Friday, January 6, 2006

Don't read this if you don't want to. Fair warning.























You know, I'll never understand you. For a time, I thought I did. But I guess not. You keep your true feelings kept deep down, and don't let anyone in. Even if they have good intentions, and mean well. You still refuse to let people in.

You say you hurt so much, yet when people help you, it means nothing to you. You just shake it off as nothing, and continue being depressed. And why? Because you can't get what you want.

You cry about being single. Yet you HAD a boyfriend. And hell, you had me basically saying I would be open to getting back together with you. But that wasn't good enough. You wanted what you wanted, and nothing else was good enough.

You can't always get what you want.

Wanna know why I started saying I hated you to begin with? Because of the constant rejection you left me feeling. I gave up trying to make you happy because I knew it was pointless. I gave up the offer of going out again because I'm not "him". I'm not good enough in your eyes, as no person, man or women, is.

You are truely one of the most confusing people I've ever met.

To be perfectly honest, I don't hate you. You say I need to take a joke... How bout you?

But no. You had to make a crack about Texas. And you KNOW I take my football and my Texas heritage VERY seriously. Joking or not, for you say just out and say Texas had to cheat to win... No, I took that VERY personally. Joking or not.

It may mean nothing to you, but to me... What you said is the equilvilent of me saying all gays/lesbians should be burned like the witches in the 1700's. I'm joking, but some people would take it as serious, hate crime, etc.

So you're only cheering for USC because your mom is cheering for Texas? What kind of sordid truth is that?! What kind of justificatoin for what you said is that?

Maybe what I said was a little overboard. But you know what....

You want all the attention. And when someone else is happy, you only seemed to want to strike it down. Why couldn't you just be happy for someone else? What was the point of even saying "they cheated" to begin with, joking or not?!? Just because "it's an anime/con/gaming group" doesn't mean there aren't any football fans in the group.

Hell, if Limo saw what you said, he'd be asking for your head on a plate right about now.



So you know what... I don't hate you. I just think less of you right now.

And that, is no joke.
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