iv been thinking about everything for too long i just start thinking about nothing. the thoughts are all there, but my mind just stops. i guess that's a good thing. i don't worry as much.
i cleaned my room all day while watching HGTV.
that's basically it. nothing special, never is. i havnt done anything this summer and i really don't care. iv been to only one of my friends' houses. its like no1 else wants me. i don't blame them at the moment.
things don't seem to be going well even though they're ok. probably b/c i know what's going to happen..
u probably didn't like my post. u probably don't like my life. i don't either.
"i wrote this song about giving in to doing things that you know aren't right, and feeling hatred and disgust towards yourself afterwards. to me, when this happens, it feels like i -- as a spiritual being -- vanished, and my body took over on a rampage, sucking the life out of everything. in those moments, i've felt blind and senseless, and any deep thoughts, emotions or even attempts to create art were nullified. there was a period in my life where everyone looked like soulless bodies in a state of confussion, just looking to reproduce & die. i'd get tangled up in that state, and the next morning, i would feel extreme amounts of shame." - sonny moore [AP mag]
