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Monday, October 4, 2004

   Today is so not fun.... *cries*
Here I sit alone in the darkness, alone in the only place I can call my own.

No one beside me and no one around for miles to hear my scream.

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Okay so today really sucks. I'm sick and I was plagued with nightmares all night. Well not really nightmares but memories of the past. Damn my screwed up childhood. I was forced to grow up. It really sucks.

And these damn memories are ones I would really love to forget.

Memories of the someone that was closest to you dying is not what I want. It's my fault he is dead. If only I was such a better person he wouldn't be dead. It's been over a year and I most nights I still cry myself to sleep. Other nights I wake up crying, scared and frightfully alone.

Yup just like Hakkai. Regrets of the past and nightmares that sometimes keeps him awake. Always hiding behind a fake smile. Yes, exactly like Hakkai.

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If, by chance, someone were to hear my cries and come to my side, I'd just smile.

Smile and tell them everything is okay.

I guess I have just become accustomed of sitting here in the darkness alone.

Darkness, the only place I can call my own.

~Phoenix
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