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Birthday
• 1993-07-22
Gender
• Female
Location
• somewhere only I know. or do I ? Maybe you know? STOP STALKING ME!!!.....but seriously, I'm in my mind...Kooland.yep.
Member Since
• 2006-10-24
Occupation
• town idiot? no, not quite fitting. um, green team idiot? no,no....ah! The FAMILY idiot. MHM. I'm not putting my self down, just poking fun at me. There ain' nothing wrong with that. Right?...RIGHT?
Real Name
• Lauren but seriously you can call me Koo or Koo-chan instead. Lauren only means laurel bush. Koo means koolaid. and in koo's opinion, koolaid tis better than flowers. *nods*

Personal

Achievements
• hm. Actually getting through singing in the talent show without fainting. ^^ and making the honor roll and stuff.
Anime Fan Since
• eh,5th grade is when i learned what it was called but i have liked it since kindergarten or first grade.
Favorite Anime
• BLEACH!!!Fruits Basket,FullMetal Alchemist,Naruto,D.N.Angel,several others i like.
Goals
• learn how to cook more than just PASTA AND FROZEN DINNERS.and toast. ><
Hobbies
• Figure skating,drawing,singing,writing,internetting(woot).
Talents
• uh...see above.(yesh,internetting.seriously)

myOtaku.com: Koolaid-chan

Thursday, June 28, 2007

guess what. I need to be supervised!!
hi everybody!! what's up?

Soz, I went to see my counselor today, and after hearing about my suicidal bit on tuesday, he found I need proximity supervision. No, I'm not going to be hospitalized (yet. -_-) but it's where I can not be left alone when I am depressed, and someone must check on me frequently. the scary part of it all is, I have a feeling if I have any worse feelings than that, he WILL want to hospitalize me. Because he asked me on a scale of 1-10, what was the feeling like, attempt wise. it was 9. I really would have done it had there not been anyone around me. If there was no one near me, I would've have thought differently and....well...you know....
UGH. family fight again. they fought while I was walking around in a daze. I tried my best to ignore them though. ^^ I seriously fucking hate my brother. You are also probably wondering why I seem happy yet I'm seeming negative in my post topics. I happen to be in a good mood now, but earlier was just ick. anyhoo, back to my brother. He's so fucking irritating. He'll get all rude to me, I'll say something back, he'll start sobbing and throw a tantrum, cal me a rude idiot,sometimes hit me, and blame me for everything wrong in his life. He just...personally, I think he needs to be hospitalized again. He stayed at Sweetser for a couple days last year when he was awful. And...while I'm on the subject of my bro's behavior...god I hate to darken the mood, but..he used to touch me. It might not sound like much, but it bothered me. He'd reach over in the car and touch me...down there. and he put his hand down my bathing suit top last year at my birthday party, and he used to touch my legs alot too....... god, it's so hard for me to talk about it because it's so gross, but....I just needed to vent about it for once. it makes me uncomfortable, because this is the first time I've kind of let it out for a long time...even my counselor doesn't know it. I mean, my parents yelled at him but that didn't always stop him. oh great, i frikking brought myself down a bit...I must smile. *trys smiling* there we go. have a great day everyone
~Koo
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