Monday, March 7, 2005

I thought this would never happen again.. 2
Well, this is the part two of the first one. See, Amber knew a lot more than I did, so When Desi was asleep Amber and I got to talking about Desi and what she was like as a child. Well, it was everything Desi didn't tell me. So, Amber's story was the total opposite. And what Amber was also telling me was what Desi's mom had told me when we would talk as she'd bring me home. And I got an e-mail from Desi before we had talked about the whole thing and she told me not to read it but, being me I had to read it. So here it is:I'm so sorry......I know you hate me.But i never met the things i said.Yes.It is true.I did lie when i was little.Yes i know i put up a big tough act.I know i might have hurt you and i never meant it.I still want to be friends.....I don't hate you,I never meant when i said that i don't want friends anymore.You don't have to forgive me.I know very well that you just want to rip me to sheds and for me to die.Amber did say the truth on things.But not the whole truth.I know well that she lefted out some little details on somethings.You can believe her....if you want to.I will tell you all you want to know from start to finish,anything you want to know.I will tell.And i give you my word,i will not change anything or lie.I know that you must thing that i am a lier and nothing more,that i lied about everything.This is not true.I just didn't tell you things and only lied alittle on somethings.I wasn't sure that i could trust you......And i know now,that is one of my faults.All i ever wanted...was to be seen.You seen me,help me.I thank you for that.In many ways,you have taught me alot of things.You gave me my dream.You also taugh me another thing.Friends are like gold,Best friends are your family.When you said that you can never truely have a best friend.In someways you can't.But you are still My sister and always will be.i did cry when i was younger.You are right,you are nothing like Heather.But nor are you nothing like Amber.I was in so much pain,That i just screamed out anything i could.I know you are glad that i am in pain.I will give you my word,That i will Try even harder to be a better person.Thats also another thing you have taught me.To never give up,To be a better person you must try harder.And so i will.Anytime you want to know something about me.I will tell you.All i ever really did,was hurt myself and the people around me who tried to help.I never meant it,to hurt you.In all of this,I just want to be friends.To trust eachother.To leave the past behide.

Please....Thats all i ask.

Sinceraly,
Desiree' Collison
So, We're all better, after a fight once again.><
I guess this friendship is more then we thought it was. Well, gtg.
lalas, AJ
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