Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Happy....late, Easter!!!! ¬_¬
Hey ya'll! Happy late Easter! I hope ya'll had a great Sunday holiday, cause I did! I finally got Full Metal Alchemist on DVD!!! YAY! I also got DNAngel friend, to watch so I'm set for anime. I got a bunch of candy. THANK GOD.
Today in Social Studies it was like fear factor. People were bringing in this "food"; if thats what you want to call it- for their reports. It was nasty. Cortney brought in this shake thing that was a mixture of tofu, strawberries, and bananas. O.o I was ready to barf. Then Britney brought in baked bananas,with soy sause on it, and I just lost it and ran out of the room to the bathroom. Then Stephine brought in potato curry, which was GOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!! I loved it, sooooooooo much. Then.....I couldn't eat lunch because of all the nasty stuff I had right before it, since Social Studies is right before lunch. So that was my day.

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I was so happy when you smiled, your smile breaks through the clouds of grey. Far from the sunny days that lie in sleep. Waiting with paitence for the spring, when the flowers with bloom renewed again, knowing theres more beyond the pain of today. Although the scars of yesterday remain. Let's stay together all ways.
-theme to Fruits Basket

Lalas,
AJ
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Monday, March 21, 2005

   Well,
I just wanted to thank everyone who has signed my GB and who have talked to meh. ^_^ I've just had an OK day and I just felt like thankin ya'll! So, yuukichan I'd like to thank you most of all, for chatting with me through messages, and what-not. I thank you deeply for being a cool friend. All, of ya'll have been cool, and it's nice to know that people like me do exist. I'm gonna cry!!!!! ;_; Weel, thanks ya'll. Have a good night, day, afternoon, whatever time you get to reading this.
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Thursday, March 17, 2005

Well, nothing new
Yesterday I went to the doctor because I have been sick since November. My doctor said that if I am not better by monday, I'll have to go to the hospital for a blood test. Damn blood suckers. ANYWAY!!! They think I may have Mono. The kissing thingy-ma-bob but I haven't kissed anyone. I don't want to get my blood sucked! Well, GTG lalas
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Monday, March 7, 2005

I thought this would never happen again.. 2
Well, this is the part two of the first one. See, Amber knew a lot more than I did, so When Desi was asleep Amber and I got to talking about Desi and what she was like as a child. Well, it was everything Desi didn't tell me. So, Amber's story was the total opposite. And what Amber was also telling me was what Desi's mom had told me when we would talk as she'd bring me home. And I got an e-mail from Desi before we had talked about the whole thing and she told me not to read it but, being me I had to read it. So here it is:I'm so sorry......I know you hate me.But i never met the things i said.Yes.It is true.I did lie when i was little.Yes i know i put up a big tough act.I know i might have hurt you and i never meant it.I still want to be friends.....I don't hate you,I never meant when i said that i don't want friends anymore.You don't have to forgive me.I know very well that you just want to rip me to sheds and for me to die.Amber did say the truth on things.But not the whole truth.I know well that she lefted out some little details on somethings.You can believe her....if you want to.I will tell you all you want to know from start to finish,anything you want to know.I will tell.And i give you my word,i will not change anything or lie.I know that you must thing that i am a lier and nothing more,that i lied about everything.This is not true.I just didn't tell you things and only lied alittle on somethings.I wasn't sure that i could trust you......And i know now,that is one of my faults.All i ever wanted...was to be seen.You seen me,help me.I thank you for that.In many ways,you have taught me alot of things.You gave me my dream.You also taugh me another thing.Friends are like gold,Best friends are your family.When you said that you can never truely have a best friend.In someways you can't.But you are still My sister and always will be.i did cry when i was younger.You are right,you are nothing like Heather.But nor are you nothing like Amber.I was in so much pain,That i just screamed out anything i could.I know you are glad that i am in pain.I will give you my word,That i will Try even harder to be a better person.Thats also another thing you have taught me.To never give up,To be a better person you must try harder.And so i will.Anytime you want to know something about me.I will tell you.All i ever really did,was hurt myself and the people around me who tried to help.I never meant it,to hurt you.In all of this,I just want to be friends.To trust eachother.To leave the past behide.

Please....Thats all i ask.

Sinceraly,
Desiree' Collison
So, We're all better, after a fight once again.><
I guess this friendship is more then we thought it was. Well, gtg.
lalas, AJ
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Sunday, March 6, 2005

   I don't think this will happen again...
Well, I stayed at Desi's house for her birthday firsday. And, I could not sleep at all. I slept for only four hours on the floor, and my back, neck, and everything hurts like hell now. I got something from Amber, something thats called the truth. You see, Amber and Desi have been friends since childhood, and lived next to each other. Desi had always, told me she "never had" these "emotional" problems that everyone has. She supposively "never cried" I can't believe it. I always hoped was we became better friends she would tell me the real truth. But, I'll tell you the rest. I have to go.
lalas, AJ
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Thursday, March 3, 2005

Well, thats a day..
Well, today I had an ok day. Twinkie-another wild friend- almost tackled me during lunch even though she has the lunch before me, and she's a grade ahead of me. She didn't take me down, but then she tackled Desi and took her down. Before that I hit her in the head and Desi droped like a bomb to the floor. Heh, heh, we had a little meeting for our whole grade with the detention dude, about the behavior and cleanliness, in the lunch room. That was gay so, thats all. I tried to trip him though.

Poem of the day-

Forever Friends

Through all the years and the many passages in our lives,

we've shared a closeness like no other.

You've listened and you've cared, and the bright spirit in you has always understood the real me.

Your kidness has shown me the beauty of human spirit, your support has carried me through good times and bad, and your love has taught me what true friendship really means.

You're my dear friend and you always will be.

-Hania

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Lalas,

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Wednesday, March 2, 2005

just your everyday day
Today, was ok. I wasn't in the best of moods. I didn't even put on my mask, today. My day never got better. But, when I got home I started to draw and I drew a perfect Rei from MARS, the manga. I cannot scan it but maybe my teacher will scan it then send it to me. Anyway.... How was everyones' day? Did, anything exciting happen? (yeah right)

Poem of the day!

What I need"

What I need is nothing that coast anything.

It cannot be found in a store.

The things I need, are not ment to make me seem greedy.

If it does, please tell me.

I do not wish to be seem as your reflection.

But, the mear oppiste.

What I need is not something you can buy at the store.

This comes with no price.

I don't wish to bother you with such nonsence.

So, tell me if I am.

What I need has to come from within.

Simply giving me your trust and hope is what I need.



Lalas,


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Tuesday, March 1, 2005

Just another day...
Today, was just like your normal day. (Whatever "normal" means) I took Desi's bus insted of mine cuz, we went to go shopping for her birthday party on Friday. We, got a bunch of weird looks from people like usual, cuz we're gothic. But, we had fun and went to The Egg Roll House, for dinner. That was good, but ever since I've been sick me eating habbits have changed so eating wasn't to biggest goal of my day. Actually I could go about two days without eating now. And my doctor is afraid of that now, cuz its not good for my health. She can bite me. God, its my life and my eating problem don't bug me about it. Well, I might be able to go to Desi's again to help set up for the party cuz, I guess her mom works thursday. Anyway, got to go. Lalas- AJ
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Saturday, February 26, 2005

How did this happen....?
Today was not the best day I have ever had. My best friend Desi had her old friends Amber come over which she thought she would never like again. Well, when she came to her house she and Amber become friends all over again and Desi didn't even care that we were supposed to go shopping today for her party. I don't like to seem hostile, but I am hurt that she would just forget about me that easily and just say "Well, we can just do that tomarrow." I don't like the fact that even my own best friend could and did just blow me off like that. Sometimes I like that we just don't see eye to eye, that, that is our one and only weakness. I don't think I'm making too, much of a deal out of it....but I could be wrong about that. I just wish she would have thought before she acted. Now, I feel like I'm back where I started, with no one to actually believe that I'm seen, and they just think I'm a no body. I just wish she stopped to think is all.


I write poems so I wrote something that relates to this:

About Me

There are secrets locked within me.

My heart turned to ice by so many hurtful words and actions.

These secrets have yet to be unlocked and unleashed upon this world.

And when they are, will you still know who I am?

This is about me and what you do to make me feel this way.

When you those words, apart of me is tore away.

I can't help but think, "Is this truely the life I have?" When I break and everything is known...Will your actions change?

This is about me.

Well, thats all for today. Lalas
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Thursday, February 24, 2005

Nice day....too much movment
To day we had a bamboo band from Japan come and proform, which was really cool. There was two guys and two girls and a translator, which was a girl then the manager which was a guy. This guy named Tomo was cute. Very nice. >< Then close to the end of school...we had this dude named Rob. He's this really really really good and I guess famous drummer. And we got to dance, which got everyone all hyped up. It was a crazy day. Everything was all fucked up but lunch. So that was the "fun filled" day. lalas
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