Sunday, February 19, 2006

Where I stand with FFXI right now:

TBH, I wish I could just stop, and totally restart. And on a different server. Maybe take the character I made on Shiva or Ifrit more seriously or something. But I've spent the last 2 years working on this, and I just can't do that.

With that said tho, I really don't know what to do right now. DRG is still 67, and I won't level it til I get my friggin Assault Jerkin. 0/6 on it. On Friday, I was gonna camp Ose after I got off work, and hope that some kind soul from my LS would help kill it when it popped, but that never happened. I always help them with stuff, but never get the help back. Even with ZM's and whatnot... I joined a pickup party. It was never "Hey Kris, let's go do this mission real quick." And unfortunetly, that's the way of the game right now...... People will only help you if there's something in it for them. If they get nothing, it's not worth their time. Even for people in their own guild/LS/whatever. Nevermind the fact that the person in question is trying to improve themself to be of more use to the whole...... That doesn't really matter.

If anything, people's attitudes are what would make me quit the game right now. And that's the sad truth to the matter. Not the fact that I need all this equip, and have basically no means of being able to make enough money for it. (examples, I need to get a SH, need to get some Snipers, need to upgrade my A-Mantle to a +1, and need the E-Bracelets. Without the SH, I'm looking at 13 Million right there. Then another 13M for the SH.)

So today, I'm gonna try Ose one more time. If I don't get any help with it, then I'm done worrying about it. I'll just start leveling DRG, and not really give a fuck if I'm "gimp". I'm gonna try to level straight to 71, then see if I can't get in a different LS. I'm thinking SlimStream at this point, just cause they actually seem to do stuff....unlike mine, which just talks a big game.


Seriously tho... I need to find a dependable way of making money.... I have WW at 67, why can't I use it for something? There's gotta be some way of making a profit on stuff... Shihei maybe....

God I am suck a fuckin noob at this game.... =/
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Friday, February 17, 2006

So much to talk about.....


So yesterday, I was gonna go to the HIP to try out the new DDR Supernova. Get there, go down the elevator, and run in to Dave and Mishi. And yeah. No, we didn't throw down. All was well. He tells me they didn't get Nova in yet, and they were thinking about going to Brunswick Zone. But wanted to walk around the mall first. So I walk around with them. Go to Hot Topic, and while Mishi looks at stuff, Dave and I do a lot of talking. Good talking. Head to the arcade, play a couple games of DrumMani..... I mean Percussion Freaks... Then head out to Brunswick Zone.

Get there, check out Nova, which I'll get to later, and yeah. Again, we go off and talk. He lets me know what everyone's been up to recently, and yeah. I think things are finally all good here. I got a lot of closure out of this, which is good, cause it's what I needed. I might even stop by at ACEN now.....who knows...

And Mishi's still cute....but yeah... x.x;;;



So Supernova.... Ok, maybe it was just the place, but the game sucked. A lot.

Song wise, it's a shitload of bemani originals, and hardly any licensed tracks. Basically, take DDR Extreme, get rid of the DanceMania tracks, then add maybe 40-50 new songs, most of which you can find on home versions, and there you go. Of the songs that are Nova Onry, there's maybe only a handful of good ones. Murmer Twins is cool, and seeing stuff like Paranoia Respect, STARS***, Tomorrow Perfume, Seduction, Tomorrow, Polostivan Chorus and Dances, etc; is nice on an arcade mix. DoLL is awesome, naturally. But yanno what.....

The steps are predictable. There's a couple challenges here and there, but not really.
The pads for the machine are pure CRAP. Don't even bother trying to AA anything on the 2P side. 1P, the up arrow sticks horribly. When every other step you have is a Miss because the pads are sticking...... It just takes away from the enjoyment of the game.
The BG videos aren't anything special... If it has a static video, like Polostvian or DoLL, then it's cool. But everything else is just a random CG'ish "arena", with a random character dancing on a stage I guess... It's nothing like DDREX2/US PS2 where every song had it's own unique BG vid. But, this is just beta, so maybe that'll be fixed.
The speakers.... Oh god they screwed that up... The bottom subs weren't on at all. They were blaring the top speakers to the point where they were cracking. If they're not blown already, they will be shortly...

Overall..... I didn't like it. And why?

Brunswick Zone sucks. End of story.

My biggest problem with the place......... The ignorant fucking people....

So we get there. Dave has a little key thingie. And one of the guys sitting there is going off how you have to pay to play the game... And then?? "You can't use it if you have a time key". Whoopdidoo. Go play your little ITG and leave us alone.

Then later, this emo kid came in. How do I know he's emo? The makeup around his eyes was the first giveaway. The all black was the second. And yeah. But anyhow, he sat in the corner near the ITG2 machine all night, only getting up to play it, and then sitting back down again. So what did he do that was so bad?

Remember back when the whole group would go to GameWorks, and we'd get a time card, jack the machine up, and then let everyone there play? Well this kid did that, jacked it up, but was a total douche about it. 27 credits, Dave asks for a play, he says no. Seriously, what a fag.

And that's exactly why I stopped playing DDR. The elitist assclowns that flocked to the game because it was the "trendy" thing to do. (much like anime cons are starting to turn in to....)



So yeah. Did I have a good night? You bet I did. ^.^

And wait til the HIP gets Nova, because they'll probably actually take care of the machine, and not let it go to shit. (unless it shows up as shit, and they're not allowed to touch it)
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

The month of April, in a really big nutshell.... x.x;;;

April 1-15 - Business as usual
April 16-20 - Work as usual
April 21 (friday) - Leave Chicago 6am-ish, head to Nashville for MTAC with Scrangie and Karl
4/22 - Nashville
4/23 - Nashville, head back to Chicago (personal day at work)
4/24-4/26 - Work as usual
4/27 - Very early work day. 5-10ish. Leave Chicago, head to Houston for SKC
4/28 - Get to Houston, SKC
4/29 - SKC
4/30 - SKC, head back to Chicago
5/1 - Back in Chicago
5/2-6 - Work as usual


First half of the month, normalness.
Second half of the month, 2 weekend trips for two cons.... x.x;;;;;;;;;;

Then, if I really felt like it, I could potentially go to ACEN that first weekend in May... 3 weekends/3 cons........

I mean, I'm not going to ACEN... But still.

Unless they get like the Pillows or something good like that again.... I think it might be safe for me to finally show my face again... x.x;;;;


Thank you Uncle Sam for paying for this for me. b^.^
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About Me Personality Quiz
What is your name?:	Kris
How old are you?:	25
When is your Birthday?:	2/8/81
What is your zodiac sign?:	Aquarius
Where were you born?:	Austin, TX
Where do you live now?:	Elgin, Il
What color eyes do you have?:	Brown
What color hair do you have?:	Brown, dyed blonde
How tall are you?:	5'8''
How much do you weigh? (Be Honest Ladies):	250
What is your race?:	white
What is your worst fear?:	being alone
Do you smoke?:	social
Do you drink?:	yes
Do you cuss?:	often
Do you use drugs?:	no
Have you ever or will you ever steal?:	no
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?:	yes
Do you play in a band or play an instrument?:	used to
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?:	no
If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?:	manson
Do you suffer from depression disorder?:	very much yes
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?:	now
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?:	earlier today
Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?:	yes
What subculture do you belong too?:	otaku
Are you evil?:	yes
Do you believe that you can be possesed?:	no
Are you a paranoid person?:	yes
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?:	yes
Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?:	somewhat
Are you a violent person?:	only to myself
Do you take your anger out on other people?:	no
Do you blame other people for your mistakes?:	no
What is your favorite game?:	ffxi
What is your favorite movie?:	pulp fiction
Who is your favorite band?:	system of a down
What is your favorite song?:	soldier's side
What kind of books and/or magazines do you read?:	harry potter, lotr, game mags
What is your favorite color?:	blue
What is your favorite food?:	pizza
What is your favorite drink?:	diet cherry vanilla dr pepper
Do you own a pari of converse?:	no
Do you own a pair of dickies?:	no
Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?:	myself - yes someone else - no
Are you a virgin?:	yes
Are you kinky?:	i'd like to be
Do you like biting?:	i guess
Do you masturbate?:	yes
Do you watch pornography?:	yes
Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?:	yes
Have you ever shaved your head in a socially unacceptable way?:	no
Are you hyper active person?:	no
Are you religious?:	no
Do you have any self inflicted scars?:	yes
Does pain turn you on?:	no
Do you stand for originality and creativity?:	on
Do you like meeting new people?:	dunno
What do you like most about life?:	nothing really i guess......
What do you dislike most about life?:	being alone
Do you believe in love at first fright?:	fright? i don't know what love is.....
Have you ever pierced a body part yourself?:	no
Have you ever had to beg for dinner money?:	no
Do you own a car?:	yes
Have you been to jail, yet?:	no
Are your clothes held together with safety pins?:	no
Do you have actual scars from punk rock shows?:	yes
Have you ever vomit while making out?:	no
Have you held a job for less than a day?:	no
Do you own more than two pair of jeans?:	yes
Have you ever had to fuck stuff up for no good reason?:	no
Have you ever been kicked out of your parents house?:	just for a night
Have you ever been fired from your job because of your attitude?:	i might be soon
Does the world piss you off?:	yes
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Monday, February 13, 2006

i guess i should/could update. forgive the lack of shift key, i'm rather lazy

and extremely sicked up. started right before i left. just a ton of mucus around the esophagas (sp). runny nose, hacking cough, etc. left for texas, arrived, it didn't really get much better the whole time i was down there. prolly because of the cedar, and my allergic reaction to it. but whatever. get back, it's almost gone.....but then it comes back full force the next day. and it's only been getting worse the last couple days. parents seem to think i might have pnumonia or something. me being the stubborn ass i am refuses to go to a doctor. so i'll just take this day/nyquil, and wait for it to leave my system.

reasons for post the other day.... to be blunt, it's because of my parents. they do nothing but make me feel worse about myself. they're quick to point out what i'm doing wrong, but offer no help with how to do things right. example, my mom. she knows my "plan" to try to get out of debt.......getting a loan from this company that's offering, using that to pay off the credit cards, then paying the loan off. she said very bluntly that it wouldn't work, i'd just be digging myself in a deeper whole, and would be fucked for the rest of my life. she seems to think that once i pay the cards off, i'd then begin a shopping spree which would involve running them back up again. well no......i plan on cutting those fuckers apart once they're paid up. hell, of the 4 accounts i have right now, 1 is cut, 1 is expired and i cut the new card they sent, 1 i keep in my desk in my room that i never use, and the 4th... well that's the problem one... x.x;; that's the only one i'm not maxed out on (tho i might be after last week), but unfortunetly has a max of 9000 dollars..... yes, i think i'm pushing 15k on credit card debt. and i'm only making 20k a year right now.....

now add on how minimum payments went and doubled recently... on that big number one, i went from having to pay like 150 bucks to 270! and now, it'll prolly be around the 300-325 range... can you see why i need this loan type thing?!?

but anyhow, she just continues to go in on me how i'll never be able to make it on my own, how i should just stay at home and try to find a new job around here, and blah blah blah.


can people see why i'm so depressed all the time? i try my best to build myself up, then my own mother is the one to knock it all down.


her more than anything is why i want out of this place..... i love her and all, but i can't stand this anymore. she makes me feel like utter shit, and i'm sick of it. i can't really say anything about it tho, cause they could very easily just as quick kick me out. and i'm totally fucked then. so i just put on the fake smile, and live with it.


as of now, i don't know what's going on with shiokaze. i wanna go, mainly to spend some time with kuu and everyone else. (and yes, in case i haven't made it abundantly obvious, i like kuu. in talking with her while i was driving home last week, she's like....the perfect girl... she's exactly what i'm looking for... but she doesn't want a bf, so that kinda kills that.) the only thing that would prevent me from going would be lack of money. which i may or may not have.....i don't know yet. i DO have a bonus check coming up, but i don't know how much it'll be. it may not be much at all. or it may be a lot. either way, yeah. if i go, i'm not bringing ANY credit cards. not even my shell gas card. x.x; but the realization of the situation is; can i justify spending 2-300 dollars just to hang out with people for a weekend, when hopefully i'll be moving down there permanently a couple weeks/months later? tbh, if i had a gf down there at the time, the answer would be a yes without thinking. but i don't right now, so yeah....


future cosplay plans:
kankuro - need to redo the puppet yet again, make a new shirt, and it should be good to go for a couple more runs. either that, or just modify the hell out of it, and truely make it a raver kankuro type thing
duffman - find a superman costume, and modify it. easy enough.
ino - yes, you see that right. kuu's doing sasuke at akon, so i'm gonna do ino, and stalk her and whatnot. double crossplay goodness for many laughs indeed. no clue HOW i'm gonna pull off the costume tho... x.x;;;;
dosu - part of a group with danzig/kim. dunno when we're doing it, but kim said she'd hook me up costume wise. ^^;;


started playing pso:blue burst. very fun. i forgot how cool pso was. can't wait for psu now. might it replace ffxi? the way things have been going as of late, possibly.... my ls is ignoring me yet again. i either get excluded from stuff, or just outright ignored. it's great. yet without those guys, i probably wouldn't have any gil or anything like that. it's a complete double edged sword...

ffxi is like meijer... i love my job, but i hate the assholes i have to deal with every day.

so i'm stuck at 67 until i can get an assault jerkin. which i need help killing the nm to get the drop. not to mention i'm 0/6 on the drop. x.x;; yeah, my luck sucks... once i get it, i'll probably just exp my way to 70, and go from there. i still need a couple pieces of equip here and there, but for the most part, i'm set. just waiting for some prices to go back down, then buy stuff. maybe today i can buy the enk-bracelets i need.


i guess that's about it... i've just been extremely lonely and depressed since i got back to chicago.... nothing i'm doing seems to help either.
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Thursday, February 9, 2006

As it stands right now.......



I won't be going to texas any time soon. Be it moving, or con.


Thanks mom for making me feel worse about my life.



On about 57 different notes...

I'm pretty damn miserable right now. Works been fucking me over, home's been fucking me over, I lost the love of FFXI again.... Really, all I have going for me is PSO:BB, which I started playing.



Last week, I was talking to Jessica, and said I was finally at peace with myself.

Then I came home, and that went completely to shit. =/
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Thursday, February 2, 2006

Chuck Norris pwns your soul.




That is all.
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Friday, January 20, 2006

Now Hiring:
A girlfriend. Full time position available. Good benefits. Dental Plan. Inquire within, or fax resume.



So work... This new junk isn't gonna be as bad as I originally thought...

My schedule, before and after.

Old: New:
Sun 5-1 6-2
Mon 5-1 8-4
Tues off 8-4
Wed 5-1 8-4
Thurs off 8-4
Fri 5-1 off
Sat 5-1 off

So it's not THAT bad... Fridays and Saturday off from now on? HELLS YEAH! Means I "could" go out Thursday and Friday nights to do stuff. And working at 8 means being able to stay up a little later. So my sleep cycle might actually get somewhat normalized I guess. I could probably stay up til midnight, and not have it be the issue it is now. LOL.


FFXI: Server Maintaince sucks. Lost all our ToD's. =( We had 2 of em too. Oh well.

The one guy I respected more than anyone else in the LS quit the LS because of drama, and how a situation was handled. I don't know what happened, but I am very sad to see him go. He was the only one there that took me under his wing, and tried to help me be a better player. Any time I needed help with something, he would try to help out. He even let me borrow his Scorpion Harness when he didn't need it.

I really hope things get worked out, because I miss the guy.

I got Rank 10 Tuesday night.
THF's at 37, WAR's at 35. Still need 2 levels with that, then I can straight shoot to 75 with DRG.
Beat Maat on the first try.
Got a lot of equip I need 70+ already.
Getting O-Hat on Sunday hopefully.

All I really need now is Assault Jerkin and Gae Bolg, and I should be set for a while. Maybe a little something here or there, but yeah.



So Ushi's next week... There's still a TON of crap I gotta get done... x.x;

~ Laundry, twice (did it yesterday, need to do it again next week)
~ No time to completely replace, so just touch up the Kanky shirt as much as I can.
~ Try to come up with some form of kunai holder?
~ Get a haircut (today)
~ Pay bills dammit!!
~ Pack.... x.x;;;
~ Disassemble computer, and bring it along for the ride. Ditto for PS2. No xbox this time.
~ 2 bags for clothes... One is con onry, one is just clothes.
~ I'm sure more stuff will pop up.... It always does.

Already done:
~ Karasu 3.0
~ Tire totation

And yeah.... WHEEEEEEE


Plans, as it stands right now:

Wednesday, 10am. Get out of work, load up car, leave Chicago
Thursday: Get to Kaylyn/Andrew's place. Sleep.
Friday: Head to Ushi with the MGP group
Saturday: Ushi
Sunday: Ushi
Monday: Kris Kon Deux, Main Event
Tuesday: no plans
Wednesday: no plans
Thursday: no plans
Friday: Head to Austin to play poker with Proz
Saturday: Yoko Ishida, Ingram Mall
Sunday: Super Bowl party at Kaylyn's. XD
Monday: Pack up, head back.
Tuesday: Get back
Wednesday: 25th birthday, first day back at work, with all the new changes.. x.x;;;;

On Tuesday/Wednesday/Thursday, I need to go apartment looking with Kaylyn/Andrew and with Geoff/Kimba. Dunno exactly when tho. Figure that out as I go I guess. Heh.

(and if things work out with Nicki, well then I might be taking a small trip up to Dallas for a day... heh and actually, the way kenjiro's talking, he's making it sound like she's totally interested in hooking up and whatnot, and that i couldn't screw this up if i tried.... ^^;;; tho i prolly still will, cause that's what i do... x.x;;; )


And yeah. That's about it right now. Good times, they are a comin. ^.^
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Friday, January 13, 2006

Cross posted for convienence, sucka. =P

So this new year has been both good and bad for me already. Unfortunetly tho, all the good seems to be happening in FFXI, and the bad in real life.

First the bad: Work is hardcore fucking me over. They're going thru all these changes, yet again. And now they're saying that my nice schedule that I've spent the last 2 years basing my life around is being changed. I'm sorry, but that doesn't really fly with me. I work 5-1. Yeah, it sucks having to be up at 4am, but it means I still have the rest of my day to do whatever I want. (ie, play ffxi) So I'm gonna try to be slick about this... I'm gonna say fine, I'll work your 8-4. But I want weekend off from now on. I mean hell.... Some guy from another store just transfered here to work in my department, and they let him have weekends off. Why not me? Especially since I'm sure I have more senority than he does.

And don't get me started with this new guy either. I have a lot of shit in my office missing all of a sudden. It's great. Let me tell ya. =/ But whatever. Bascially EVERYONE around here knows I'm far from happy, so yeah.


Now, as far as FFXI goes... I've been insanely busy.
~ Got my Hakutaku Eye Cluster. Now I need the O-Hat.
~ Got thru ZM13. Meaning I have sky access now. =D
~ Dragoon's at 67 now. I have a static waiting for me, so I need to level the subs like now. Yesterday, got Thief from 34 to 37 in one party. Let's hope I have the same luck with Warrior/Ninja today. Then, I'll level WHM at my own pace, since it's not really a "required" sub for DRG, it just comes in handy. Heh.
~ And actually, the static is a couple people from my LS. I think they've finally accepted me, as I've been allowed to do more stuff with them. ^.^
~ Got the claim on a HNM last night. b^^
~ Jessica's basically given up hope on the game.... Or at least on Fairy server. She's been playing a lot on Shiva instead. And she quit the LS, as did her mom, and yeah... =( I seem to be getting distant from her. Like things aren't the same now, just because she worries too much about what other people think about her. Or something... I don't know what's wrong, I just know it's nothing I can fix. And I'm not gonna let it bother me, especially now that things are finally going good for me.
~ Got my testimony, and kicked Maat's ass on the first try. =D
~ The LS leader said we'd get me my Gae Bolg some day soon. We actually had an attempt at it, but wiped. Didn't have enough manpower for it. So he said we'd try again soon. Which is pwn. ^^
~ So really, right now, the only equip I need any time soon is the O-Hat, the Gae Bolg, and that darm Assault Jerkin that keeps eluding me. And I should already have the Jerkin by now. =( Maybe I can try to get a couple people from the LS to help me camp him this weekend or something... Heh.

So on the whole, FFXI is treating me good right now. ^.^


As far as moving/money/etc is concerned.... I just got another thing in the mail about the loan thingie. Which is good, cause I was starting to wonder if those offers I was getting were only limited time things. Yanno? "Please respond by blah blah." So pretty soon here, I'll get that 15000 loan to pay off the cards. Then, whatever's left, I'm gonna hang on to. That's my moving money. Then, there's my tax rebate. That's my Cali money.

Apartment wise, there are a couple good offers out there right now. And I'm gonna look in to all of them, and weight the options. And as selfish as this sounds, I'll probably go with the one that ends up best for me, and my current situation. ^^;;;

Option 1 - With Tala and her friend Amy. However, this wouldn't take place til September.... And I kinda want out of Chicago ASAP. So I appreciate the offer, but it'll be the last resort type thing. ^^;;;

Option 2 - With Kaylyn and Andrew in San Antonio, or maybe somewhere else? Depends on if she gets a job somewhere else. With K&A, I know them better, I've stayed with them before, and I don't mind being a 3rd to a couple. I don't know when this move would happen. But I do know we're gonna look at some places while I'm down there in 2 weeks.

Option 3 - With Danzig, Kimba, and a 4th. (Zappa?) Potentially a place in Round Rock, 3 bedroom 2 bath, less than 200 a month. Dunno if that covers utilities. And again, I think we're gonna look at some places while I'm down there.


Now if I had my choice, I would prefer to be in Austin. Just because I know the area better, I still have some old friends there from HS, and yeah.... And I would so totally nerd it up and go to my HS's football games.. XD So right now, the Danzig/Kimba/Zappa option is in 1st, with Kaylyn/Andrew option a close 2nd. I don't wanna piss people off here, but I know I have to do what's best for me financially.

So figure 70-80 a month on cell phone, dunno on car insurance, maybe like 40-50 on gas, 190 on rent, 350 on paying back the loan. We'll figure like 800 a month on just paying bills. And that doesn't include any utilities, like cable, internet, gas, electrical, etc. No clue if those are covered yet. And then there's needing food. So the way I see it, I gotta find a job that pays at least 1000 a month. 250ish/week. So I'd need to find a job that pays like 8 bucks an hour, 40 hours a week. And that's just "to get by". Finding something 9/hr would be better. But yeah.

Lowered expectations. =D


So yeah. That's pretty much where things are standing right now. I guess we'll see where it goes from here. I'll probably end up losing my job sometime soon cause I won't stand for the bullshit they're trying to feed me, and yeah... Wheeeee!!
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Thursday, January 12, 2006

Some members of my LS wanna static. So I got my DRG covered. b^^

So today, I leveled THF. Got it from 34 to 37 in a matter of hours. Tomorrow, it's WAR time. So no point at stopping at 69 now. XD


All is good.
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