Monday, August 8, 2005

I guess some explaining needs to be done or something.

I just got back from Schlitterbahn with Kay and Andrew, and I'm a little burnt and tired, but yeah.


The whole bi thing. Not a problem. I mean, I kinda picked up on it after a while. And people told me about it as the weekend went on, and yeah. That's no big deal.

I was just kinda upset that I was ignored for the majority of the weekend. I can understand the whole bi aspect of things.

Basically, Tala spent the whole weekend with Iruka, and didn't really want to be around me. I got a little bit of time Friday morning, and that was it. Didn't even say bye on Sunday.

I know it's probably just the way I'm thinking here, but I just didn't like being ignored all weekend. It hurt me a lot, especially since we were supposed to be getting to know each other more and whatnot. Basically everything I got about Tala I got from others. I spent hardly any time with her, and that sucks.

And the time I did spend.... I just wasn't impressed. =( I'm sorry. I would go in to why, but I won't. It's enough I'm saying all this here before I've said anything to Tala in person about any of this. (and please don't think less of me for speaking on teh intraweb like this)


At this point, I really don't know what to do. I mean, we said we were going out, but technically only in namesake only. It's not like we did anything and stuff. Don't get me wrong here... I still want to be friends, but I don't see the relationship working out. (and i have no clue what's going on with AFest now)

To those that said you'd kill me if I hurt her... It's not my intention to hurt her, but if anyone feels that I am, then I'm sorry. But I'm 24, she's 16. I'm laid back, she's bouncing all over the place.

I just didn't feel that connection there. Maybe because we didn't get to spend any time together, but who knows.

I just know I took second place to Iruka, and that hurt a lot... More than I'm conveying here.

I'm not saying any of this because she's bi. That has NOTHING to do with it. (I mean fuck... what guy WOULDN'T want to be with 2 chicks at once! XD) It's just the other stuff. Not the bi thing.

I don't hate her cause she's bi.
I don't hate her at all actually.
I just don't see the relationship working out. That's about it.
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