Tuesday, September 20, 2005

I hate women.
I hate love.

Gratz to suger and newbeh.
They have nothing to do with how I feel right now tho.

I'm tired of the rejection.
All I get is rejected.
People wonder why I'm so depressed?
There ya go.
You try going 6 and a half years without someone.

Litterally, the only person that talks to me these days is Kayoubi. And I'm not gonna bother her with my problems cause she has her own.

All I have right now is FFXI, which is filled with assholes and jerks.... Everything thinks they're l33t and better than everyone else. If you're having a bad day, and you go on there trying to meet new people, your day will probably get worse.


sigh....

You think I'd be used to being alone by now...
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Monday, September 19, 2005

Ok, got MNK to 12 last night. I had to go 11 Saturday night, so to only get 1 level in a day... Blah... -_-;; But I was partied with Jess cause she's WHM11 right now, and it took forever to get a somewhat decent party together. Then, convienently, with 100 tnl, I DC, and couldn't get back on... -_-;;;


Ok, this phone thing is really starting to piss me off.... I'll be at work and it'll work just perfectly fine. But at home, nope. And I know it's not cause I'm in a shadow of the antenae or something, cause work and home are a couple blocks away from each other.

And to make matters stranger... It'll work just fine in the building, but yesterday, all I did was step outside into the parking lot, and my network went bye bye... WTF?!? And calling T-Mobile got me absolutely nowhere...

It's so bad, I brought out my old phone, and put my SIM card in there... Thankfully, I can send/receive texts and phone calls, but no internet or mobile AIM. Internet isn't the big deal, but the AIM sort of is. But oh well if people can't get hold of me thru there 24/7. As long as I can get calls and texts, it'll do for now til this problem gets fixed. Tho I do switch back to the Sidekick when I'm at work.


So if you see me going in and out of AIM a lot, or if I'm incredibly slow to respond... This little problem is why. Ditto to if you try to call me and I don't answer, or if you send me a text message and I don't answer, and yeah... -_-;;;;


It's weird... Of the guys that I joined Ifrit to hang out with, I've only seen one of them, and even then, it was just "YOU!" "hi" and that was it.....they were logged 5 minutes later... ;_; And I've partied with Kay & Andrew, but I've yet to run in to Newbeh, Socknin, or Mint. =( Oh well.


So, projected leveling path for Cutey right now...

Finish with MNK, getting it to 18. Then I'm gonna level THF to 15, so I have TH. Then it's WAR til it's out of the Jungle. Unlock SMN, NIN, and DRG. Then, it's mage time. WHM to 10, BLM to 20, WHM to 40, BLM to 40. SMN to 20, do the mini battles, then SMN to 40. This should get me thru the end of this year.. x.x;; XD

Now you may wonder... Why level WAR/THF/MNK at all if I'm going mage... Quite simple really... If I feel the need, I'm also gonna level DRG. Like when I'm tired of being a wussy mage and whatnot.. LOL. XD Gotta be the big bad DRG again. Only this time, a hot sexy cutey mithra DRG.. ^_~

I mean seriously.. I'm better at melee than I am at mage. But I wanna do something different... That's why I'm gonna try my hand at mage for a while. Hell, I'll even do Blue Mage when it comes out.... But that's not til Treasures, so yeah.. Heh.


So yeah. I'm hoping to be 18 with MNK by Thursday, and have subjob... Will it happen? Only time will tell I guess. ^^;; I said I wanted to catch up to you guys tho... And with you not playing, and me kicking it in to overdrive... It just might happen.. Bwa ha ha!!


And no, I haven't forgotten about Fairy... Big party on Thursday for mine and Jess's 1-year wedding anniversary. =D

Guild Wars.... Yeah, I've kinda forgotten about you for now... ^^;;;

Like I said.. My passion for FFXI has been rekindled. And this is a good thing, considering I was thinking about just deleting all of my content ID's and being done with it...
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Saturday, September 17, 2005

Plans with Cuteythief......

So, I sorta still have no clue what I wanna do with Cutey yet...

If I go the THF/NIN route:
MNK to 18
WAR to 30, get NIN unlocked
NIN to 37
THF to 75

The only hard thing here is gonna be the NIN part. And I only say that because of all the Ninjutsu I have to learn, and money I have to waste, and I'm not that good at NIN tanking to begin with, and yeah... =/ Kinda sucks you have to level NIN to level THF.

Now, I could just take WAR to 37 after MNK, then unlock DRG and do that again...

Or...

I can always go the uber mage route.... WHM, BLM, RDM, SMN... (and if those rumors are true, then Blue Mage when the new expansion comes out... which makes me go w00t!!) And maybe have DRG on the side for fun and whatnot.


For now, I think I'm just gonna do the MNK to 18, WAR to 32/33 (get it out of the Jungle), then decide what to do from there. (plus I should be Rank 3 or 4 by then anyhow... And it'll take me about a month to get to this point anyhow, if I really stick to it this time)

Or just get all the basic jobs to 20. =P Well, except for RDM... I don't know why, but I don't really like RDM... Meh. And MNK I'd stop at 18, cause I don't like it either. Outside of using as a sub that is. Heh.


And yeah.. That's it I guess. ^^;;; Time to get on and play for a while. I'm at 9 with MNK right now. Gonna get to 10 or 11, then head out to Selbina to get some equip I need. (or head back to Sandy to see if it's in there) Then it's time for what every veteren looks forward to when they level a low-level job.... The dunes..... >>;;
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Friday, September 16, 2005

Laughing at other's misfortunes..... Damn I'm heartless...

So yesterday, we got our carpets cleaned in the house. And naturally, they were wet for a while afterwards. So all of us are treading around carefully, except my mom who's just chilling in the living room on doctor's orders and whatnot after her test....

Next thing I know, I'm sitting in my room playing FFXI with Andrew, and hear this loud crying sound....

Apperanetly, my dumbass sister slipped, fell, and "broke her ankle". God what a drama whore... Like seriously....she's always doing this type of shit. She'll bump her elbow against a door and say she broke her arm or something. Personally, I think she's a hypocondriac.... She's always coming up with reasons for visiting the doctor's office.

Now me, in that position... (which i've been in before since i have the bad knee and ankles) Me, I just get up and walk it off. Yeah, it hurts.. But nothing worth going to the doctor over. I can wiggle my toes, so it's not broken. Good enough for me.

But my sister... EVERYTHING is this big dramatic experience for her... So naturally, she throws a fit over this one.

Normally, I just sit back and laugh about how stupid she is.... But since my mom is in no condition to do much of anything right now, I had to take her to minor emergencies... Yes, you heard me... She was in soooo much pain that she felt the need to go to ME over it... Now maybe she's serious about it, maybe not. But this is seriously a once a month thing with this girl... It's like she's looking for pity from people by having some part of her body wrapped up or bandaged.

So I have to stop what I'm doing (which at the time was working on 1-2 with Andrew) and drive her to minor emergencies... -_-;;; Thankfully I was releaved of duty once my dad showed up (after he left work early for this I might add), but still...

And then there's my OTHER sister, who found out about it, then kept calling home every 20 minutes or so from work... Next thing we know, she probably made up some bullshit lie, and she was home early too.

The verdict was a sprained ankle. She's on crotches and whatnot. But still...

BE A MAN!! WALK IT OFF!!!!

The only time you'll see me in a doctor's office is if something's broken, or I'm dead. (except when I went cause my parents thought I had some contagious virus back in May, but that's besides the point... that was parental forcing) I can't fuckin stand doctors.....and their needles... x.x;;;;;;;;;;


So yeah. Good times yesterday I guess...

All of a sudden, my spark for FFXI has been reignited. This comes out of nowhere entirely. I've been leveling Cutey a bit... Got it to 9 yesterday. Andrew and I were trying for 10, but couldn't do it... We hit a rough patch of dying a bit... ^^;; Or....he did.. I somehow survived... XP Gotta love being the sort of tank... XD

But yeah.... I'm still up in the air about what to make Cutey. Originally, I was gonna do THF/NIN, but then I was thinking about just making her a mage of some sort. Either BLM or WHM. Jessica made a char on Ifrit last night too, and she's gonna be a RDM. So maybe I could level like WHM or BLM or something, and I'd have my refresh whore with me... ^^;;

Speaking of which, Jess and mine's 1 year anniversary is Thursday. I dunno what I'm gonna do for her yet, especially since she doesn't even know if she'll be on to begin with.. Heh.. But whatever.


That's about it for now I guess... I had an extremely deep conversation with someone last night, and a lot of what was said hit me. It's like... Wow...

I'm so happy I have you as a friend... ^_^
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

cause everyone loves duck hunt! \m/^_^

Free Flash Games
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(7:00 PM update)

Mom - Well, they did their tests. And it turns out, I have a heart, and it's just fine.

Me - (to sister) HA!! See, I told you she wasn't a heartless bitch!!


Much laughter ensures.
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So yeah. Today's been one of those good news / bad news kinda days.

Surprisingly, all the good news stuff happened at work. Lots of good stories to tell.

First off, a guy I hate is being transferred to another store. Second, a guy I like that quit because of the guy I hate is coming back now that the sucky guy is going. So that's like....uber awesome. (plus, it's another 10 bucks in my weekly football pool. XD)

Then some other funny stuff that I'll get to later.


But then there's the bad news... My mom is having this angiogram or some shit like that today... In fact, by now, it should be over with, but I haven't heard from my dad yet so I dunno what's going on with her.

She spent all day freaking out about how these guys were coming to clean the air ducts in the house, and making herself feel worse. I was on the phone with Kaylyn at the time, and I flat out told her to just chill out, go lay down, relax, let me handle shit. She really over works herself all the time. She's more paranoid about stuff than I am.


So yeah.. I guess I'm just waiting to hear how that stuff went.... Kinda puts a damper on your day, huh? =/
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Damn.... I haven't even so much as gotten a hit on my page in the last couple days... >>;;;

Oh well. I guess that's why I have my LJ instead. =P
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Monday, September 12, 2005

i get so lonely baby
i get so lonely

i get so lonely
i could die


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So yeah... Go figure... The download of FF:AC I started yesterday was done when I woke up, but it was corrupted or something. XD So I looked on torrentspy for some other seeds, and yeah. Saw a full DVD-rip file at 4.3GB, but opted not to do that one. Not in the mood to wait 3 days for that. x.x


Now here's my nerd question of the day.....

Why is it when I download BT files, they go so damn slow... It almost feels like I'm using dialup to download shit.

By slow, I mean on a decent file, it'll go about 15-20 kps. Sometimes I see it go 30-40 kps. Very rarely, it'll hit 50-60kps. But most of the time, it's in the 15-25 range.

It's not the amount of stuff I'm downloading, cause I'll only download one file at a time. And I'm uploading at over 40 kps almost all the time. So I have a good ratio.


I only ask cause I see people saying they're downloading at 100 kps, and it makes me jealous of their 1337ness.

Anyone have any tips on this?



Go figure... I get to work, my phone starts working... -_-;;;;; Had a shitload of texts to respond to. ^^;;;

But yeah. Wheeeee
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