Saturday, February 19, 2005

   .:I hate weekends:.
I hate weekends! I have nothing to do. During weekdays I'm pissing off teachers and making peoples lives miserable... but on weekends... I have nothing to do. -sighs- Oh well!

Okay so we are potty training Rai-chan {my niece} and at first she was doing pretty good. But now... -shivers- I don't even want to think about it.

Yesterday was a bad day. You know one of those days where you just want to sleep forever. Okay so today is another one of those days. I don't really know what is wrong with me. I've sat in my room in complete darkness and tried to figure it out. I was doing fine before, and then this happens. I'm confused. I'm scared, depressed and stuff, but I don't know why. Hopefully I'll find out soon and fix it. Or maybe it was always there... I have been getting tired of pretending nothing is wrong and I have found my smile faultering. After I tried so hard to make the smile believable...

-=3 More Days Until Kessen III

~ Phoenix-Chan



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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

   -=Today was a very boring day=-
-yawns- I'm bored. Today at school I signed up for some computer classes. I'm kinda too dumb for computer classe but, oh well. ^^; I got a check today, for what I don't know, but I got it. Yay for me!

>.>; Earlier my niece just walked into my room with her cup lied on my bed and fell asleep. I didn't even know she was there until I looked back. My mom says that there could be a hurrican and I won't notice unless the electricity goes out. That is true because I do need electricity to read and write. Hell with out electricity we'd all be watching TV by candle light... and I don't have any candles. >.<; Don't ask! It was a stupid joke.

6 more days until Kessen III comes out.

Well I'll leave now.

~ Phoenix-chan


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Thursday, November 4, 2004

   -=Yes another post so soon!=-
I don't know what really compeled me to update so soon, but here it is.

My sister moved the other day. I thought I would be happy that her and my neice and nephew would be gone, but in all honesty, I miss them. I lived with them ever since they were born. My nephew 4 and my niece 2. Yeah, it's gonna be weird.

The aparment is less crowded and quiet. I have to keep my radio on loud. No more little hands knocking on my door and coming to cry to me. -whimpers- Yeah, I'm gonna miss them.

Yes, I act like I don't care, but I really do. I don't want no one in my family to know I care. I'm strange like that I know. If they knew how much I cared, I'd never hear the end of it.

Besides that, I'm not too upset. ^.^ I have my games and my room is clean. -coughs- Don't ask, it's better if you don't ^.^;;

Well, I'm falling asleep here. Good night everyone. ^.^ Bai bai!

~Phoenix
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Wednesday, November 3, 2004

   -=Everyone let us rejoice=-

I FOUND MY GAMES! ^.^

After cleaning my room and tearing it apart again, then the cycle would start over. Well, as I was cleaning again I found them. I was so surprised and happy.

Where were they you ask??? Where they belong. -blushes- Yeah, they were on my shelf the whole time. Little buggers just like to drive me carzy. I don't even know how they got there. I didn't put them there. I always keep those two games next to my PS2. Why? Simple they are my favorites. ^.^

Oh, I got a new DVD today! ^.^ Eight Clouds Rising. I just picked it up and my brother bought it for me. I liked it, it is pretty good. So if anyone has seen it, let me know. Did you like? Or did you hate it?

Well that is it for today. Busy day so the post is... late. I'm off! -hugs games- Bai bai!

~Phoenix
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Friday, October 29, 2004

   .:NEW POST:. ^.^
Okay, so I don't really have a new post. I'm bored as hell right now. I'm not used to being up right now. (3:05pm) I'm not used to being awake in the day. Don't ask why just trust me.

-cries- I lost my Kingdom Hearts game. -sniffle- And Soul Calibur 2. I don't know what happened to them. I have cleaned my room and tore it apart then cleaned back up again. I haven't seen it. ;.; I'm a horrible person.

For some reason or other, I'm way into Dynasty Warriors... I don't really know why. I also want to play KH... but... ;.;

Well that's the only update for today. ^.^ Bai bai!

~Phoenix
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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

   -cries- I have no update!
-sniffle- I really haven't been fairing well, hence no updates. I haven't eaten in three days, and haven't slept right, if any, in six.

Anyway here is your update: I'm alive and kicking ^.^, and I have been kicked out of school for fighting. Some guy hit his girlfriend so I kicked his ass. Was that so wrong of me? He and his freinds told the principal I started it. That school is very strict with fighting.

Stupid school.

Anyway... that is the end of the update. ^.^;; enjoy.

~Phoenix

Oh and I've have had writers block which makes things even worse. ;~; -sniffle-

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Sunday, October 17, 2004

Now Entering Paradise.
Okay! Warning: I don't know if you will consider this Shounen-ai but, just in case read this at your own risk. Yes, now I have decided to put warnings up. v.v;;; I'm sorry so late.
And beware for crappy grammer of sorts, I wrote this at like five in the morning.
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He sat on his bike, peering over the cliff watching the waves crash against eachother and the moon reflecting in the water. He stood up and sat under a tree closing his eyes now listening to the sea. His life was good, he mused, good yet he wasn't satisfied. He was missing something. His heart ached for something and his mind had vague memories of what this thing he was missing of.

Emotions easly seen in the golden brown eyes. Sun glistening through mahagony hair. Soft looking lips pouting when upset or turned up into the widest smile when happy. The sound of metal clilnking together as the person ran and played or simply walked or moved. With laughter and a voice that can rivals that of an angel.

Opening his eyes he realized he was a sleep. He shook his head trying to shake off the strange... memories, should he call them. He really didn't know what to call them. He also felt that there was a place he needed to be, instead of wandering around from place to place on his bike. It was all confusing to him.

And the stranges things would make the visions appear, a dog howling was the main one.

He shook his head and stood up. "Soon. I need to find the answers soon." He got on to his bike and headed off away from the sunrise heading to the next city.

Driving on the dirt road he slowed down to see the wooden sign. Paradise: 6 miles He smirked to himself. "Paradise huh? Well it better be as great as it sounds.

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Come on Kit-chan, you know who this is. ^_^

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Saturday, October 16, 2004

   Yes, I am in a good mood today!
I got my Nocturne game last night and I love it. I just wanted to leave you guys with some advice. Heed it.

Never throw marshmellows at monsters or enemies, it doesn't work to defeat them, it only makes them angrier, and if that happens... RUN LIKE HELL!

Now that I have left you guys with a bit of information, I'm gonna get back to my game now. ^_^

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Thursday, October 14, 2004

   This is how I feel sometimes. This happened in one of my RP's.

He sighed as he hoped up on, and sat on the check out counter. He wore his usual long sleeve clothing, covering his secret from everyone. He knew that if anyone found out he would be outcasted from the family and society even more. But he could couldn't help but think of his sensual encounter with Youko yesterday. If he and Youko would have continued, he surely would have found out about his main secret. Sighing once more he looked around the empty shop. He watched the people going and coming out through the store front windows. "Welcome to my shop." he told the lonliness that always seemed to follow him around everywhere. Tears suddenly sprang from his golden eyes as he felt the warm liquid start seeping through opening wounds. Why did he have to live like this? His life was a lie, no one knew the real him, only the act that he put on for everyone.

Actually I'm getting better. Thanks to all who wanted to help. I just need to go through on my own, you know, try to build up my self esteem. Thanks again.
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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

   Contact
Since my life has been crap lately and I have some bastard telling me that everything in my past was my fault, I have been seeking comfort in RPing. Don't worry it is no one from this site...

Anyway, If you have to get a hold of me, or want to look me up in the following names:

hakkai_aka_sinner
the_phoenix_blader_kai
xayame_property_of_harux
x_wicked_prodigy_x
x_koronue_x
x_minase_hijiri_x
xharpist_of_hyrulex
x_ryu_chan_and_kuma_chan_x
x_hikari_ryou_bakura_x

I think that is all. Thank you.

Ja ne!

~Phoenix-chan
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