when it was crap, but now that I'm alot better, I can't get much in (that goes for when I restarted my account as well) T_T Can't wait until I become an advanced artist or whatever it's called @_@ I don't remember. But first I need to get my work through.

>> I have no idea why I'm posting this oO; no one is watching me. .__. *huddles in hole* Ah well.
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