Friday, January 11, 2008

I'm back!^^

I decided that as a new years resolution I'm going to try and post again. I'm not so sure it will work, but it's worth a shot!^^' The reason why I didn't post on new years or close was because I went to Paris over the winter break. It was amazing and the buildings there are gorgeous! I got to go to all the main sites and we also had a few performances because I went with my county's band, orchestra, and choir group. I went there for color guard and they wanted me to play my sax, but I didn't want to for some reason so I didn't. XP It was a blast though! So now I'm back to school and have great teachers, well except one...XD And color guard's been going well. We have a good chunk of our show done and it's amazing! I'll get the song and everything later, but it's a really deep show which is exciting! I guess I'll leave it at that for now and I hope I'll be on more. Thanks to anyone who stuck with me all this time and for new people who are bored enough to stumble onto my site!^^ Kokutan 1. What should my new theme be? I can't really decide. I've kinda used up all the ones I can think of... 2. Did you have a good new years? Ya, I was watching the Efile Tower, but they only lit the lower ones so I missed them because I was so far away. I was running a fever though...

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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Sorry!

Since I haven't been able to get on I'm going to just say that I'm not going to be using this site until I can actually come regularly again. Even though no one comes anymore anyway I want to put a post out there. So bye until then! Kokutan

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Sunday, September 9, 2007

Wow!

It's been so long! Sorry, my life has been flashing by faster then I can handle at the moment. After school started I've gotten myself busy doing as many things as possible without realizing that I really don't have time for it all... I've been having fun, but it's all becoming a bit too much. The past two weeks I've been getting home by, at the earliest, 10:30 and then staying up 'till 11-1 doing homework and getting ready for the next day's events. My friends are also having problems which I've been helping and thus there is more stress I add to my day, although I'm happy to help I think I need some too...x.x Lately I've had so much to deal with I don't even have time to breakdown or cool off so when I do have those moments, it's always a bit more then I expect. School has been great though and I love all the activities I'm in. Guard is really exciting this year. We have our issues with people getting along or attendance, but our show is going to be amazing! I'm also in a few art classes and am excited to see what come out by the end of the semester. I've already got a few ideas. (The rest will just be crap, so skip!^^) I'm also stressed about having time for certain people. When I spend my time with my friends my boyfriend gets sad and alone because he has no one else. And when I spend time with him my friends get all irritated and think I'm shunning them or that he's taking me away from them. I only get to see my boyfriend once a week if I'm lucky and yes maybe we go to a place with a group, but it's not the same because you can't just talk about anything or cuddle with him because once you do everyone else gets offended and thinks your going to sneak off to a back room and have sex or something stupid and out of proportion. And there are people in my group that get all lonely when they see a couple near by and then get sad and leave or just ruin the mood of the entire group. And when I actually can get everyone to get along or can get my boyfriend to want a bit less PDA it only last for a short time before someone gets left out or annoyed and leaves, starting a chain reaction of bad moods. Then there is the fact that our group is very obnoxious. I love everyone in our group, but when they're all together they get so loud and uncontrollable I feel like I'm in a room with a ton of screaming 5 year olds that have no concept of a real conversation or a level of maturity what so ever. It gets really old sometimes and I just want to get away after a certain point. It just gets annoying and I can't fake the fact that I'm sick of it anymore without getting even more buildup and once I am free I want to explode! All the people in my group are really awesome in a group of 2 or 3, but when they are all together it's just tiering. I feel like I can't have a really conversation and I'm stuck in a room where no one really cares. And maybe it's me and I'm just setting myself up for such a feeling. And in doing so it makes me the one who makes all this stupid stuff happen, but it just feels so fake when I'm there...I donno...there's just something wrong and I donno how to fix it. It's getting to a bad level and I have no idea how to stop and realize what I need to do. I'm gonna stop here for now... (end of crap) Sorry for the weird post today, I'm just really out of it and my body/mind is a bit too stressed. I hope you've all been doing well and I'm still going to try and post more. Kokutan

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

Back!

I'm back!...Well, kinda. I have to go to a picnic at 12:30. Band camp has been very long and stressful, but very fun at the same time. I don't really know what to say about any specific day, but it has been exciting to see our show put together! I've also been working on my NDK costume every Wed. with Nove, Zoey, and Nanshippo and it's really close to having the top piece done! I can't wait to have it done and actually have a real Kimono!!! Right now I'm getting ready to leave and go preform for our parents at the band picnic. I'm kinda nervous, but really not...XD It's going to be fun and I'll get to just hang out with everyone. Well I'm gonna go and hopefully start posting again! Bai bai! Kokutan Questions: 1) How have you been while I was gone? 2)Did you do anything fun to end your summer?

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Friday, August 3, 2007

I'm sorry, but my life is being a bit hectic at the moment and I have 2 strait weeks of band camp coming up, so I'm not going to have a life for a while. Thus I probably wont post unless I get bored at home and hopefully that will happen. XD I've been doing fine though and hope you all do too!^^ Well I'm off to stress and a busy schedule, but it will all be fun in the end!^^ Kokutan

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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

I got some pictures off my phone from camping. There not the best, but I though it was something to post...XD The elephant tree A cute mini fire pit next to our site Flowers that were sat behind the log next to the fire, we thought they were growing there...XP It was a lot of fun, but it rained twice and was really cold. I love going up there though!^^ Today I'm seeing my boyfriend and then at 7ish I'm going to Nanshippo's house to work on our anime con costumes! I can't wait to get them done! And I actually have time to go see your sites today. XD Well have a good one! Kokutan

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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Sorry I went camping and forgot to post beforehand. Nove came too and it was really fun! On the second day we went up and hiked to the lakes which were beautiful! Our campsite was really big and we had a blast with the fire and stuff. Well I'm really not in a computer mood so I have to get off now. I mihgt post pictures later...Sorry for not being on much! Bai!^^ Kokutan

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Sorry for the lack of posts. Lately I've been a bit busy, but it's all been fun. I went to a Harry Potter party on the night the books came out and ended up looking through cake books with Zoey. XD I got my book the next day though because I ordered it online. Now I'm about a third of the way through. (Ya, I'm slow...XP) Tonight I had guard and since our captain is going to be gone for a while in August he made me co-captain. I'm really excited yet nervous because I don't know if I'm going to be good enough. I'll do my best though!^^ Well I have to cut this post short because I'm tired. I'll make sure to get online more often. Bai bai!^^ Kokutan

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

Yesterday I went to Eliches and had a blast. I went with my boyfriend, his mom, his sister, and two of her friends. They had a new DDR machine there, but it was really crappy and loud (too loud). it was really fun though. Today I get to relax and practice for guard. Our style for spinning riffle has changed again so I really have to work hard to get it down. Well have a great day! Kokutan

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

I'm Alive!

Sorry for being gone so long! I hope your all doing well! I was at band camp Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. It was actually pretty fun other then the extreme hot and not working of mussels. XD We got 11 sets of out show done and have work for most of it so I'm really excited to get the rest of the 1st movement done (36 sets). The way drill works is that we all get coordinates and have to make it to each spot in a certain amount of time.It takes forever to get it all done though...This year we have three movements which are sections of the show. I got really sun burnt on Saturday and my mom though I got heat stroke...But I'm fine and off doing other things. Today I have guard from 5-8 and then a parent meeting afterward. Before we got Nove is coming over so I can help her with flag work and she also wanted to get out of the house while her brother's band is over. My Uncle and cousin are also coming over some time today from Wisconsin. My uncle is a truck driver and comes to see us now and then. He's actually really cool!^^ Well I'll stop blabbering, have a great day!^^ Kokutan Questions: 1. Are you confussed about how I explained drill? -Well a lot of people get cluelss with these things...^^' 2. Has your life been good while I was gone? -I hope so!^^

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