Tuesday, September 28, 2004

   *sneezes*

I am currently sick and eating tacos...Yum tacos~! I got out of school early because I was having a very bad headache. oh my head -.- - We were taolking about babies and family things today in Home Ec. (yesterday I got to make Play dough!) I want a baby..the are so cute ^^ but i can't have one...i'm to young...dammit why do i have to be 15?! Why can't I be 18 so my mother can't control me? Why...! Just the whole baby birthing process sounds very painful o.O I do not want to be cut down there if my baby's heads to big...ouchie ... x.x I want a little baby boy named Ashur and another little boy named Damon anda little girl named Luna... ...that will be painful, but good thing I have a boyfriend that is willing to stay with me forever no matter what. He's already proposed to me...well kinda. He said he'd do it again when I"m 18 and have a ring and make extra romantic....so their has to be sex doing, right? YAY! -kuronekosama accualy the sex part will come after we sit a while in a feild in the dark...alone....^^

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Friday, September 24, 2004

.........

Well my mother left today. It was very tearful. She was walking out the door and just sorta slowly appraoched and said: "Momma, can I have a hug...?" and thats when I broke down. I'm still crying right now. I wan ted someone to talk to so I just posted on here. I don't want to leave my home. I don't want to go see my dad. I want my mother. I want her to stop drinking and she needs to be here and happy. I won't see her again for thirty days hopfully she will have received enough help and won't have to go back. I hate my Birthday. -kuronekosama

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   ^^

Todays my Birthday so I shall be happy! *smiles* I got nothing from my mom but I didn't expect much so I'm okay. The only thing I'm getting from my dad is Pokemon FirRed! YAY! I like pokemon...^^' Pokemon Sapphire is a blast to play they really made so MASSIVE improvments sence the ole red blue and yellow days. I also asked from my dad a Gamecube and FFCrystal Chronicals but he daid wait till christmas. But I don't think he'd only get me one present. Hes just like that. Who knows I mght have a black or purple gamecube waiting for me! I wanna plasy Zelda @_@ Stupid Ocarnia of Time...I CANNOT CONQUER YOU!! my mommie is leaving today and I won't be back for a good long while, so I leave you with this proverbs: A dog won't forsake his master because of his poverty; a son never deserts his mother for her homely appearance. Lift a stone only to drop on your own feet. Pick up a sesame seed but lose sight of a watermelon A smile will gain you ten more years of life. You think you lost your horse? Who knows, he may bring a whole herd back to you someday. You won't help shoots grow by pulling them up higher. -kuronekosama yes they are all real proverbs; curiously strong?

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Wednesday, September 22, 2004

   dammit

I hate this. I stupid fucking hate this. I'm having such a great week....not. We went and picked up my mother on Sunday, right? Well she went to the store to buy food because we were out. All we had was some discarded cans and some moldy food in the fridge. Well when she came home she had gotten a 12 pack beer. plus a 6 pack. She made me so mad! Thats the whole reason she decided to go there. You have to help to, ya know! It's tough but, damn just try. Then on the following day she bought another 12 pack pack and drank every drop the next day, she did it again. And today I came home, walked in the drive way and the car was totally crashed. I'm losing my mind. What can I do? I really am losing my head, last night when I was staring at my wall, I saw two shawdows, dancing. They looked like little girls. I'm going crazy, what a terrific birthday present. My boyfriend may be ether lying in the floor dead or just ignoring me, or not at home. He called this morning telling me he needed his inhaler and I said 'where is it?' and he replied: 'I left it at my brothers house' (keep in mind thios was at 7:20 in the morning) I asked "go tell some body if you need it! You can't just sit there and die!" and well he just didn't want to tell anyone so they wouldn't go out of their way for him. I'm so worried. - also my mothers boyfriend broke up with her because of so many things going on. He can't stand her with the acholism. He tried to help but she keeps going back to it. I think its not a good idea because she going threw so much. maybe my mom will accutaly approve of my boyfriend now that Brians gone (althugh I think he'll come back) she still doens't know were are going out. We've been going out semnce April 1st...I hope I still have a boyfriend to cry on, because if he's dead. I can't say I'll live to see my birthday on friday. -kuronekosama I'm so scared

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Saturday, September 18, 2004

^^ thank you GTK

I would like to say thank you GTK for having such a cool wallpapers! and MP3 I have totally given my site a Galerians makeover... ...I still can't beat that game...stupid Birdman >< I'm pathitic HURRAH AND CANDY FOR GTK!!!

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   >< ARGH!!

We were going to pick up my mother at 8:00am but now we have to wait till 11:00pm because she has to take a dot test. Whats a dot test? Brian said he didn't know ether. - so I'm waiting to go to Mckays but first I have to get wet and naked and I don't feel like taking a shower...I just wanna go buy a book, leave, and draw. Hmm...My picture entitled 'Nightmare Skull' is very kewl looking. I love the scythe its so interesting and neat! I might finish with it today..all depends.. oh oh! on Fiction press I put up a poem called 'broken lullaby' I have yet to receive any reveiws though. Maybe I'll collect one by the end of this week. No one ever reads my stuff ^^' The most reveiws I have is seven. One of my friends has over 200 I was so amazed! The stories is 23 chapters, but still thats a lot of reveiws! - I also put up lots of new things on my Website...it looks a bit better. >< kinda I guess it looks good sense its a free site and you can't do much with those. But I'm poor, don't know enough of HTML, my computer slow, and not enough time to manage my own domain. I guess I'll just stick with my 46 hit website. ^^' -kuronekosama

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Friday, September 17, 2004

   ^^

We get to bring my mother home on Sunday! Thats good. I just hope shes okay and stays that way so they don't have to keep her longer. I figured out that they give their patients tranqulizers and drugs to keep them calm and keep their minds from wandering. Thats so horrible. - I'm working on more artwork, i'll post it soon. - I get to go to Mckay's used books and Cd's tomarrow! I'm happy. i hope they have Blade of the Immortal there. I really wanna read it. Or any kind of Cd maybe some Linkin Park or AFI. i hope Evenesense comes out with a new Cd soon, they are my fav! They could even have a J-rock music they have everything else ^^ I went to the Hollywood vidio today and I wanted to rent The Nightmare Before Cristmas because thats just my favorite kids movie (and the Lion King!) but the person right infront of us got it! It sucked! I havn't seen that movie sence I was young....I got the Animatrix instead...I wanna see that but I like NBC better... *sniff* - MY BIRTHDAYS NEXT WEEK!!! ^^ tee hee... okay now for some random quizes, hhaven't took some in a while ^^ Faust VIII He's a little bit macabre, weird, mad, and enjoys experimenting with death and summoning skeletons at graveyards... who wouldn't love that? But one thing is clear... if he loves you, he'll love you even after death! He won't let your soul go!! What Shaman King boy is your perfect match? (for girls) brought to you by Quizilla Yay, Faust! You are Ryu's spirit - TOKAGERO the ghost bandit! What Shaman King spirit are you? brought to you by Quizilla

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Thursday, September 16, 2004

   ^^ yay no school!

Well I have no school tomarrow, thanks to the Hurricane Ivan! We are just in Tennessee and its flooding real bad. I think this is the onlt time I can remember for school getting out because of rain...I only had two days of school this week. on Wensday and Tuesday I got sick! I drank old milk...i wasn't the happiest person in the world...hmm pukeing always loads of fun.... - Next week my friend gets to make a trip on the hospital, to see if he is Epleptic. I hope he's not but I'll still be there with him even if he is. What else happened...oh yes my mother's going into recovery right now. She just came back from New York and only two days later she left. This sounds so childish, but I miss my mommie. My mother is in alchol recovery for a while and if it doesn't work she may have to stay there for a 30 day period. I hope she will be okay. I can't talk to her or anything. She's not allowed to have phonecalls, books, magazines, cameras, pets, drawing suppiles or anything. The only way I can commuicate with her is by letter. i really hope my mommie gets over her drinking problum, I want to see her. -kurnekosama

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Monday, September 13, 2004

   -.-

I've been gone away at my fathers for the past few days sorry I havn't updated. I was missing the internet and keybord as I rode my bike without enthusiasim. Foolish hillbilles! You obtain none of the nesscairy needs for city life! You shall pay....in doughnuts....yum doughnuts...even better yet, forbidden doughnut! Oh how my mind is lost in a sea o fog..were tis my brain? My gruesome gory stories reside here but what about my brain!... - my freind Sakiryce said something abou the year and I was think ing I missed Myotaku annversariry! It was earlier last month and I forgot. Have pity on my deranged soul.. -.-' - oh woe is me -kuronekosama

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Sunday, September 5, 2004

   -.-

There went my artwork. It's very lonley but I think it will get used to it.. Someone said it was biblical! How is it biblical? I hate the bibal, I don't even have a religion! But thats their openion and thats okay. I guess maybe 666? I dunno. - Did anyone see the moon last night? It was beutiful. I was painted crimson! THe moon was blood red, and a crescent. I was thinking all along Cerise Tear is coming true! The end of world as we know it. Of course my best friend, Purgatory, had to argue and say it was the Vampires. She can think that, but I tell you its Lune the Crescent Suicide! I know it is! I've only seenthe moon like that once before. I as when I was very young and it was a full moon. i remeber me my mother and father all wen out into the pasture it see it better. both times it was huge! It was so amazing. It seemed like it was so close that i could just reach out and touch it... - i'm off tomarrow so I'll just be sitting up all night and tommarow playing .hack//outbreak! I finnaly got it and I've only played abot and hour on it. i'm a little lost on where to go, but I'll think I'll find it. GRUNTY!! -kuronekosama 'Daddy I'm hungrey, oink!'-baby grunty 'Master what is it, rattle?' - bony grunty (my fav! ^^) 'Mon ami! Do you need me?' - noble Grunty I have a snaky gruny I just can't remember what it says... ^^'

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