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Tuesday, August 31, 2004


   -.-

hmmm...

There's new art on the way as soon as I finnish my one drawing it'll be up! You now me, I have to upload my images in groups so they don't get loney. ^^' My new main picture is from my ficton, Cerise Tear. It looks quite cool. I hope when I scan it it looks the same. I'm also drawing the Thirteen from Cerise. My last art was some of Thirteen but they weren't the best and they weren't colored. So being looking forward to all new pictures!

oh by the way. YOu probably didn't know but the Thirteen images were: Broken, Porcelain, Twisted Cross, Twins of Judgement, Punishment. The reason you didn't know was because I never told you and plus it was a secret to any one who was reading Cerise...(um like no one ^^')well the cats outta the bag now..but its still in murky water. Stay tuned for fully coloered images soon.

-kuronekosama

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Sunday, August 29, 2004


   ...

crimson tears flow from my eyes. The moon is glowing more red with each and every passing second. The angels are holding hands, suicide on their minds. She sits and stares strait into the cold sky. Her heart is cold Her heart is ice. A army of corpes at her feet.

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i think it s part of my story. maybe a future part? My eyes are wandering. What is wroung. My mind is gone. I want my heart. helpme. Depressed I am so....

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Wednesday, August 18, 2004


   ^^

well i haven't updated in a while. Guess what I'm doing? I'm sitting here at school..oh how my mind wanders...

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I have found out nothing...school, is such a waste. My favorite class is first period. and its English II Collage Prep. I'm suprised because I hate english. But we get to write alot and thats cool. I wrote a poem and it was depressing; hopfully it won't spook Mr. Thomas.

-

I like the computer system now! It will let me on to fictionpress last year it wouldn't. yay! I can read stories!

-

there was something else...
um..

I watched all of Chobits. It was good I liked it awhole lot. The manga's so different..

ARGH!! The school banned ragged jeans! no not my holy jeans ;_; I shall go cry now. hopfully they won't ban socks on the arms too.. i need my indiviualdy to survive...

doo doo doo

I guess I'll go see if the got anymore manga sense last year in the libaray. I shall be off.

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004


   ....

I really have nothing to say except that I start school on thursday and its going to be so horrible. My life as we know it, is over. And so I leave you with a poem.

Rain

The angels are crying,
there is no heaven.
The angels are crying,
cold crimson tears.
The small pitter of broken glass
against the screen door.

The angels are crying,
there is no god.
The angels are crying,
silent weeps.
The loud roar of a broken heart.

The angels are crying,
there are no more children.
The angels are crying,
may death be among us.
I stand there,
gaping at the sky.

The angels are silent,
crimson tears apon my face.
The angels are silent,
broken heart beating inside my frail chest.
I lay there,
broken and discarded.

(c) kuronekosama / chara

it has a deeper meaning to it than just rain. Can you decipher it?

-kuronekosama




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Friday, August 6, 2004


   ....bleh

Woohoo! I was the winning bidder on ebay for Chobits complete colection and FLCL Addict OST 1! Yay! It pays to have a job. You get anime and anime products! I want pocky....strawberry pocky...haven't had any in forever....

yum pocky @_@

I could just have skittles in the meantime. I left them on my window sil. They must have gotten hot because when poured them out they looked kinda melted...oh well still good. still candy! I'd ratherhave shocktarts or gobstoppers. but I can deal with skittles.

-

You should have seen my cat this morning when I awoke. It was funny! He was laying on his back, curled up around my feet with his paws up in the air! All his fat catness was hanging out, he was so adorable! Can you tell I love my cat a whole friggin' bunch? kitty!

=^-^=

so did you all see my feetus I got? I thought that was funny. i was cracking up...I got myself a dragon feetus, in a jar for my convenence.

well I must scram for now.

-kuronekosama

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Thursday, August 5, 2004


   ...

I found a awesome new friend! very talented writter. His otaku id is: Phoenix Blade you go check him out! I command you!

^^

have a nice day.
full of decapitation.

-kuronekosama

specter
Specter:
A specter is an imprint of one who once lived.
They are pale- near transparent- beings who
wander the earth. Your head is often in the
clouds. You daydream and try to escape so much
that your body is merely a shell traversing the
earthly plane while your soul is worlds away.


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Wednesday, August 4, 2004


   ....

thank you all you dumb asses for not commenting on my song. just messing. ^^ I dunno I gues its my fault. because I'm not good at making friends and the friends I do make never respond to me. So i'm kinda just talking to myself. Oh well tis life. All those people who say 'I'm adding you as a friend' just want you on there list the don't really want you. It must be somekind of contest to see who has the bigger list,eh? I have no desire to win though. if anyone were to win I say it'd be Dan Felton. ^^ he has on hellofva list! I miss Bakuryu, he was always here for me ;_;... no that my best friend has new friends and a boyfriend she has no need for me anymore. oh how I feel loved.

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hmmm...lets see... can't remember...

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oh! one of my friends wants to get an account on here so he can show off his artwork. Accutaly he said something like: 'yay every one gets to see how bad I draw' he doesn't have the highest self eesteem. ^^' oh well another one here yay...

I also got a new vidio game, its one of the Breath of Fires. I like those seris they are fun...yet hard ><. I really want Fatal Frame II: Crimson Butterfly. But I don't see that happing...maybe for my birthday...hey, its coming up too! September 24! I'll be fifthteen. I prolly won't get a b-day present from purgatory because, she'll say something like I don't hve any money....but on that trip to misagan she had money and she didn't get me anything when she said she would. I just don't see it coming. She bought Chris: Mobile suit gundam: federation vrs. zeon, her bro: guilty gear x, herself: Gravatation volume ?, Angel sanctaury volume 1 & 2. I dunno if i ever wanna buy something for my friend I always buy it first so i know I'll have enough money. But a lotta times she thinks of herself first...oh well...

-

i'm gunna put links up tht leed to my fanfiction and fiction press accounts maybe ya'll will come reveiw them? I won't get my hopes up.

had somemore stuff to type but I can remember. I'll come back and EDIT later...if i remember.

-kuronekosama

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Monday, August 2, 2004


   Angel in Iridesent

well here's the song I told you all about have fun reading. No stealie, i will hunt you down.

Angel in Iridescent
Lyrics: Kuronekosama / Chara

Angel in iridescent
I'm falling
Someone
Please tell me
What I have become
Trapped in your grip
swimming in your palms
suffocated in your lies
trapped in darkness
make a wish
I'm falling
wrinkled in my soiled dress
strings of barbed wire
tangled around my wrist
tainted with the angels tears
years and years I've cried
someone
please catch me

someone's crying
ill-fated embers
someone's pleading
for the pain to start receding
in my music box
curled up inside
I found a silver key
to my years repast
broken and discarded
crimson blood I shed
I'm falling
catch me

Angel in iridescent
you came to take my life
I'm screaming
silver and crimson
fill my mind
pull the trigger
it won't hurt that much
tell me I'm not dreaming
push the pedals
twist my fate
rip my heart
skip a beat
I'm screaming
playing in your tortured hands
sin is bleeding from an open eye
crimson falls from a closed gate
covered in cloth
wrapped in ribbons
we scream to our death
someone
please close my mouth

someone's crying
ill-fated embers
someone's pleading
for the pain to start receding
in my dreams
there is a bloodshot moon
sky as dark as burnt silver ash
railroad tracks lay upon this soiled earth
barefoot in the cold rain
fallen down
can't get up
I'm screaming
close my mouth

Angel in Iridescent
rape me
fallen to my pain
broken piano
crimson hands laid upon my chest
naked and thrown askew
hair sodden with black rain
suffocated by belts
covered in roaches
backwards eyes
in my sanctuary
bloodshot moon
guides my way
cock the gun
pull the trigger
rainbow of blood
porcelain face
broken remains lie in the hearth
burning crimson
someone
please kill me

someone's crying
ill-fated embers
someone's pleading
for the pain to start receding
Angel in iridescent
burning ashes
command to you
wrinkled in my soil dress
wrapped in ribbons
suffocated by belts
Angel in iridescent
someone
please kill me



(c) Kuronekosama Chara 2004

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   ....

well I whipped out my old NES and started to play Super Mario brothers 3. I'm so proud of myself I made it all the way to the forth world without useing the game genie! yay...then I played Yoshi and got to level six and then game over. It got to fast. well be expecting new lyrics. I'm in that mood and nothing will stop me.

this school year will suck so bad. I'm going to be alone. So alone. Its going to be like I'm in seventh grade again. My best friend's gone and she has way more interest in her boyfriend than me. I'm going crazy here. No one to talk to. No one at all. This semester wil be hell, two of the three things I fear most have happened. I've been forgotten and I'm alone. Not the alone like hey I'm alone nobodys around. Its the alone were there are plenty of people but you are a tiny speck of dirt no one sees you. Someone talks to you and then you just ignore them because they are only trying to be mean. Alone. That is the true meaning of alone. I hate people and people hate me thats just how it goes. The blade has never looked so sharper.

I'm just going to rot now.

rot in my own hell.

-kuronekosama

Nirvana
Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!


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How to make a kuronekosama
Ingredients:

5 parts intelligence

1 part silliness

1 part beauty
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little lustfulness if desired!


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What time are you starting this?:1:01 PM
Name?:Charalee Fawn Dugger
Nicknames?:Chara, Cha-Cha, and my younger sis calls me something illegiable
Date of birth?:September, 24 1989
Sex?:Female
Height?:5' 3"
Eye color?:blue
Where were you born?:knoxville, TN
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?:didn't have one
Pets?:cat, fish, dogs, chickens, guini, rabbit, cow, budgie, you name I got it
Hair color?:kind of a dirty blonde not blonde but not brown, complete natural
Piercings?:ears
Town you live in?:Knoxville
Favorite foods?:sushi, pizza, beef jerky, ramen, onion, salad with everything, onion rings
Ever been to Africa?:no
Been toilet papering?:no
Love someone so much it made you cry?:yes, it hurts
Been in a car accident?:yes
Croutons or bacon bits?:yum both, salad please!
Favorite day of the week?:Friday
Favorite resturant?:Mandarin House or Cici's Pizza....Little Cesaurs is good too
Favorite flower?:black iris, snap dragons, foxglove
Favorite sport to watch?:hate sports...
Favorite drink?:Diet Pepsi or Orange Juice
Favorite ice cream flavor?:Chocolate chip cookie dough
Warner Bros. or Disney?:both
Favorite fast food restuarant?:burger king....white castle is preety good
Carpet color in your bedroom?:some shade of tan
How many times did you fail your driver's test?:none; never took it
Whom did you get your last email from?:random person on the internet complmenting on my story
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?:Hot Topic or EB
What do you do most often when you are bored?:sit and stare at the ceiling for hours on end
Most annoying thing to say to me?:um.....hi?
Bedtime?:whenever I fall asleep
Favorite TV show?:King of the Hill, Boogiepop Phantom
Last person you went out to dinner with?::father and stepmother
Been out of country?:no
Believe in magick?:sure, anythings possible
Ford or Chevy?:ford!
What are you listening to right now?:the washing machine...if I had music I'd be evenesence,linkin park, duel jewel, jet, or marilyn mansion
Have you ever failed a grade?:nope
If you have, what grade did you fail?:---
Do you have a crush on someone?:yes my boy friend
Do you have a bf/gf?:yes
If so, what is their name?:starts with a K, tis all I say
How long have you been together?:since April first 2004, funny day to get together, eh?
What are you wearing right now?:Ninja turtles shirt and boxers
Would you have sex before marriage?:maybe depends on person and time
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?:nope
Are you a virgin?:yes
Do you smoke?:no
Do you drink?:nope, never will
Are you ghetto?:no
Are you a player?:HELL NO
What are your favorite colors?:blue, black, green, shades of purple
What is your favorite animal?:cat
Do you have any birthmarks?:yes one on my right leg close to my knee
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?:not really, I'm kinda gentle.
Who do you talk to most on the phone?:Lynnsey or Kevin
Have you ever been slapped?:yeah, oh yeah...lots
Do you get online a lot?:kinda
Are you shy or outgoing?:shy and kinda outgoing
Do you shower?:every day, except during summer, I get lazy
Do you hate school?:yes, too mant people
Do you have a social life?:no
How easily do you trust people?:not very
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?:maybe
Would you ever sky dive?:oh course! I wanna fel the wind in my face...
Do you like to dance?:no ><
Have you ever been out of state?:yeah, lotsa times
Do you like to travel?:yep
Have you ever been expelled from school?:nah
Have you ever been suspended from school?:nope
Do you want to get out of your hometown?:yes!
Are you spoiled?:no, I hate getting spoiled because I can do i myself
Are you a brat?:no, and I hope never to be
Have you ever been dumped?:once
Have you ever gotten high?:nope
Do you like snapple?:never had it....but I have this craving for it
Do you drink a lot of water?:yes
What toothpaste do you use?:the kind that gets my teeth clean? I dunno don't pay to much a teention
Do you have a cell phone?:no, wish i did
Do you have a curfew?:don' think so, if i do i've never been in formed
Who do you look up to?:i don't really know...kinda GTK because she can draw really good and I am thankful to be considered her equal
Are you a role model?:to my lil sis
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?:no, not to big on amusment parks
What name brand do you wear the most?:I don't really wear namebrands just whatever's comfy
What kind of jewelry do you wear?:four necklaces: 1/a dog ID that is a blue bone with name on it, 2/ a knut, 3/my boyfriends guitar pick
What do you want pierced?:another on my ear
Do you like takin pictures?:yes, i love it
Do you like gettin your picture taken?:no
Do you have a tan?:no, very very white. *sees sun* ACK!!! SUNLIGHT!!!*hiss*
Do you get annoyed easily?:so so
Have you ever started a rumor?:no
Do you have your own phone or phone line?:no
Do you have your own pool?:no
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?:I like to wear boxers around the house; on guys I like both
Do you have any siblings?:little sister
Have you ever been played?:no
Have you ever played anyone?:no
Do you get along with your parents?:yes, my mom that is, kinda dad
How do you vent your anger?:yelling, bottling it up inside, writting, vidio games
Have you ever ran away?:yes...kinda
Have you ever been fired from a job?:no
Do you even have a job?:I babysit, brings in money
Do you daydream a lot?:yes a lot. mostly freaky stuff
Do you have a lot of ex's?:no just two
Do you run your mouth?:no
What do you want a tattoo of?:I want a small water dragon from my hip to almost my breast. I also want a pair of about two inch angel wings on my back
What do you have a tattoo of?:nothing yet
What does your ex bf/gf look like?:kinda tall dark hair dark eyes
What does your most recent crush look like?:lovly brown hair thats long about to his shoulders. Has very wonderful light brown eyes
Whats her/his name?:starts with a 'K' I told you this already
Have you ever been bitched out?:no
Are you rude?:I can be If i'm PMSing
What was the last compliment you recieved?:my art is good
Do you like getting dirty?:like playing in dirt and working? I love to get dirty. or the sexual way..sure that too ^^
Are you flexiable?:yes VERY
What is your heritage?:um amrican? dad don't know what he is on my mom its german
What is your lucky number?:....um I dunno I guess 8 because you have too hit that ball in last when playing pool
What does your hair look like right now?:kinda long and..uh blonde
Could you ever be a vegetarian?:yes
Describe your looks?:um i dunno major gamegirl love guy things hates dresses. what do I look like? Me? I'm just an opptical illsion
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?:blue tips or red streaks
Would you ever date someone younger than you?:yes
Would you ever date someone older than you?:yes
When was the last time you were drunk?:never
How many rings until you answer the phone?:when ever i can get there
Have you ever been skinny dipping?:no
If yes, when was the last time?:I wanna go now!
When was the last time you went on a date?:last last saturday
Do you look more like your mother or father?:both mixed
Do you cry a lot?:no
Do you ever cry to get your way?:no, never
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?:'hello'
Are you the romantic type?:yes
Have you ever been chased by cops?:no, i hope not.
What do you like most about your body?:my eyes, i love the color of my eyes
What do you like least about your body?:my feet
When did you have your first crush?:I dunno
When was the last time you threw up?:a while back during school
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?:brown ish pretty no?
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?:don't really mean to just happens
What about cleavage?:yes.....for certain people...*blush*
Is your best friend a virgin?:no
Have you ever fucked someone up?:no
Have you ever been fucked up?:no
What theme does your room have?:mismatched and unordinary. None of theblankets, sheet or pillows match. hell al four of my walls are different colors. ^^
What size show do you wear?:my shoe? um 7 1/2 or just 7
What is your screen name on AIM?:I don't really have one
How are you feeling right now?:my back hurts, I'm hungrey and I want Kevin. so in other words misserable
When was the last time you were at a party?:oh i say two three year ago
Have you ever given a lapdance?:no
Have you ever recieved one?:no
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?:maybe... ><
What is one of your bad qualilties?:i trip alot
What is one of your good qualilties?:i can draw and i can write
Would you marry for money?:no
What do you drive?:I want a truck :_:
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?:look a kitty! =^-^=
So?:yes I like pengiuns.
Well?:Whale? Where?!
When was the last time you cried in school?:abot 3rd grade I got a black eye. fell and tripped int9o a radiator. oh yeah. it hurt
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?:i dunno maybe
What kind of music do you like?:rock and j-rock
Would you ever bungee jump?:no
What is your worst fear?:be alone, be forgotten, grow old
Would you ever join the army?:no
Do you like cows?:yes...but the smell they crap a whole friggin bunch! ><
If you were to die today, what would you do?:say goodbye, have sex, jump off of the highest place in the world
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?:goodbye, if i had a sentance to say I'd prolly say I love ya'll or recite something poetic that i wrote
Do you like to party?:no
Hearts or broken hearts?:broken hearts
Moons or stars?:moon
Coke or pepsi?:pepsi, not only pepsi but Diet Pepsi
Favorite scent?:cinnamon
Favorite band?:evenescence, linkin park, marilyn mansion or duel jewel
Would you ever dye your hair red?:no
How many languages can you speak?:one and a half english and some french
What time are you finishing this?:1:38 PM

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Who Are You?
Where did you come from?:i can from my own creation, never really here at all
Where are you going?:somewhere hopfully better than here
What is your favorite place to be that's not in the real world?:inside my head, or my dreams
If you were to draw yourself as someone else, what would you look like?:a blanksheet of paper
Would you rather be able to fly, or breathe underwater?:fly
Have you ever felt like walking away and never looking back?:yes
If so, where would you go?:i don't know
Do you dream with your eyes open?:yes
Clouds.
Would you rather sit on a star or a cloud?:star
What color should clouds really be?:black
When's the last time you gazed at clouds?:today
What do you think compressed clouds would taste like? Water? Other? Etc?:cold winter air mixed with the cold sting of ice
World.
If you thought the world was dying, what would you do?:sit there and seclude myself; one person can't do anything
What do you think of today's world? Will it last for the future?:no
Do things happening today ever scare you? Worry you? What?:yes, i dunno its just the people
Are people today are generally good or not? (I don't nec. mean bad.):no
Paper Flowers.
Do you ever imagine characters who could do everything you could never do?:yes
Do you daydream? Do you ever daydream to escape?:yes. Yes, for everand always
What do you escape?:the world
Do you trust your mind?:yes
If you had a deep secret, would you tell anyone?:no
How do you know who to trust?:a gut feeling
When was the last time you cried? (Opt.: Why?):a few weeks ago
When was the last time you felt pure joy?:when i was last wit my boyfriend; a few weeks ago
looked to your future and saw no insurmountable obstacles?:i dunno
felt you would implode from irrepressible rage? (Why?):yes
Love.
What is love?:happines and pain together
Do you believe you: will find "true love"?:yes
:will find someone who you can always trust to love you?:yes
When do you want to find them?:now
When do you think you will find them?:today
Paint a picture of love. What colors do you use?:black and pink, red
Life.:it sucks
What do you want to do in life? Not just a career, anything you want to do.:not let it be a total waste
Do you think you will live a good life?:if i try hard enough
Do you have a good life?:no
Are you living a good life? (There's a difference.):no
When were you spiritually born? Or not yet?:never, never gonna be
What must a person do/have to have a good life?:be themselves
What do you consider a well-spent day?:having fun and being with the one you love
What about a wasted day?:did nothing just sat
Which was today?:well-spent, but could use soe work
Emotion.
Do you smile often? Laugh often?:yes and no
If you could control your emotions, would you?:yes
Do you ever wish you were neutral, feeling neither happy nor sad?:yes
Is the love worth the pain?:yes
If you fell into a spiritual chasm, could you save yourself?:no
Do you have wings? Do you use them?:yes
What does it take to fly?:dreams
Are you happy with yourself?:no
If you lost everything you owned, could you ever be happy again?:no
Do you have any obsessions you couldn't live without?:yes; my cat and Kevin
Do you write poetry? If not, why not?:yes
Do you ever write about your feelings?:yes
What would you consider a wasted emotion? Is there such thing?:no
What color is the sky in your world RIGHT NOW?:faded blue
How are you feeling RIGHT NOW?:hurtback and depressed
Why do you think you feel this way? ("idk" doesn't cut it ;).:because i slept wrong and i need a hug
Have you ever felt you were inferior?:yes
Superior?:yes
If you truly believed God wanted you to live in another country, would you?:THERE IS NO GOD!
Do you believe in God?:NO! NEVER EVER EVER EVER!!!!!
Why do people go to church, do you think?:because they want fallse hope. Belive its gonna be okay when i die
Have you ever felt: you were climbing a stairway to nowhere?:yes
: so unsettled you felt there were cuts in your arm, symbolically?:kinda
How does this quiz make you feel?:different. i like the feeling
What else makes you feel this way?:my poems and stories
Do you like this quiz? Do you hate it?:i love it
Do you feel the same way about the creator?:sure
Word Associatons. Type what you think.
Purple:royal
Candy:sweet to sweet; so sweet its painful
Love is:pain and fun all wrapped up
Falling:would be fun, just falling, i want to fall and feel my bones crack apart
Darkness:inside of me, cold
Death:grim reaper
Cold hand:skelaton, my hand
Warmth:sun
Breath:ice cold, or hot in my ear telling me something
Never:never ever hear whats being said, tell your own tell, write your own book
Stars:high above us all, so supirior
Twilight:death. red skies. filled with dragon flies
As the sun goes down,:peaceful
I think:i am going to die
Other.
What do you think the survey title means?:going nowhere; just stopping and thinking about everything
Do you like Evanescence?:yes. very. My favorite band
What's your favorite song of theirs?:my immortal
Do you think their music is dark?:no but yes. its my style
Do you think it's truthful?:yes
Have you ever fallen? Spiritually, emotionally?:--
What would your patronus be, do you think?:a wrym
How do you think Harry Potter (books) mentally and emotionally affect ppl?:broaden your thoughts
How do they affect you in these ways?:nothings imposiable
Have you ever doubted yourself?:yes
Do you take good care of yourself?:no
Are you ever scared of yourself?:yes
Do you like the sound of raindrops?:yes
This is the end. Was this survey what you'd expect from the creator? Why?:the end...this is the end of my tale....

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Monday, July 26, 2004


   -.-

well I'm back from my trip to hell. I didn't have really any fun at all. My moms been bitchin' at me and I can't stand it. THe only fun I had was when I watched Blood: the last Vampire and part of perfect Blue and Edward Scissor hands. They had Dish and they had all the chanels I don't get. So that was pretty good. We also didn't get back untill saterday because Brian pulled a guilt trip on my mom. He said something like:

'Jamie (his ex-wife) would do that. She would leave early. I thought you said you'd never want to do anything Jamie ever did to me'

even though I was there when he said it I can't remember all of it.

...what else happened.....Oh yeah my mom got totally wasted. I hate it when shes drunk. It always scares me. i keep thinking she's going to beat me again. my mothers not a very happy drunk. More like a sadistic drunk. but she's always Sadistic. i really thinks she loves watching me suffer.

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I also left my Shonen Jump up there! I didn't even get it read it! it still had the plastic covering on it! NO!!! MY SHONEN JUMP!!!! ;_; I don't wanna spend another five dollars. Accutaly I didn't spend that much beacause I bought it at wallmart they always lower the prices. I bought for about 4.39....I'm never gonna get it back.

I didnt get anything bought from that trip so I stole an eight ball from the pool table downstairs...they won't miss it.

oh and I also felt like jumping again. I wanted to jump from the high altitude. Feel the wind in my face, the crushing of my bones. The feeling of freedom the feeling of death. Never to be seen again on this hell we call earth...


-kuronekosama

there was something else I just don't remember....

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