Monday, February 13, 2006

Really
When I think about it, some of you are my best friends. I tell you guys stuff I wouldn't even tell my mom. That's saying something.
Hope you all have a wonderful day.
I wish I would.
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Sunday, February 12, 2006

I'm not talking about Erin. Imagine that
Everything is going well.......I suppose.My aunt went to Iraq so My family and I are watchingover her 5year old son. Personally, I think children are overrated. I don't plan to everhave any. I'm sorry if that offends any of you.


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I'm not talking about Erin. Imagine that
Everything is going well.......I suppose.My aunt went to Iraq so My family and I are watchingover her 5year old son. Personally, I think children are overrated. I don't plan to everhave any. I'm sorry if that offends any of you.


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I'm not talking about Erin. Imagine that
Everything is going well.......I suppose.My aunt went to Iraq so My family and I are watchingover her 5year old son. Personally, I think children are overrated. I don't plan to everhave any. I'm sorry if that offends any of you.


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I'm not talking about Erin. Imagine that
Everything is going well.......I suppose.My aunt went to Iraq so My family and I are watchingover her 5year old son. Personally, I think children are overrated. I don't plan to everhave any. I'm sorry if that offends any of you.


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Friday, February 10, 2006

Exception
I'm learning to except it. I love Erin. I really love her. Truely, utterly, and deeply. But She doesn't think the same way about me. And if she does, she's good at hiding it. Anyway, I'm not going to worry about right now. I'm just going to continue living my life and if she finally decides what to do, I'll be ready.
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Thursday, February 9, 2006

Revalation
The revalation has begun and it has taken a drastic turn. I don't feel like going into deatail right now, but Erin may become obsolete, and supposedly I'm supposed to reach happiness by giving my devotion to god.

Here's what happened: I wrote a poem to Erin and I my mom found it. I felt like I was going to die because I knew exactly what she was going to say. "Give her up. She's not worth it." In my religion we, beleive that true joy can only come from giving God absolute devotion. I'm unsure of what to do, though I no what I'll have to.
Life sux. Badly.
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Wednesday, February 8, 2006

Lies
They've lied to us all. Feeding us the idea of perfect love. Cinderella, Snow White, and the sort. They all live happily ever after, the end. Lies, deciet. Love is not perfect. Love is never perfect. There is no happily ever after. You have to work your fricken butt off, and hope that they feel even a fraction of the same way about you. It isn't perfect, but nothing else can compare.

I'm going to ask her a question, that I've been dreading. The answer could change my life. Or am I blowing it out of proportion. Only time will tell.
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Monday, February 6, 2006

FF7 AC
I just saw Advent Children! The subtitles sucked, but it was the most awesome that I've ever seen in my life. I could babble on about it but I don't that would very fun for those who haven't seen it. Who nows when it's coming out in english. They've just delayed it like 7 times.

Right now I'm going through a revalation. I think it's the best thing for me, but I'm still very weary about it because it could put my love for Erin on the line, but if the revalation succeeds my love for her will grow infinetly more powerful.
So I'm playing Russian Roulette with half loaded gun. The revalation will probably take months to finish.
Wish me luck.
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Friday, February 3, 2006

apathy
You know, I do have something to say. Erin. I've given you poem after poem telling you how I feel. What do you want? For me to spell it out for you? I love you. I'll shout it to the heavens if you want.

I'm tired of waiting and your making me wonder if the wait is worth while.

But why am I telling you guys this? None of you are Erin. There is nothing else to say.
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