Thursday, July 26, 2007

I know I can find this Zombiesbane somewhere...
I just finished Book 7 (don't worry, I don't do spoilers ^_^ - besides, I don't wanna get sued either, what with the enormous amount of people who are undoubtedly reading this... haha)

I recommend it - nay, the entire series as an overall pleasurable reading. I intend to actually add the final book to my personal library (I read the copy my mom bought). J.K. Rowling adds a tremendously good conclusion to the only series she may ever need to have written. This was great and I was surprised by the parallel (however minor) that I found in it. It is something you'll have to read yourself to find out though ^_^

I can't say how relieved I am to be back at Purdy's again. I'm not the lazy type, but sit me at a desk and give me nothing to do and that is, actually, precisely what I will do. I couldn't lift a finger to please that guy... -_-
He was all for me reading books like manuals and the like (I hate instructional reading materials). I couldn't "learn" while I was there - or not the learning type, eh? But I already complained to you guys about this guys inability to communicate - sort of. Not many people actually know that half of communication is the receiving end and the sending end is where I mess up more often. No excuses - I suck at initiating verbal communication. I didn't think it was so necessary there.

Questions:
1) Hi liter:
a. yellow
b. blue
c. pink
d. orange

2) Who is your favorite character (real or imagined) of all time?

3) What kind of people do you consider the scum of the earth?

Not [Krusty]: Deep question, man...
[Krusty]: -.- get back in my head

I'm gonna keep working and maybe actually get around to putting up some drawings before the other residents start threatening to evict me from MyO for not contributing to society.
[Krusty]
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Bad Internet!!
Sorry for the dropping off the face of the earth there ^_^;

I'd have thought that all this "free-time" would be allowing me to post more often.

Things I've been up to:
-Reading last Harry Potter
-Playing the crap out of DragonQuestVIII
-Job hunting |= (thats a white flag of surrender -_-;;;)
Theres nothing worse than a hunt where the prey seeks out the possibly vicious hunter
-working part-time at an old job (so far my favorite unprofessional job(free food is awesome))

Just an update and the old "I'm not dead" bit all rolled into one, so I'll have to post tomorrow - er, today... maybe to get something else "newsy" about myself and the current craptacular situation I'm in.

Must go to sleep now
[Krusty] ^-^;;;
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Sunday, July 22, 2007

Not Working
Well, I may have mentioned it, but I'm definitely getting a job at Purdy's again and the pay will only be slightly better than it was before... I hope...
I'll be working part time and not have an extra penny to spend with this part-time job (;_; me money all gone ;_;)
Its really too bad I have to wait a week.

Kitsune: thanks so much for the link to the Train Man BBS archives ^_^ it really made my day. If it were a book - instead of just being on the internet, I wouldn't have put it down. Though I had to because my friends invited me to roller-skate with them.

Today - aside from rollerskating and reading the archives

When rollerskating was over (I found out that I'm awfully good on the rollerblades when I finally get used to them), we went to eat at Chili's. I ordered myself a margarita to try to get rid of that cramp I managed to give myself by zipping around the rink at +2x the speed of the small children and 1.5x the speed of the faster young people (no one was injured by my leet skating - though barely). I also ordered a Turkey Sandwich - not the best Xb
After that we went to a soccer game to watch another of my friend's games. I was kinda alarmed that theres a league that mixes male and female players. I expected that my friend Ingrid would be on a girls team (though, jokingly I said to myself some of those girls would be unfair on an all guys team XD).

*turns off subservient chicken*
(you get it if you read those BBS archives I mentioned)

I really hate to take a week off of doing anything, but now I can definitely beat my "I no longer employed game" I used my CADWHORE money to buy. DragonquestVIII - I'm so glad I got it. I beat it once before when I borrowed my friend's playstation, but not having it to try again would not fly. I'd seriously give myself a slap in the face if I didn't allow myself to abuse my new ownership of a PS2 with a copy of DQ8.

Now I actually have some chores I can complete next week - uh, this week ^_^; Too bad they all require that I spend money (stupid bills -_- / vehicle registration)

The girlfriend aspiration is still there, but the number of eligible candidates slim and confusing. My assets have been frozen, so the best I can do is practice my pretty drawings (funny though - it has nothing to do with the girlfriend aspiration... I think...). Maybe I could study my JP book some, but I just can't motivate myself with a reason why ^_^; No other hobbies to speak of that can take place everyday of the week, so I'll just be waking up earlier and making myself a morning person and a better candidate for the next job I come across (the next several weeks are gonna be fun - urgh...).

Well, that's it for my update on the situation of me and the situation is still somewhat upset about me being involved with it. Good thing the situation is getting old and will die off soon.

[Krusty]
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Thursday, July 19, 2007

   Work really is something you do when you would rather be doing something else
My former boss is a big baby.

"What can I do for you?" I'd ask, but wait - he's on the phone and can't get something for me to do, I'll ask someone else.
"How about you? Is there something I can help you with?"
"No," they always say, "I've got it taken care of"
The office is cold and there's nothing to do, I'll spend about 15 minutes to say 'Hi' to my friends on MyOtaku. I try again to ask the boss if there's anything for me to do. He gives me an image to draw to scale with no dimensions. I know it wont be to scale (very close though), so I do it anyway.

An hour rolls past, I still have my otaku page open so I can listen to my music - I've finished the drawing and left it up for him to see. With nothing to do, I walk into the other room to watch my co-worker using a 3D modeling program. I love 3D modeling. I sit back and watch him work for a bit. Not five minutes later, I go back to my desk. My otaku page is up now. I'm putting it away when the boss walks into the room and says "Sam, it's not working out"

Here I am thinking 'this is a joke, right?' I look at his face and though he's seems to suppress a smile, he is undoubtedly serious. I keep my face rigid (but that's actually what I do when I'm scared - I tense up emotionally). I can't believe that this guy who once told my dad's boss over the phone that I was the right guy was now calling me a lazy bum with no excuses. I've had a pretty rough couple of weeks - worrying about the lack of anything to do. I could've handled any project he asked me to do in ample time. I couldn't get to sleep very easily last night either. Now I'm out of the best job I ever had and somehow I'M to blame for this change? I still think not. They asked for insurance forms to be filled out and now I'm uninsured - if they ever did turn in the papers. I'm unemployed and I'm definitely unhappy. I did good work for this guy and he paid me well for it, but this is the proverbial stab in the back. Consider something. Consider that your employees have lives too. Consider the possibility that he is trying to get your attention. Consider that he's smarter than he appears and more talented than you can imagine. Consider he needs your help.

This final paycheck better clear you bastard
[Krusty]
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

300 and One half Million


A definite congrats to MyO for the Half-Mil users (which is likely much less ^_^;) and then to myself for now having 300+ visits. I've been here too long for that to be the total...

OH well! I'm too busy not caring ^_^

To celebrate the occasion and my apparent lack of willpower, I bought a PS2 and Guitar Hero II
I'm already an expert-level player, but I finally own it ^_^ I beat 33 out of 40 songs in the list the night I bought my PS2 (still can't get past that Psychobilly freakout song [thats playing in the imeem player])

I've done a bit more drawing (one picture actually). It's of this girl, but she's wearing ninja attire! Its actually just a scene rendered from my story (link up top).

I'm actually at work right now (as I'm typing this) and don't have a stinkin' thing to do. I'm thinking maybe drawing an anime version of Dane Cook while I wait for the boss to get here and hand me something to do. There's no scanner here, or else I would show you the drawing of Yuna that I did (though I'm thinking about photoshopping it first).

I know I shouldn't make promises I can't keep, so I'll only try to post a picture later (I can give no guarantee)

[Krusty]


just to say - "hey people, yous gotta sing - so do it for some awesome non-existent prizes!"
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Sunday, July 15, 2007

You can't petition freedom of expression either!
What has this country come to?
DO IF YOU SIGN THIS, YOU HATE ANIME!

This is the comment I sent to the site admins:

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This person obviously has some kind of stick up their ass.
Not to mention that there's no possible way for him or her to remove this media from capable American fans - constitutionally or otherwise.

The only networks broadcasting these programs are specialty networks in the nation owned by private companies. As a parent, this person should feel responsible for what her kids watch and not for what everyone else watches. It's the same problem with the pornography industry in this person's case. Nothing can be done because it violates the constitutional rights. So I iterate, if you think that Anime is solely responsible for the increase in criminal actions, look at the parents of today instead. An honest man once watched a dirty movie, when asked what he thought about it he said "I liked it." That is honesty. Now, do you honestly think this will make a difference? Or should we start a Fascist regime to control the minds of our children instead of raising them correctly in the first place?

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Some parents are just so stupid, right?

btw, a big reference to aquaninjagirl for the short topic. There may be more post later today (Different subject(s) of course).

I think I'll start putting three of my posts up at a time again too.

so tired...
[Krusty]
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Saturday, July 14, 2007

Parents out of town
Yeah, my parents are out at Fredericksburg now, and that means wild parties... right? Not so with myself. Myself isn't the party type. Friday, I spent the day at work waiting for something to do. When I got my assignment, I thought I had finished it in an absurd amount of time - nope. I did, however get to leave early. It makes me wish we had another project that was almost finished. I would definitely make more money... I got the entirety of Thursday off too which wont be a happy thing for my wallet (That's a total of 11.5 hours I didn't get to work in two days). Ah well, the best part about this job is that my savings has tripled since I got it ^_^

The one Time I've ever been ok about being Teased

MOM: "Are there any cute girls at work?"
ME: "Yeah, she's getting married"
MOM: "Shoot!"

This is the way that I figured out my misunderstanding with my mom was just a misunderstanding. No better way than a non-confrontational way, right? It's too bad I let it affect me so much, I couldn't post on MyO because of it for a little bit.

Sleeping in

Thursday and today, I slept in for a total of twelve hours (If I was going to wake up at 7:00, that is). I love sleep ^_^ the only problem is that everything else I have to be awake for (school/work/food/friends/drawing). I really let myself go... I need a vacation... or maybe I should just sleep all weekend... nope. Can't do that.

The art front

Wait, there's a battle going on?
Yup
So, what side am I on?
You're the battlefield
What's that supposed to mean?
You can't decide on what you like the best and the battle is for your attention. There's work and there's artwork each battling against each other, begging to be number one. Work is kinda boring, but has all those dollar signs attached to it while artwork is fun and kinda difficult at the same time, but it only asks for some practice once in awhile.
Then why are there explosions?
It's your imagination. It's manufactured all those warheads and sold them at a high price to both sides.
My imagination is such a sell-out...

I really can't think of what to put here...

yup, this is the end of today's post...

[Krusty]
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Awesome Mario theme song
Well, today's post is just an amazing video.
I now present the beat-boxing flute player to the tune of the Mario games:


On a side note, I think the misunderstanding earlier with my mom actually was a misunderstanding ^_^ No big deal anymore.
[Krusty]
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Sunday, July 8, 2007

Thanks everyone ^_^
I'm feeling much less oppressed about the whole thing now. All I had to do was hang out with my friends who know that's not what I am. I haven't confronted my mother on the issue, but I'm sure she'll get the message eventually. She always has to be right and she's going to find out she can't make assumptions about her son - though I'm not sure when.

I'll bet everyone who knows I used to post every day is wondering where I went for the past several days. Well, it was nowhere ^_^. I didn't feel much like posting about my brooding thoughts after you already got the message. I had to get rid of the nasty thoughts by accepting them and denying them altogether. Some of you may see this as "unhealthy" and some of you may not care one way or the other, but at least I'm my contented and happy self again. By the way, overtime and hanging out with friends works really well for forgetting things. I also got to talk to one of them about it - sadly, he's in the same boat but its much tighter and more uncomfortable if you understand the metaphor.

Replies to comments:

A-zak: Thanks so much for the comment. I know there are other people who haven't had girlfriends for longer than I have that aren't gay either, but a real example sure helps a lot ^_^.

Ninja Lover: No, it makes perfect sense. What usually happens is Dad is more protective of the daughter, so he forbid her from having a boyfriend (Dad's are usually way more protective). Mom usually wants everything to be perfect for her children, and that won't happen -_-; She expects everyone to be "normal" and have "normal" relationships when she thinks the time is right. In short, parents love so much its not fair.

Woo-san: Wow, that's a long comment. It's going in the long comment on Krusty's posts hall of fame. I seriously enjoyed reading it whether you felt like you were babbling or not ^_^ I understand what you mean, and I've been waiting for love to hit me for many many years. I've made promises to myself and kept them, but its at some expense to my happiness (glad I have some to spare...). Don't worry about my depression, it goes away pretty quickly. I'm so glad my posts don't support such a view of myself either - I'm not gay...

Baptistgirl: I'd say it, but then my mom would at least feel bad for making me go through this stupid worry and depression. I won't have that, because then there will be more feeling sorry and I'm not sure I can handle that (my mom is not like me when it comes to depression).

Kitsune-san: Oh dear, youmake me blush ^_^. Yeah, my own feelings seem to be second to everyone else's - its nice being low maintenance to yourself. I don't tend to concentrate on whats not right with me, so maybe thats why I can get over this sort of thing so quickly. I'm pretty sure you're right about the school thing. When I look at my yearbook (I never do...) I notice that all the kids from my elementary school had fewer friends unless they were jerks or jocks (in which case, I'd say about half were actual friends). For some reason it just ended up that way, and there's nothing I can do about it, and any sports I would have joined would have just made me unhappy.

Iruka Sensei: No violence is necessary ^_^ But thanks for the offer. I know the "downsides" to having a girlfriend that's one reason I avoided that kind of relationship for so long too. Now, I can "afford" a girlfriend so to speak, but that hasn't changed anything yet. I'm kinda weird though - I like being told what to do ^_^ if it's not ridiculous...

Thank you all! You give such good advice, I almost consider everyone here my therapists XD.

notes on work

I might have a lot of overtime tomorrow, so I probably won't be able to post again. To tell the truth, I'm not sure I'll be able post for awhile... (don't worry, just a few days probably)

The poor new guy (yep, they hired another guy after me) starts on Thursday and we have a project due Tuesday, so he is given about a ten sheets to fix the day he starts. We're putting the project in print tomorrow, so that means MANY mistakes will be found and more drawings will need to be finished before the end of the day. Well, its Sunday, so I don't have to worry about that ^_^
*turns off brain*

I'll see you later then! Thanks so much for your comments!
[Krusty]
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Wednesday, July 4, 2007

   I'm not emo and I'm NOT gay... (pretty much natural fangirl repellant, right?)
Thanks so much for your comments Hoaryu, A-zak, and Kita. You are all such good friends.

We all have our problems with our parents at one point in our lives. We can't read each other's minds, so that makes things difficult sometimes. This is going to be a short post, so just let me tell you that I've had a grim realization. Earlier today, my mom was talking to me about personal "love-life" issues. I have none, because I have no love life. My mom went on and eventually made me feel even more uncomfortable by talking about AIDS and how it's growing to be widespread in the gay community.
*Uncomfortable meter now broken*
I love my mom, so I put aside the obvious assumption she had made - hoping that she hadn't actually made it. I still hope that this grim realization is just a misunderstanding on my part. I happen to know why she jumps to this conclusion, I have nor have I had a girlfriend (at least not since I was 2 or 5 -_-; (I still think of her a lot, surprisingly)). Couple that with the fact that I have a severe lack of women in my life and BAM! Assumption time!

Maybe this post won't be so short after all...

I don't know whether to confront her about it or to not respond and let the idea fester in her mind until she has to ask me and then feels bad about making the assumption. I don't want a girlfriend just to prove a point - the other option is to get a girlfriend ^-^ - its not fair to whoever that girl would be, and its not fair to me that I should have to. It's giving me a headache just thinking about it. I've known what its like to have people you don't care for think about you that way, and I was really stupid in the social area during high school (I still blame my lack in that area from knowing the same damn hateful people since elementary school).

The story of my life in that area always makes me depressed, though not as depressed as the thought that my mom thinks I prefer men as partners. I swear I'm being driven crazy by the woman T-T.

I'm signing off now so I can wallow and stew in my newly formed pit of angst.
[Krusty]

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