Sunday, April 10, 2005

   Lovin Last Night!! *
Woo! I had fun last night .. I think my ass is still cold ... So last night my friend Faye called me and asked me to go for a walk. So, no biggie. I got ready and then she said taht Chelsea and Jillie where going with us. Faye called Chels and Jillie from my house, they should they'd meet us outside cause they needed to get "Some stuff" so I asked to get in on it ...
So .. We meet up with them and go over in the baseball feild and me, Chels, and Jillie shared a joint. Then Sean and Justin came over. Sean was already loaded and shared a good bit of his beer with me. So I was inbetween drunk and high xD
I had to pee so bad lol* So I went up into the woods. As soon as I was up in the woods and gettin ready to pee, Chelseea screamed cause Sean fell over. I thought she said that someone was commin, so I fell flat on ym ass, panst down, into a snow bank xD All the same, that piss was orgasmic lol*
So! Yes, I'm a horrable horrable person, but I had fun and I'm in a good mood so I don't really care right now =P*
I'm outtie for now ^^ Muah! I'm probly right something tonight!! *
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Friday, April 8, 2005

   Kickass day!!! * ^_______^
So! I had a very good day lol* Went to the mall, got a new purse, and I made a new friend ^^
His name is Leo .. he's so tiny lol* He's 17 and 5'2 ... Makes me feel tall, seeing as how I'm 5 inches taller than him xD ... He's so cute, such a sweetie, and real fun to be with ^^
lol* He was carrying around my pink "Hello Kitty" purse xD and I got to go on his skate board xD Super awesome dude, totally luv em!
I'm listening to "Yesterday's Feelings" by The Used for the like 109349720457314829753985th time xD ... Okay, maybe I havn't listened to it that much =P* But I listened to it lots!!^^
Ever feel so unbevably, crazy kinda inlove that no matter how horrable everything seems to be, all you how to do is think of him and everything is perfect again *sigh*
I think I'm gonna go back to reading "Secrets of the Morning" ^__^ very very good book, I highly recommed it ^^
Muah! xo's! luvs yeah all!! ^___^
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Thursday, April 7, 2005

   School time!!^^
Five whole minutes til I have to leave to wlak to my bus stop. Gosh I love the bus xD so so fun ... Even more fun cause my bus driver is crazy and I always sit in the back and he hits the bumps like crazy, no so crazy when I get my boobs poked by the b'ys cause their bouncing so much - -"
Anyway! Just thought I'd write a bunch of nothingness here so it lookes like I actually updated xD ... Meh, I'll write a good entry after I get home from school. I should probly gettin goin now ... Muah! xo's!!
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Sunday, April 3, 2005

Meow? O.o
Hmm .. Okay, I'm only updating cause Neiko says I never do ... But! I've just been bust latly. Nothing like shoping almost everyday to keep yeah busy ^_^ .
Well! We can thank my sister Randi for the brand new slices across my wriste!^^ She must be sweet huh. Anyway, it really sucks, cause I ussually just cut over the old cuts, but the time there are long slcies almost all the way across my arm from nere the palm of my hand to the back of my elbow .. There gonna be hard to hide O.o ... Oh well ... long sleeve shirts from a while I guess ^^;
It sucks pretty bad when you sister has it out for your Best (and only) friend. Yes, this is corrent! I consider pretty much only one person in my life a friend. Jessica. Even better, we have the same name xD. Well there is Eddy, but I don't get to see him as much as I used to, he's always so busy and dosn't live nere us. *sigh*
And what the hell is it with guys and hating you after you turn them down O.o ... pretty stupid don't yeah think.
Okay! enough with my pointless rambling, but supposidly my rambling is cute O.o which I totally don't get but whatever! ... Muah! xo's! Loves Yeah!
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

   Die Stupid Subject line >.
So far I've watched Pretty Woman, Cruel Intenchions, and Bridget Jones. I'm currently getting ready to watch Gone With The Wind, can yeah tell what kinda mood I'm in ^^;; ... It's so hard having feelinsg for someone when they don't feel the same way *sigh* Oh well ...
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Saturday, March 26, 2005

   My sister Randi makes me want to kill myself so damn bad ... I could go weeks without cutting myself, then she'd say something and it's like I can't get the blade across my wriste fast enough ... Hate isn't a strong enough word sometimes. (I barly and rarly use the word hate) To make the worse of thing, I'm sick, I'm on my period, and coughing non stop cause of Ashma - -" grr ... Oh well! Tomorrow should be better right? ^_^ Course it'll be better!^^ Muah! Xo's!!
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Friday, March 25, 2005

   ^________________^
Oh yes, I am so so happy right now lol* ... I got to see my friend Eddy today, he's like my best friend ever and I love him to peices but I barly get to see him ;_; BUT! Today me and my other best friend, Jessica (yes, we have the same name xD) went to see the ring 2! And I screamed twice ^_^; lol* ...
I totally have a crush on this guy named Ben lol* but shh ... it's a secret =P* ... Anyway I told Jess and she's all like "You can do better" but he's such a sweetie, and I think he's so adorable!^^
MSN hates me and won't let me sign in - -" ...
Oh! And I miss the biggest loser I know (Neiko), damn fucker went and broke his computer =P* Oh well!
hmm .. I really don't have much else to say, just figured I hadn't written an entry in a while, and I know there jsut always so exciting and everyone jsut LOVES my journals lol* =P* silly me!
Anyway I'm outtie! Mauh!! xo's!
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

   I hate this stupid subject thing
Don't you just hate that feeling you get when you know your going to cry? You can feel your tears push them selfs out, and your lips tremble as your try your hardest to hold it all back, because I mean, what good is crying going to do?
I'm not even exactly sure what's wrong with me anymore. I used to be able to pinpoint the exact problem now it's like there's to many to even bother trying to figure it out. I think the worse of it is, is not having anyone to talk to about things. Don't get me wrong, I have friends, just none that I feel confortable talking to about stuff, except my Nicky Bear, but he has problems of his own and I feel bad making him worry about me and silly little problems.
I have to see my councelers tomorrow so I guess a lil chat with her should make me feel a little better atleast.
God I hate crying, and as hard as I try the tears sjut won't start back.
*sigh* Oh well, there are bundles of people who have it way worse than me right?^^ So I shouldn't be complaining so much, it's just hard to be happy, and I guess pretending to be isn't really helping ^^; ...
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Sunday, March 20, 2005

   Arran!
Arran is so damn sexy, he turns me on soooooo much! I just love love love him! and who wouldn't, he's perfect ... Who woudln't love the guy with the sexy british accent ... And the guy that says "Moo-sic" xD ...Oh yeah! He's totally kickass!!
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   Writing class
Right now I am listening to "Not A Day Goes By" by "Lonestar" for like the 1000000th time this weekend. I guess it reminds me a Cody (Boyfriend) heh ^^; But taht's pretty corny lol*. Anyway, I thought I'd just post what I did in Writing class friday, very dull class lol*

Renee is as total loser, no one likes her cause she is a silly stupid smelly head. Jessica is the greatest person ever! Everyone loves her! Renee wishes she could be as cool and as beautiful, and as wonderful as Jessica, Oh yeah, Jessica totally kicks ass !!! Jessica just hit her hand on the heater and it really hurt. Renee is retarded, even Mr.Dinn thinks so. If the lil Nessie dollie goes missing, it was Renee .... Outside looks cold, Jessica doesn't like cold, But Jessica does like to speak in the third person! Renee just called Jessica a nerd, Jessica is totally not a nerd! She's a geek! duh!!! Pfft .. Renee doesn't know anything, she's so stupid. Stupid in the nice way/not. Renee doesn't like the cancer water. Renee says she doesn't like Jessica, but she does, it's just! her jealousy speaking, because Jessica is just so damn wonderful and perfect! Renee is cold, but guess what!! ... No one cares!! Cause no one likes Renee .The dripping sound is scaring Jessica. Renee wants to go find Sir, but she's to scared to go wonder the halls, what a loser/chicken/freak/no one likes her. Renee is such a loser .. She has a giggling problem. Even Sir thinks she's a freak, cause she is. Renee needs a tissue. Renee won't talk to Jessica, because Jessica is soooo much cooler. Now Renee isn't making sense, something about a seal.

mmmm ... I was just a lil bored lol* That's because my friend Tyler wasn't there. I love love love Tyler! He's such a cutie and such a laugh. Plus we make fun of Renee together. I always thought he was just joking like I was but I missed alot of school last week and he stopped in the hallway once and he's like "How come your never in writing class, I'm stuck looking at Renee's ugly face" So I hit him and told him to be nice, then he said "What she's ugly you know it" lol* People are so sweet huh? ^_^ Well ... I still love em!
Thrid time with this song some I started typing by the way.
Oh! I made a new friend like a month ago. Roman *drools* Oh yes, he is so so yummy*! ... Anyway he's totally into music, and I was in the music hall one lunch time working on a paino peice and I jsut coun't get this one part. So anyway he comes like out of no where and he starts helping me. Total movie moment lol* Anyway, for a guy that pretty much all the student body (even guys) would kill to get with, he's a total sweetie. lol* Sounds super shallow, but I think he jsut liked having someone talk to him, and not worship him. Although on the inside I was worshiping and thanking God he was there lol* Anyway, he's been like looking for me alot at lunch times, and offering to drive me home. Roman is in grade 12, I'm in grade 10, so yeah were just friends. Not that I'd mind the whole older guy thing =P* .. But alot of my friends are guys, girls suck monkey ass. Anyway his lil third year fan club is being totally bitchy to me, kinda sad really O.o ... But oh well!!^^
Wow, I type a bunch of pointless junk huh xD ... Well I guess I'm outtie! ... Muah! ... XO's
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