Wednesday, January 3, 2007

Hey everyone
2007 is here(well it was three days ago)
Anyway, do any u have any New Years resolutions?
I do. You see I have this list of 4 things that pretty myuch govern my life. They're basically the most important things that I have 2 acomplish. Now that list has dropped to 3 because there was something that I though I needed 2 do, but in fact it was just holding me back.
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Sunday, December 24, 2006

The wolrd is full of villians.
But one man't villian is anothers freedom fighter.
But I think there is one universul evil.
That's when you have someone who loves you and you put them through hell. I have afriend who's going through that. It's pitiful.
I despise people who do that.
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Studying has never been one of my strong points. And though in school somethings may interest me I won't study anytrhing I can't use in one way or another.
I'm a writer, so enjoy reading other peoples work. Even the old dead guys. In English class a lot of people will complain about how much the hated a story. They are all so simple minded that if it doesn't have a healthy measure of gore they don't give it glance. Not everyone is like that ofcourse, actually I'm referring mostly to the guys, and maybe that was a bit of an exaggeration but you know what I mean.
Anyway, I've always had a fascination with mythology and basically anything out of the ordinary. I'll make reference to things I've studied in stories. I've learned that you have to go back to the old dead guys to learn why we still read there stuff. And unfortunately this has led me to the occult. Right now I'm reading a book on the history of vampires. It's a bout 600 huge pages. Some of it is interesting and some of it is just gross. And though I'm interested in it I have a tendency to be obsessive and studying such a subject could lead me to a dark place where I don't want to tread, but I'll pursue it anyway.
I'm not really sure what this rant was about, but as you can see I've got tons of time on my hands.
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Saturday, December 16, 2006

New Years Resolution
How are all of you?
It's been a while.
Life has been normal. Nothing new, but I feel good, calm, at ease.
It's as if all my excess baggage has been blown away by a hurricane called...reason. I think I've finally adjusted to life. The world sux. That's not me being emo, that's telling the truth. Life is awesome. I am melancholy and quiet. That's the way I am. Call it what you will. I am the closest to happiness than I"ve been in over a year. It's pretty cool.
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Wednesday, December 6, 2006

Hi
How are you guys?
I've been okay, I guess. Nothing has changed. Life sux.
But, idk...I feel that somethings going to happen. Something big. And when it happens, if it happens, hopefully I'll be better off.

Anyway I've a theory to express. I believe that we all have a power inside us. An aura if you will. Most don't even know that they have these auras. But they eminate from us, all of us. And they affect our surroundings. So when your depressed or happy and u don't know why, it's becuase of the aura's around you. The emotions of others affects you. And you can feel other auras. There is a hand position that helps channel your aura energy. I know it souns like just some mystic crap, but i believe it's possible. I've felt my aura, now it's calm but last time I checked it was cold and uncertain. It's like reading your emotions, but you can actually physically feel it and that of others. With our auras we affect those around us. There is more to the idea but I'm still toying with it.
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

sigh
Haven't cried in a while.
But today I will.
I can feel it.
Somethings going to happen and I'll ball like a baby.

Sigh

Life sux
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Thursday, November 23, 2006

Risks
Hello
I haven't posted something in quite a while.
Nothing important has happened, but I'll let you now of the mediocre stuff that has happened.

I told the girl that I loved. that I'm starting to fall back in love with her. She said that she still doesn't think of me as more than a friend. I shed tears. I haven't done that in a while either. I hate it. I hate taking risks to try to make myself happy. They are never worth it. But when I don't take risks my life doesn't go anywhere.

Ever since last year, when I discovered my passion for writing, I believed that I would become a best selling author. I still believe it with all my heart. Even if my first books don't make it, I'll always keep trying because I love to write. It is risk I'm willing to take. Somehow I was going to make this relate with the first paragraph but I can't remember now. It's got something to do with risk taking.

I guess, it was that you can't let failures stop you from trying. If you want something go for it.

A while a go...I tried and went all the way, leading myself a long with false hopes. It wasn't worth it. I was crushed in the end. Ever since I lived my life chaoticly, but cautiosly. Wieghing every options, not doing anything without thinking out the consequences. And, so far when I ever I dared to stray from this line of thought I hurt myself. And this fear of being hurt stopped me from doing anything. For a long time I basically stayed in the same place. Existing, but not really living.

For the first time in a long time. I'm going to change. Really, I'm going to bring to order the chaos that is my life. I'm going to do what I need to do. Take well needed risks. Well, I'm going to try at least.
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Friday, November 17, 2006

I just saw Happy Feet.
It was brilliant.
I expected another comedy for kids, but it was amazing.
A recommend it to all of you.

So, how are all of you?
I would post more, but life is so dull that there's nothing to post about.
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Sunday, November 12, 2006

Last night was our last show. We had four shows. One on Friday, Thurday, and two on Saturday. It was tiring, but worth it. It was the best show our school has ever but on. I suggest that you guys see the musical Jekyll and Hyde. I'm sure you could rent it a Blockbuster or something.

There are so many awesome video games coming out. Especially with the realease of the next-gen consoles. I can't even count them all. Who nows how money I'm spending.
Video games, just one of many of my anti-drugs.

Um...I was going to talk about something else, but I forget.

Well...I'll see you guys later.
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Friday, November 10, 2006

Yesterday was opening night for the play I'm in.
My school's doing Jekyll and Hyde.
To be honest I wasn't that nervous.
It's was my second play.
And it rocked!!!!!!!
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