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Thursday, November 23, 2006
Risks
Hello
I haven't posted something in quite a while.
Nothing important has happened, but I'll let you now of the mediocre stuff that has happened.
I told the girl that I loved. that I'm starting to fall back in love with her. She said that she still doesn't think of me as more than a friend. I shed tears. I haven't done that in a while either. I hate it. I hate taking risks to try to make myself happy. They are never worth it. But when I don't take risks my life doesn't go anywhere.
Ever since last year, when I discovered my passion for writing, I believed that I would become a best selling author. I still believe it with all my heart. Even if my first books don't make it, I'll always keep trying because I love to write. It is risk I'm willing to take. Somehow I was going to make this relate with the first paragraph but I can't remember now. It's got something to do with risk taking.
I guess, it was that you can't let failures stop you from trying. If you want something go for it.
A while a go...I tried and went all the way, leading myself a long with false hopes. It wasn't worth it. I was crushed in the end. Ever since I lived my life chaoticly, but cautiosly. Wieghing every options, not doing anything without thinking out the consequences. And, so far when I ever I dared to stray from this line of thought I hurt myself. And this fear of being hurt stopped me from doing anything. For a long time I basically stayed in the same place. Existing, but not really living.
For the first time in a long time. I'm going to change. Really, I'm going to bring to order the chaos that is my life. I'm going to do what I need to do. Take well needed risks. Well, I'm going to try at least.
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