Tuesday, January 3, 2006

wake me up
out of this place
take me up
in your arms
show me the light
of the world waiting for me
show me the hope
thats been there all along
everything i missed
because i couldnt see
in this darkness
i cannot hide
anymore. im here
waiting for someone
to save me
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Monday, January 2, 2006

fade away slowly
look at all the memories
falling all around me
like raindrops
watch them fall and fade away into nothing
you cant catch the past in your hand
unless its a snowflake
then it just melts away into the neverending void

so im here
where ive always been
where were you?
ive been here, waiting for someone to rescue me
but everyone knows thats never happening
happiness is only a temporary escape from the eternal sadness that is just that
as eternal as death and the changing tides of time
you cant go back no matter how much you wish to
you cant be happy unless happiness seeks you out
you cant find it on your own
walking the lonely road, dont forget the memories
those are the only good things you have
to remind you of me
shattered dreams pave the lonely road to hell...
and everything else shits upon your head
dont spend your like ducking, running, and hiding... fucking shit happens..
and just because you are unable to deal with it... doesnt mean i cant

thats how things went.. no changing that
especially if you want something you can never have... again
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

   yeah, you whiney little bitch, this is for you, mmk




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Friday, December 16, 2005

How many times have you been pushed around?
Was anybody there?
Does anybody care?
How many time have your friends let you down?
Was anybody there?
Did anybody stare?

How many time have your friends let you down?
Just open up your heart
Just open up your mind
How many times has your faith slipped away?
Well, is anybody safe?
Does anybody pray?

Oh, life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’re alive
Oh, life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’ll survive

How many days have you just slept away?
Is everybody high?
Is everyone afraid?
How many times have you wished you were strong?
Have they ever seen your heart?
Have they ever seen your pain?

Oh, life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’re alive
Oh, life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’ll survive

She gets high
She gets lost
She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week, and all of life

She gets high
She gets lost
She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week, and all of life

Oh, life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’re alive
Oh, life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we’ll survive
All messed up, but we’ll survive.
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

hell yes
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Thursday, December 1, 2005

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
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Thursday, November 24, 2005

standing here frozen watching it all unravel.. as i knew damn well that it would.. it pains me so to see it, but i knew i had to..
no matter how much spiteful hatred remains its choked away with blood and tears.
i dont know what im going to do, or where im going to go, but honestly it does not matter anymore...
I've just got one thing for you, and yes you know who you are..
do you know what its like to be that god damn pariah of this town?
do you know whats its like to be the pariah of your own god damn family?
do you know what that's like...
you never will no matter how much you think you do.
there has to always be someone for everyone else to hate.. someone has to always be the bad guy... somebody has to always be the guilty one.. someone always has to be in trouble for something.. someone has to always take the shit.... not for other ppl.. no... someone just has to take the shit...you thought you were that person.. but you were so far from it.. you were so damn oblivious, you thought your life sucked... now you thrive off of shock and pity... thats all you've got. if you can tell them a story.. they will believe you... a shocking story that reveals your pitiful life.. and they'll believe.. and your magnificent lies.. that you've built your entire life on... you dont feel safe around me.. because you showed me more that anyone else.. you showed me the truth.. that no one else had ever seen... and you didnt like it.
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Sunday, November 20, 2005

this is a background i made when i got bored... have fun with it ^.^
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Saturday, November 19, 2005

some people just scare me....... enough said
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Friday, November 11, 2005

mmmmm
ahah... dont ya miss all those obnoxious 90's pop-rock songs... yarrr.. arrrg. ow.. tonight sucked... and... i've apparently got scar tissue in my lungs... which explains a lot of stuff... and it really sux... becuase sometimes it is so painful to breathe... apparently all that stuff got really fucked up... so its reallly scarred... >.< dammit
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