Wednesday, July 18, 2007

   hi everybody
whats up? hope you all are doing well!
ok I'm emberrased. Today great grandma opened the bathroom door on me, and came right in! With my brother followung. He was kind enough to turn around but she stood there and talked to me while the door was wide open!!!! >< ....wierd, huh? hope you all have a great day! Er...night? lol laterz
~Lauren
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Sunday, July 15, 2007

   my weekend
hi everyone!!! How are you all?
Man, my weekends keep getting better! I credit part of it to the meds, but the events too.

On Friday, we went to the Ossipee Valley Fair, and had some fun there. We mostly walked around and bought stuff though. o.o' Then my grandparents and I went to Ogunquit Play House and saw Crazy For You, guest starring Rue McLanahan (aka Blanche, The Golden Girls)and it was a hoot. It was so lively, one of the best plays ever. I've never laughed so much in a play. Brilliant acting and singing and dancing. ^^
Saturday I went to a wedding shower for my FCOR Kate, and my little second cousin Dillon, who's about a year old I think, was playing trucks, and wanted me to play with him, and I got tired cuz I got home friday night at midnight, so I rested and closed my eyes. He came up to me and tapped my knee and went "Worwen?" and I opened my eyes and he smiled, then I did the fishy face, and made him smile and giggle more, and then i tickled him and he fell apart laughing. The process reapeated itself, and it was a grand old time.

Today. OH MY FUDGING MUSHROOMS. I saw Transformers today with my dad and I must say. *SWEAR WARNING!* IT WAS THE MOST FUCKING KICKASS MOVIE I'VE EVER SEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My new favorite movie. It better win al lthe awards it will be nominated for!!! If not, the academy is gonna be hearin' from me! *I'm watching you!!*

It was so great......Well, thanks for listening to my mini rant thing, and have a great day!!!
~Lauren
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

ello
hi everyone! What's up?
I am reaaaaaaaally pissed right now. For three reasons. I lost my mp3 player, my "best friend" has arrived, and I got my ninth grade schedule, which I am very confused by! For one thing, they gave me NJROTC, which was my third elective choice. I didn't think that many people would sign up for all girl chorus. I want to do NJROTC but I'd rather do chorus first!! They surely made a mistake......I guess I'll just have to take what I got.....ehh. -_-
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Monday, July 9, 2007

kewl weekend.
Hi everyone. What's up? Hope you all are doing good. I'm ok. I had a pretty awesome weekend though.
My family reunion was the shiz. My uncle got pushed in the pool, we had four on four badminton/shuttlecock, my cousin Mike AKA chef extroardinaire, brought more than forty pounds of chicken that tasted so fricking good. It was all garlicy and lemony. *drools* Need..more...chicken...And then we saw fireworks lit off by my great uncle. So much family...so little time...and my cuz didn't steal me away from Jessie :D and she went fourwheeling and I gots to have fun with Jessie(second cousin I think) and Ariana (third cousin of me). Anyhoo.
And I went to my friend and ex-bf Jeff's birthday party yesterday, which was really cool. We played Halo and DDR. Which I suck at Halo....xD lol And Ben bought him a jockstrap (used and from Goodwill, I might add) and infant gas relief. I gave him moneh. *laughs*
Hope you all have a great day!
~Lauren
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Friday, July 6, 2007

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOS
What is UP? I'm so dang hyper today. How are yall??? I need to get on here more often darn it!! It WILL become an addiction, I swear to uuuuuuuuuuuu!!! HOOSHAW UWAAAAHHHH!!!! Daaaaang, that should be, like, my tagline, or sommin. I got shiz to chat about so buckle up folks!

My convos with my second cuz just keep getting wierder. All she likes to talk about is my boobs, America's Next Top Model, and playing games. Not dirty games you pervs out there!! *bitchslaps pervs* I meant as in roleplaying. -.- Anyhoo. I wish we didn't have to talk about my boobs. All I have to say about them, is I WANT A CUPS DAMMIT!!!!! Granted my boobs aren't huge anyway, but they are just kind of ecky medium size. And THAT my friends, is all I have to say about that.

Doooooood. My family reunion is tomorrow. I look forward to this thing all year!!!! A whole bunch of people, most of them I have mustered no more than two sentences to in my (almost)14 years, show up and gush over the difference a year or two makes. Which doesn't bother me, because some of them tell me I'm cute. >w< yay! The only bad thing is my second cousin. The same one I talked about earlier. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death *huggles her to death* but sometimes I wanna hang with other people, and she is so clingy sometimes. Like, there's this cool chick Jessica, or Jessie, who I only see at the reunion. And Katie likes to push her away from meh. I'll just have to grab Jess and run this year. Hey maybe we can hide in the port-o-potty..*gags*..or not.....oh well, I'll deal. I'll put Katie in her place.

You know what I just found out? The day of my dad's near death accident, my mom (not my gramma, as I thought previously) was dropped off at a party with me by my dad, and my mom asked if he would take me with him. He said no alot, and insisted I was having fun, until my mom gave in. If I had gone with my dad I would not be here today typing this!! I'd be dead and gone. *sniff* Then I wouldn't get to meet you all. awwwhhh*huggles you guys*

And last but not least, I gots tagged. I have to list seven of my fav songs and tag four others. so here we go!
1. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy
2. Better Than Me by Hinder
3. Never Too Late by Three Days Grace
4. Animals by Nickelback
5. Monster by Meg & Dia
6. Forever by Papa Roach
7. Black Horse and The Cherry Tree by KT Tunstall. (I have too many favorite songs, so it's a good thing it was a list of seven. )
I taaaaag:
Shinobistalker111
Nejisfangirl
Gaarasgal
XTwinkle_ToesX
Have a great weekend everyone!!!!!!!!
~Koo
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Wednesday, July 4, 2007

   Happy 4th!! *sparklers*
ah yes, tis the fourth. What are y'all doing for today? I think we're having a barbecue. and maybe sparklers and even...FIREWORKS. ^w^ lol. Anyhoo.

I had the wierdest dream last night. I had to go to southern maine medical center for BRAIN SURGERY. They didn't even tell me why I needed it. >.< It had a different look too. They even had a water slide. And I kept leaving my room, and I wouldn't go back to my room for the surgery prep, and I had a miniulcer about it. -.-

this morning, I also learned my dad's accident 12 years ago was more serious than I thought. I knew he was terribly injured, but I didn't know how close he had come to dying, and he needed therapy. and we had to move in with my grandparents because he couldn't be alone. T.T I almost lost my daddy......Thinking of that I realize I really miss him right now and he's only in sanford, and I wouldn't have been the way I am these past years without him there too.

Well, I hope you all have a great 4th!!!
~Koo
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Monday, July 2, 2007

heyllooo
hey all, what's up with you guys? Hope you're enjoying your summer so far!!!
I'm in a great mood today! I was sick earlier thoguh. -.-' Anyhoo, I'm bettah! And I gots some ranting to do!!!

Funspot: It really was fun! It had the classics, too. It's this huge arcade with Pacman, Mario, Tron, the like, y'know? Only problem I had with it is it's banner said "the largest arcade in in the country" or world...anyhoo, it didn't have DDR, and they call it the biggest arcade. o_o
yeah. And then we went out to eat at Hart's Turkey Farm and it was so good. I had ham and squash, and *drools* wahhh I'm hungry now. *giggle* I'll just have to find me some grub...

Curtis: O.O My friend Curtis called me and asked me to sleepover. His parents ok'd it. I was all like "Whooooaaaaaaaa no way dude. My parents would kill me...or you.....or both of us..." I'm kind of not allowed to spend the night at another guy's house, but he kept telling me to ask anyway. So I mentioned it to my mom, and she looked at me as if I had asked for a sex change, and she was like "No way no no no no *an hour later* no no no" You get the point. ^^ I was also supposed to go to his house today, but then I got sick. So it was a no-go. But I was kind of relieved. I felt unsure of going over there. I mean, I had one heeluva awkward year with him. I would feel wierd at his house. ok, moving on.... *flies to next topic* WOOSH

Berriezzzz: early this morning, B.S (xD not that, it means before sickness)I went to pick strawberries with my mom and grandpa. My hands turned purple. :D And then I leaned on my knees and I kneed down on a strawberry, thus turning it rather pink *laughs* And now It looks like I bled. -w- haha lol. Basically though , it went like this for me. *pick berry and put in basket* plop! *pick berry and eat it* chew chew *pick berry and put in basket* plop *pick berry and eat - Once again, you get my point.
Tomorrowz I get to go to te beach with Ed-chan ^U^ !! It vill be fun yay!
Hope you all have a wonderful day today and tomorrow!!
~la Koo
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Saturday, June 30, 2007

thank you guys.
hi everyone, how are you guys? First off, thank you guys. You are serious kick-you-know-what friends. I love you all, it's great to have supportive friends. Thank you for being here for me! *hugs* and, I was talking to ed-chan on the phone last night, and I got alot happier. ^^

party: I went to my good friend Kayla's party today and my friend Holly was there too. You know her as ErIcHeRrEraSgF. Anyhoo, we played water balloon toss (and both times I was on the end that the balloon popped on. --')And we went down near the rivery stream thing, and I fell in kind of. my shoes were soaked throug. And they used to be white. Now they are covered completely in dirt. You can barely distinguish the design. *shakes head* hm. And then we had a little balloon fight going on, and we danced to some fob. it was very fun. ^^

my party: mwahahaha! I have decided to have one, just have to send out invites. Wheeeeeee yay.

Funspot: Any of you ever been to Funspot in new hampshire? We're going there tomorrow, and I wouldn't mind knowing what it's like there.
Have a great day everyone!
~Koo

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Thursday, June 28, 2007

   guess what. I need to be supervised!!
hi everybody!! what's up?

Soz, I went to see my counselor today, and after hearing about my suicidal bit on tuesday, he found I need proximity supervision. No, I'm not going to be hospitalized (yet. -_-) but it's where I can not be left alone when I am depressed, and someone must check on me frequently. the scary part of it all is, I have a feeling if I have any worse feelings than that, he WILL want to hospitalize me. Because he asked me on a scale of 1-10, what was the feeling like, attempt wise. it was 9. I really would have done it had there not been anyone around me. If there was no one near me, I would've have thought differently and....well...you know....
UGH. family fight again. they fought while I was walking around in a daze. I tried my best to ignore them though. ^^ I seriously fucking hate my brother. You are also probably wondering why I seem happy yet I'm seeming negative in my post topics. I happen to be in a good mood now, but earlier was just ick. anyhoo, back to my brother. He's so fucking irritating. He'll get all rude to me, I'll say something back, he'll start sobbing and throw a tantrum, cal me a rude idiot,sometimes hit me, and blame me for everything wrong in his life. He just...personally, I think he needs to be hospitalized again. He stayed at Sweetser for a couple days last year when he was awful. And...while I'm on the subject of my bro's behavior...god I hate to darken the mood, but..he used to touch me. It might not sound like much, but it bothered me. He'd reach over in the car and touch me...down there. and he put his hand down my bathing suit top last year at my birthday party, and he used to touch my legs alot too....... god, it's so hard for me to talk about it because it's so gross, but....I just needed to vent about it for once. it makes me uncomfortable, because this is the first time I've kind of let it out for a long time...even my counselor doesn't know it. I mean, my parents yelled at him but that didn't always stop him. oh great, i frikking brought myself down a bit...I must smile. *trys smiling* there we go. have a great day everyone
~Koo
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

le lowdown
alrightys. I'm back, if anyone missed me. I got some stuff to talk about, so get yourself comortable.

Six Flags: Monday my family and I went down to SF in Mass. and we spent about 2/3's of our time at the water park. It was like water slide city, I mean seriously! It rocked. And then I got a little tan by just lying there. I almost fell asleep. -.- And after that little debacle, we went on some seriously kick ass coasters, plus a raft ride. Mind Eraser and Batman were the coasters, and my dad said I was nuts after we got off of them. XD Hey, eh went on em too! and on the batman they take your pic, and the look on my dad's face was a look of pure, pure fear, I tell ya. Only bad thing is...I had a mini meltdown at lunch. I started sobbing because my parents were fighting over ice. ICE. DAMN ICE. they apologized, but i wasn't better for a little while.moving on, I ended up changing into white shrots and went on that water raft ride. It was fun, but guess who got the most water, especially in the shorts? yeah. Little Miss Koo. all in all, it was awesome. no, awesome times infinity. No, awesome - you get the point. oh yeah, and there was DDR. I was doing speed over beethoven, and once it ended i was waiting for my grade and this , rather cute , I must say, guy about my age or a year older got on with me and statred pretending to do it. He was staring at meh.....hm....yeah.

Baby shower!!!: after my wonderful two days of anime con, which by the way, I found my friends Saturday andwe weere all like "wooooo party!!!!" or sommin like that. ^^' anywayz. My first cousin once removed is due in august and we went to the shower for her little froglet, which I call him/her that, because Kate (my FCOR) and her hubby Ben chose that to be like their, theme animal or sommin. ^^ they gave us onesies to desin, and I did a smiley face and kitty on one, then a flower, and a frog. it was fun. ^_^

Chris Benoit: I really don't get into wrestling, but at the hotel last night my bro and parents were going to watch monday night raw, and instead, it said "Remembering Chris Benoit". and the same for his son and wife. after some brief research, I found out it was a murder-suicide. He strangled his wife, smothered his 7 YEAR OLD son, and hung himself. My condolences to their friends and family, this was an awful event that should not have happened. they suspect some steroids were involved. My family I also feel bad for, because he was one of their faves. Once again, my condolences.

Today: On the way back from our hotel, I had another meltdown. I felt like a huge brat, who was worthless and stupid, and I...I even planned suicide. But my parents eventually acknowledged something was wrong and started to talk to me, in hopees to cheer me up. Afterwards, I was still sad, but I soon became happy, because I realized that suicide at that time would do nothing.

It was an interesting weekend, and I hope you all have a great day.
~Lauren
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