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• 1993-07-22
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• Female
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• somewhere only I know. or do I ? Maybe you know? STOP STALKING ME!!!.....but seriously, I'm in my mind...Kooland.yep.
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• 2006-10-24
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• town idiot? no, not quite fitting. um, green team idiot? no,no....ah! The FAMILY idiot. MHM. I'm not putting my self down, just poking fun at me. There ain' nothing wrong with that. Right?...RIGHT?
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• Lauren but seriously you can call me Koo or Koo-chan instead. Lauren only means laurel bush. Koo means koolaid. and in koo's opinion, koolaid tis better than flowers. *nods*

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• hm. Actually getting through singing in the talent show without fainting. ^^ and making the honor roll and stuff.
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• eh,5th grade is when i learned what it was called but i have liked it since kindergarten or first grade.
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• BLEACH!!!Fruits Basket,FullMetal Alchemist,Naruto,D.N.Angel,several others i like.
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• learn how to cook more than just PASTA AND FROZEN DINNERS.and toast. ><
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• Figure skating,drawing,singing,writing,internetting(woot).
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• uh...see above.(yesh,internetting.seriously)




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Thursday, August 7, 2008

Just a random rant, I guess.
Well, first off, as most of you found out, I'm the brunette on the right. Now, on to this rant's true purpose.
Honestly, it's somewhat of a question. Am I passive? Too nice? Seriously. I feel I am. At least, when it comes to my friends. I treasure my friends and I love them dearly, but I find I just agree with them or compromise rather than actually stand up for myself. Sometimes, I'll tell them about something exciting, at least it is to me, and rather than even a "oh neat" it's a ".....so?" And honestly it makes me kind of sad, and dampens my mood, even though I know it's not their intent. It's just like, thanks for your enthusiasm. I guess I really shouldn't complain, I just....*sigh*
And sometimes, I have arguments with my friends, who decide that they are going to push their opinion like it's the most godforsaken best thing EVER. I respect their opinion, but I realize that my feelings and my opinions matter too and I need to stand up for it. Some of my friends even pick on my other friends, and I don't always defend them as much as I should because I'm too much of a chicken-ass to say anything. I mean, I do defend them, but I don't want my other friend to get mad at me, so I don't say too much. What the flying fuck is my problem???!!!! Is it all in my head, or am I as trapped in a box as I feel? When I speak my mind, it angers people sometimes and I get in trouble, and when I don't, I beat myself up for it. I love my friends to death, but do I tell you all stuff at the risk of you getting mad if you don't agree with me, or do I keep my mouth shut at the risk of it hurting someone else?
Someone please just help me sort this out....I'm so damn confused.
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