Sunday, November 20, 2005

Ok. So like....there's at least 3 girls out there that I'm like crazygonuts aboot. If it's not "in love", then it's definetly "a pretty big damn infatuation".

So the first is the girl I play FFXI with. And yes, she's an actual girl... =P We text each other like all the time, do stuff in the game together, and yeah. Tho as of late, she's been doing more stuff in the game, and I've been left behind....but yeah... And I've been a bit of a whiney little bitch about it......probably making her think less of me.... >>;;; But still. I know I stand no chance with her. She's only 17, lives with military parents and older brothers, doesn't see the point in relationships, and might actually make something out of her life. I'd prolly just get in the way of that. Tho at this point, I'd definetly say she's probably my best friend right now.... And I smile every time I hear my phone go off saying I have a text message. But this is one of those things that just won't happen for quite a while.

Another girl, I won't name. Talk to her online often, and she really seems like she understands me. Very very very few people do, but somehow she does. We met in person, and it just... It didn't seem the same to me. Seemed like a totally different person than the one I knew online. Maybe I'm just crazy about the online version. Or maybe she was a bit distracted at the time. Who knows. But the feelings came back, and now it's too late. Nothing new there.



It's sad tho... Any of the girls I would want to try to go out with and whatnot, I'm just way too old. I keep going for those in teh 16-18 bracket. >>;; I don't really know anyone my age range. Kinda sucks that way.

I wish I could go back to being 18 again... ;_;
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