Wednesday, September 7, 2005

(cross posted from LJ cause I don't feel like retyping, etc)

A quick addition to what I said yesterday, since it seemed to spawn a lot of anger in comment form....

By "positive encouragement", I meant more like someone closer to me. Kaylyn, I do appreciate everything you do and say. You should in no way be insulted by what I said. I was more referring to family or people I see on a daily basis. Yanno....the whole "you losing weight?" thing. Or shit like that. In my house, I'm nothing but yelled and bitched at. I can't expect my family to give me any positivity, which is why I depend so heavily on my friends. I want someone to physically be there... (not that level of physicality tho, if that's what you were thinking... that's a different subject)

People seem to take what I say the wrong way a lot of times....

And don't even get me started with the whole rumor thing going around....

I should just keep my mouth shut about shit....




Or stop blogging altogether.....

I mean, isn't this why I'm not allowed at cons in Chicago anymore? Because of the sheer amount of people that want me dead because of things I've said?

And now, at a point in which I'm trying to change my life for the better, I'm just reverting to my old ways, and the same shit is happening again. What little respect and friends I had within the Austin cosplay crowd probably all think less of me now. And it'll probably only get worse as this goes on...



Again, I'm forced to question why I bother existing to begin with.... It all seems so troublesome....



Give me a couple days... I might be in a better mood... For now, my spirit has been crushed. =/
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