Thursday, September 10, 2009

My Sister's Wedding - (sorry, long post)

Hi everyone! *hugs tightly and doesn't let go*

First of all- sorry for disappearing for so many days. A lot has been on my mind. ^^;;; I want to give you a huge thank you for all the comments! This post is going to be about my sister's wedding (which was on Saturday) I've rambled about it so many times that I want to share some of it with you. I'm still hoping to share pictures of the dress, but I don't have them yet (since I don't have a camera I have to rely on pictures other people take)

The wedding went so beautifully. I was so nervous, but so was most of the bridal party. Before it began, I remember holding my sisters hand as we reassured each other that it was going to be alright. Then, the music started and I had to walk down the aisle with the best man (he was so tall! When I first met him I was a little intimidated, but he's so sweet. He would whisper encouraging things to me as we started to help ^__^ Him and his wife (and BEAUTIFUL baby daughter) were all such blessings that day!)

When we got to the end of the aisle, I turned around and watched as my little cousins, Anna and Bubba walked down the aisle. They were SO CUTE! But, Anna is scared around strangers, so she held the flower-girl basket with one hand and Bubba's hand with her other. < 3 The photographer was trying to get her to drop the pedals, but she had run out of hands XD It was okay, though, because they were so cute, no one cared!

Then, they stood by me and I held them still as Dad walked my sister down the aisle. I saw her looking so beautiful in her dress and almost started crying. I think Dad was about to cry too when he handed her away.

When we returned to our seats, Anna sat on my lap and I held onto her for support. The ceremony was so beautiful, I kept trying not to cry (It just seemed like crying at a wedding would be too silly!) But I did end up crying about halfway through. Luckily, I don't think many people noticed.

Lol, a funny part was when Anna suddenly went limp and the basket fell out of her hand, spilling the rose petals all over the pew! Turns out she fell asleep! XD Then, she started snoring. My cousin and I could hardly keep from laughing out loud! It was just too cute.

Well, at the end, Anna was awake enough to walk on her own and everyone left the church. We shook hands with almost everyone who came. Actually, we hugged most of them ^^ Most of the people were related to us! And even the ones who weren't were still close enough to be family!

Pictures came next. My sister was just so beautiful! I can't wait to share a few pictures with you when we get them!

The reception even went pretty well. I worked hard to be cheerful and act like I was completely fine with the crowd. I think I talked with a lot of them and they seemed happy, so I'm happy too.

My sister and my new brother-in-law's first dance was so beautiful ^__^ I loved watching them dance, I wish it would have lasted longer. Then, during the money dance, I paid to dance with him. He was goofy at first (that's just his personality, we spend most of our time together cracking sarcastic jokes XD) but then he was sweet and we talked about the wedding for a bit. I'm so happy for him and my sis! They are just so happy ^___^

The only really bad part was... umm, well, you see- [warning- I'm afraid that this next part will probably seem sort of whiny, feel free to skip it if you want; I just want to get it off my chest -.-;]

It's sort of weird that I seemed really cheerful in the crowd. You see, it's sort of strange, but it's a defence thing I have. When I'm in really stressful situations, I become really outgoing and lots of people seem to enjoy being around me. . . But it only lasts so long before I end up crashing emotionally (I know it sounds weird...).

I had hoped that it wouldn't happen until we got back home, but it happened at the reception. I suddenly lost my cheerfulness and realized how much I really didn't want to be there. What didn't help was that at about that time I got a very painful migraine headache.

So, I didn't want to seem like a brat at their wedding party, so I slipped outside and hoped that the fresh air and quiet would help the migrane. But the building was on the noisiest road in our town and there really wasn't any place to sit. . . plus, it was embarrassing how everyone who passed stared at me (I was still wearing the bridesmaid dress)

Well, for about two hours I'd go from looking for a quiet place in the building to sitting on the sidewalk outside. But, by that time the migraine was so bad that I was crying. I didn't want anyone to see me like that, so I snuck up the stairs to a bench. I could still see the party below, but only an area where no one else was.

I thought it would be a good place to sit and try to survive, but then my sister saw me. She glanced up and then looked again, frowning (gall, she can always tell when I'm upset about something) We know sign language, so I tried to sign that it was just a migraine, but I guess it was too far away for her to make it out. She came to me and I tried to stop crying while I was explaining why I was hiding, but she could tell it hurt too much.

She is such an angel. She quietly left her own reception to take me to one of the rooms upstairs (it was a hotel) She found a room that I could lie down in (in fact, she *ordered* me to stay there to feel better). I really can't even tell all of you how sweet she is. ^_^

Anyway, I stayed there until it was time to go back home and about an hour after that, the migraine left. ^___^

The next few days I think I've just been in sort of shock. So many months, tears and crazy plans had led up to that one day, so it was strange when it was over. I don't know if it was relief or what.

But, that's been the main reason I haven't been on. I'm sorry, I can't even say that it's been because I haven't had time, because I have. My mind just feels so overwhelmed. -.-; And we just found out today that my Grandpa (the one who lives several hours away) is doing worse... I don't even want to think about it.

Well, thank you all for reading all this (incredibly long post o.o) and for everything else. I will be on TheO and MyO off and on, and I hope to catch up on what all of you have been doing. I've missed you! *hugs*

Take care, sweethearts!

Have a great day!

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