Monday, July 25, 2005

   Nothing like a good dose of art...
to put me in my place. Lately I've been thinking that my art was improving, then I happened upon some really stunning art. At first I was like WOW that's really great, and then I remembered that somebody actually drew it, even if they were a professional. I tend to do this a lot, I'll see a really breathtaking image from a real anime and just dismiss this image as something unatainable I think "I can't do that and I'll never be able to." but really it's more like if I practised and actually shaded stuff and added more detail and somehow magically became skilled with coloring things and shading colored stuff and had every perspective of the human being mastered I could do it. In the end, I'm really very limited, and it hurts my feelings considering how long I've been drawing. T_T Sorry about that, all I had to get that out.

I had a good time at the beach and probably would have made some new friends if I weren't so terribly shy around people I don't know. When we were there we visited this really crappy arcade on the boardwalk. (by crappy I mean it was filthy and it seemed that most of the games didn't work very well)This arcade had DDR max solo version (I think that was the name, I'm so forgetful) and so being the overobsessed junkie that I am I had to play. But, the machine was worn and I had to hit the buttons really hard to get anything out of it and wouldn't hold the freeze arrows.(I think you would have had to have been 3 times my size for it to have held them...an exageration XD)So, because I suck at anything other than the home version anyway, I failedthe second song. So I wandered off to go play something else but later returned when I got the crap knocked out of me by Katie at some other game. When I came back to the machine there was a pair of sandles lying there I looked around and saw no one anywhere near the machine or without shoes so I went ahead and put my change in. as I prepare to get started some girl with really curly strawberry blond hair (I guess. I'm so bad at describing people x_x)and being the spaz that I am I start apologizing for taking there turn. she saysthat it's ok and asks me if I'm from around there I tell her I'm not and she says something about she thought not because nobody on the island was into DDR. (I didn't even realize we were on an island until that point) She continues to say things but I swear if I'm not deaf I couldn't hear what she was saying and I didn't want to make her repaet herself. Her friends came up and I played D2R because I'd played it before and I figured I could pass. I did barely then I played cowgirl (I'd heard so much about it but never had the chance to play it) and the girl said hey she's playing so-and-so's song. (which emberassed me to no end, I had hoped to not have any attention drawn to how bad I sucked) I failed and wandered off because people I don't know make me nervous, so in essance the point of that was, if I met you in RL I'm sorry I make a terrible first impression and would like to try again.
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