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• 2005-03-30
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• Kateri Hall

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• surviving my freshmen year of highschool without killing any fellow classmates or teachers.
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• forever
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• Gundam Wing, Ranma one half, Inuyasha, Knights of the Zodiac, Full Metal Panic, Full Metal Al chemist, Ghost in the Shell, Cowboy Bebop
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myOtaku.com: kitty cat girl

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

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“My Mom and Dad were your typical Christian fundamentalist, Bible belting, judgmental, narrow minded, redneck southern hicks,” Caine began with such evident distain. “They were born, raised, and probably will die, in Post, TX. My Dad was a Baptist preacher and my Mother was a kindergarten teacher. They married and promptly had my older brother, Peter. Two years later they had me…”
“Wow! You have a brother! Weird, I always figured you as an only child,” Katherine exclaimed, vaguely amused, interrupting Caine. “Opps, sorry. That was rude. Go ahead, I’ll be quite,” Kat said sheepishly.
“It’s okay. Anyway, we lived pretty happily. My brother and me were really close. My parents loved us and worked hard to see that we followed their absolute view of virtue.” Caine paused, and sighed deeply, and to Katherine it seemed as if he had to do something quite undesirable. “We were the perfect heartland of America family. But that all changed when I was 11 and my brother 13. We both had begun to realize that we had a distinct and undeniable attraction for boys rather then girls. That is when my perfect little narrow world was blown to fuckin smithereens.”
Katherine could feel Caine’s grip on him tighten and his body quiver against his. Could his past be as fucked up as mine? He wondered. “Caine, you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t…”
“I want to. Really. It’s just…hard, you know?” Caine whispered sadly. “We were homosexuals. In the world I grew up in, a world of intolerance, being a homosexual was as bad as being a mass murderer. Maybe even worse,” Caine added with a bitter laugh.
“People can be such evil bastards,” Katherine said heatedly, once again interrupting Caine. “Oh, I did it again didn’t I. Hehehe…sorry.” Katherine giggled then promptly shut up.
Caine just smirked at Kat then continued. “It was Peter who realized it first, but he dared not tell anyone, not even me, whom he shared everything with. He probably would have suppressed his sexuality and remained in the closet in misery had I not came out to him first. He was so shocked it was actually kind of funny. Once I told him he immediately came out to me as while. But still we knew that we couldn’t tell our parents, they would most definitely be ashamed to have ‘raised a pair of lil’ faggots’. We didn’t want to burden them with our ‘sin’ so we tried to find a way to ‘cure’ ourselves of the ‘sickness’.” Caine stopped, he was uncertain how to go on.
“I…umm…shit. It’s in my head but…how to put it into words…” Caine was about to sigh in frustration when he felt Katherine’s lips against his neck, his hands, moving from his back to his ass. “Ahh…thanks…that helped. Umm…where was I? Oh yes. We began reading anything and everything we could find about homosexuality. We started with the Bible of course and were obviously less then encouraged by the condemnations we found there. Then we used the public library’s computers, ‘cause even if our family did own a computer it would be too risky to use it for what we were doing, to expand our research via the Internet. That was when the disagreement between how I saw my sexuality and how Peter saw his sexuality began.
I was 12 he was 14. From my online reading I came to the conclusion that homosexuality wasn’t bad. I believed that it was just a natural part of who I am and I need not be ashamed of it. I thought we should explore our sexuality.
“Peter, despite reading and learning plenty evidence to the contrary, still maintained the belief that homosexuality was a sin. He told me,'that it was NOT natural, that it couldn’t possibly be natural because God said it was sinful, immoral, evil, and an abomination, therefore why would God create us to be doomed to hell.' He said that we must be ‘weak and corrupt’ in order to have been ‘afflicted’ with this ‘horrible sinful illness’. According to him the only way to salvation was to ‘not indulge in our sin’ meaning that we shouldn’t ever have a romantic relationship or sex with a boy, and to ‘cure ourselves of this curse through prayer, faith, hope, and love for God’.”
“I refused to believe what he said and it angered him to no end. He would scream at me, ‘DO YOU WANT TO BURN IN HELL?! DO YOU WANT ALL CHANCE OF SALVATION GONE?!’ It was really painful for me, I loved him, he was my best friend, my role model, and now I had to cause him all this grief. He loved me and didn’t want me to ‘burn in hell’ as he believed, so he was really sad for me. He told me he prayed for me constantly, asking ‘God to forgive me, for I was young and confused.’”
Caine stopped again, and kissed Katherine, with overwhelming passion before going on. “When I was 13, and Peter 15, I finally ‘stepped across the line’ as Peter put it. I asked a boy out on a date. Of course I had told Peter of my intentions before actually acting upon them and he was the angriest I had ever seen him in my life.
"He said, ‘Have you completely lost all hope or do you wish to BURN IN HELL? If you go through with asking that boy out, even if you do not get intimate with each other, Salvation will be very difficult for you. I know it is hard to fight the evil urges and I know how you must so want to believe that our curse is not a curse, but God will except no more excuses. If you carry out what you intend to do…’
"I cut him off and replied,'I am not you. I don’t believe what you believe. I want to enjoy my life not live in the misery I see you live in. I am going to ask John out and if he says he wants to go out then I will go out with him. And there is nothing you can do about it, Peter!.' Then Peter did something he had never done and never did since. He hit me. It wasn’t very hard and it was just a smack across the face, but it was still astonishing. He hated violence, so for him to have resorted to it really accentuated just how much ‘danger’ he thought my soul was in. He didn’t apologize afterward either, which was even stranger. He just up and left saying something about I’ll ‘regret the path’ I had chose.
“While I went on the date with John and, as you can imagine, we were both VERY desperate for love. While, mostly sex I guess,” Caine added with a light giggle. Katherine smiled a snuggled closer to Caine as he went on. “We went to see a movie, can’t remember what it was, then we went to his house. He had told me that his parents would not be off work for another couple of hours so I thought it would be safe.
"John took me back to his bedroom and promptly shoved me onto his bed. I lay there and watched with a mixture of excitement, arousal,and fear, as he pulled his shirt, pants, and boxers off. He came to the bed nude and sat down beside me.
‘Are you a virgin? You look like one. It’s okay, I don’t mind if you are. It’s kind of interesting that way,’ he said, while his hands began undoing the button and zipper of my jeans.
‘Ye...ye…yes. I’m a virgin. I don’t really know what to do…’ I said then felt my jeans being pulled down.
‘Don’t worry about it, kid. I’ll TAKE care of you,’ he told me and yanked off my boxers. John was 17, and had numerous same sex sexaul encounters before. He was quite experienced. ”
“Hehehehehehehehehehehehe!” Caine was interrupted yet again by Katherine’s hysterical laughter.
“What the fuck is so funny!?” Caine demanded with mock anger.
“The thought of you being a 13 yr old virgin! It’s almost impossible to imagine! Hehehehehehehe…sorry. Continue. Hehehe.” Katherine said just managing to stifle his giggles.
“Okay, now that you’ve got that out of your system I’ll go on,” Caine said, blushing. “John grabbed my thighs and spread them apart then thrust his penis up my ass. I screamed and squeezed my eyes shut as he started thrusting into me hard.
"‘Hahaha!,’ John laughed and smacked my ass."
"It wasn’t a light smack either, it hurt. I squealed like a lil’ girl. And…Katherine you better not start laughing again, goddamnit!” Caine said exasperatedly. Katherine nodded, grinning broadly, trying his hardest not to laugh. “Anyway…I was really enjoying myself despite the pain my asshole was experiencing. I was gasping, grunting, and moaning in pain and pleasure as was John when we both heard the door open behind us.”
“ ‘Holy fuckin shit!!’ John screamed and pulled his penis out of me , jumped off his bed, and wrapped a blanket around his waist.
“I was too scared and stunned to even move. Standing in the doorway, horrified expressions on their faces, was John’s parents, my parents, and Peter. I couldn’t think. My mind was frozen with horrible fear. I was too afraid to even think about covering myself up. Fortunately, John glared at me and tossed a blanket over my lower body.”
“No one said anything, for what seemed like fuckin forever. Then my Dad walked to where I lay on the bed, and stared down at me with the sternest face I had seen in my young life."
“‘Father…I…’ I said, not even knowing what I was trying to say but never got the chance to find out because he grabbed me by the arm and yanked me out of the bed. I was scared shitless, not knowing what he was going to do. I looked over at Peter, but he wouldn’t look at me. It occurred to me then that the only way my parents would have known to come here was Peter telling them. Peter had betrayed me,was what I thought. I couldn’t be very angry with him though, he had done what he thought was in the best interest of both of us.”
“‘You have sinned against God and your parents,’ my Dad said to me. ‘For this I shall beat you even harder then I did your brother.’"
“I had just enough time to look closely at Peter and see his two black eyes and bloodied lip before my Dad punched me in the face. My vision actually went black for a moment and when it cleared I was laying on the floor. I cried, cried like I have never done before, and pressed my hands to my left eye to try to stop the pain."
“I could hear Peter’s voice. He said, ‘Father, please do not hurt him. It is my…’ then I heard a sharp crack and Peter shouted in pain.
“My dad reached down and hauled my skinny ass off the floor and told me, ‘Put your pants back on. You are coming home with your Mother and me, where I shall continue your beating to save your soul’. I did as I was told, knowing if I resisted he’d just beat me worse. After I got my pants back on he grabbed me by my shirt collar and hauled me out of the room past John’s parents. I looked back to see John smile ruefully at me before his Dad backhanded him and sent him crashing into a near by bookshelf. Then his mother closed the door to the sound of John’s screams.
“My Dad took me and Peter home and beat the crap out of both of us. It was the worst beating I have ever received in my life, then or since. Worst then anything I’ve ever done to you,” Caine added to Katherine. “The next day he sent both of us off to the church’s rehabilitation center. They were to ‘cure’ Peter and me of our homosexuality. Peter was thrilled to finally be able to have help from ‘professionals’. He actually believed they could ‘cure’ him. Me, I didn’t want to be ‘cured’ and for that everyone there besides Peter, made my time there miserable.”
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