Monday, November 21, 2005

So yeah. Like I said, I'm gonna stop talking about FFXI in this journal. I'll save that for my LJ. I'm only gonna talk about real life stuff here. (and maybe occasional ffxi stuff that makes me happy.... like how i gained a level last night... =D )


Going off what Levi said in a comment yesterday. Really, the only friends I have are the few that read this, and you all live over 1000 miles away. I have nothing up here. That's why I'm trying so hard to move away from here, and get down there already. As long as I stay here, I'll be nothing but miserable. I've already come to that conclusion.

And going off what Seth said... I wish it was that easy. I wish I could just ask. But I'm too down on myself, and lack the confidence to just go balls out with stuff. The fear of rejection is what stops me from a lot of the stuff I do. That, and the whole "i'm 24, and need to act responsible" thing. I was asked why I've played FFXI for almost 2 years now, and I don't have any job at 75 yet. (75 is the highest level you can get) There are people who can get from 1 to 75 in a couple months. But 2 years, and nothing. My answer? Because I work at 5am. I can't pull the all-nights like other people. I have to be responsible, and know that I work in the morning, and have to get some sleep. I can't be like the kids that play and stay up all night, then sleep thru school the next day.

That's why I say I wish I was 18 again. Before I had job, bills, responsibility. And maybe that's why I keep getting attracted to girls in that age range......to try to live my life thru them. Sigmund Froud (sp) would have a field day trying to figure me out... ^^;;;


But yeah.... So if anyone is single, or has any single friends, and yeah... ^^;;; Come on, you guys hooked Tala up with someone; why not me? XD


This is the week from hell for me.... I hate working retail during Thanksgiving week.... Example? My work schedule:

Today was 5-1.
Tomorrow off
Wednesday 5-1
Thursday 2am-10am
Thursday night 10pm-6am friday morning
Saturday off
Sunday off

Well... Ok, so I'm giving myself the weekend off.. But I gotta work at 2am Thursday morning, then come back Thursday night and pull an all nighter. That'll suck. But then I get to watch the Texas/Texas A&M game, and be happy. =D

Normally I wouldn't have the weekend off tho. The other guy in my department is moving to Michigan next week, so it'll be back to just being me. But if he's still here, then I'm gonna take my last chance to have a weekend off. If they don't like it, tough. Deal with it. I deserve it.


=D


I guess that's it for now. Wheeeeeee
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