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Birthday
• 1991-09-29
Location
•  Somewhere, out there 
Member Since
• 2005-02-05
Occupation
• Captain in two armies, the admiral of the Bolivian Navy, a captian in the 'regular' navy, a fighter pilot in the airforce, the Leader of a rebel nation, a pirate and the heiress to the Nestle fortune...among other things of course
Real Name
• I cannot disclose this information for the fear that it might incriminate me...hehheh

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Achievements
• Not dying on Appollo's Chariot (humongo roller coaster), got first job at a Coffee House, cantered a horse without freaking out, mastering a tennis serve, homeruns
Anime Fan Since
• Since I was 6 and saw Go Speed Racer
Favorite Anime
• TokyoBabylon, Nana, Wolf'sRain,xxxholic, PrincessMonoke,SpiritedAway, CastleInTheSky, Bleach, LegalDrug, AdventChildren, Howl's Moving Castle, Karas:TheProphecy, KingdomHearts, SerialExperimentsLain
Goals
• To succeed, to be an accomplished writer, to be a decent artist, to learn German, to learn martial arts, and most of all to find lasting happiness
Hobbies
• Drawing, reading, writing, daydreaming, video games, watching movies, basketball, baseball, bike riding, theotaku, horseback riding, tennis, contemplating the philosophies of life...
Talents
• Drawing, writing, some sports, dancing, finding things, and the cool waitress "balancing a tray on one hand"




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Monday, July 4, 2005

Half Alive
I feel drained.
I slept long, but still I have no energy.
Last night,
My whole being just shut down.
I couldn't talk.
I couldn't move.
I just stared.
I felt dead.
I still feel half alive.
And I thought I had a father.
But the man I knew is dead.
The alcohol ate his heart.

As he drove...I thought I was going to die. When my father dropped me off and drove madly away my mother came out and asked me what happened. My anger came before my saddness and I told her she blew it. Which wasn't true. She thought I was being fresh and started yelling at me. I went inside and locked myself in the bathroom. I cried and I felt myself slipping away. Something hardened inside of me.
After I came out she somehow got the story out of me, even though I was acting braindead. She apoligized profusely.
I had locked my emotions inside and the numbness swamped me.
This always happens.
Everytime,
I always end up hurt.
This time my hopes where too high,
I actually thought...
and
it nearly destroyed me.
Trust...hope...the ability to forgive...
nearly obliterated.
I ache...and I bleed...
BUT I WILL RECOVER
This won't be the end of my dreams.
I will hope-
and I will limp on.
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