Tuesday, May 18, 2004

   -.- bleh

you missed a great momment in histery yesterday. I was happy and now I'm back into my inner dark self. I got some people I didn't know posting on my site yesterrday. Who the hell are they? no one knows. What the fuck are they? no one knows. How the hell did they get here? internet. Hmm. I feel kinda of specail....okay happy feeling gone now. ^^' That lasted for what four seconds. I think it was Sahkiryce-sama who signed my guestbook the other day and said (exact words, copy and paste): "Hey! I really love your site! I mean, the colors are just WONDERFUL and relaxing to the eyes ^_^ Because I'll just have to tell you, that white hurts my eyes for some reason =P I also wanted to say, thanks a whole bunch for signing my guestbook and leaving a meaningful comment. Because some people just copy and paste their messages which is really annoying! I say, if you REALLY want people to come visit your site, you HAVE to leave a nice meaningful comment in the guestbook and not advertise =P Right? But you didn't do that ^_^ I really appreciate that! Here, you deserve some Pocky hehe ^_^ *hands you some Pocky* Well take care! I hope to see you around! ^_^" I said to myself: people do suck and they shouldn't write "com sign my g/b plz. i'll add u as a friend. lat." god I want to slap them! I have such a large problum with beggers and INTERNET TALK! its so stupid you can just tell the person is lazy by the way they write, come on how hard is it to type 'you' instead of 'u' everyone takes the easy way out. I used to rp on the internet untill all I saw was 'u r so stupd, u type to much, u use to many wordz' Lazy ass bitches... okay I will shut up now before I start on one of my long ass lectures typing thingy. And classs is about to start, so i'll converse will ya'll later. (why I say ya'll is beyond be. My hillbilly heritage I do think) **** I am back in action! Not a POS (prisiner of school) anymore! ...well kinda because I'm still in the school. I have to wait for my bus that will be coming here in about thirty minutes. Right now I'm in the libaray. >< I spend a lot of time here, on the internet or reading EGM. I am SO glad school is ending in two days. not even two really more like one because they are both half days We get to leave early after taking our EOCs (end of course test). Then we have friday and half day monday. but screw that. I'm not coming they are just make up days. Who needs those when you already took the tests? who I typed alot...oh well. still got plenty more to spill. =-=-=- okay now that thats out of my system, I'll go back to what I was typing about earlier. No not the whole ' i hate the internet talk' but the guest book signage thingy. I do agree with you Sahkiryce, nobody should post an addvertisment for your guest book, thats just stupid. Its not a race to see who can get the most signatures. They should like compliment your art and your site and stuff. i don't really care if people sign my GB I just delete the ones that are stupid! thats always fun. I need to go back there and clense it again. Prolly getting full of stupid comments. Its not a billboard. >< yeah, no I feel like a total idiot. But i don't give a damn what you all think of me. >< thats just me for ya. SCHOOL'S ALMOST OUT! can't wait..well kinda I can because my mother will slaughter me, but hey my F is almost a D. heh heh almost -.-' it kinda sucks too because I have a lot of senoirs friends leaving and some who are staying beacuse they haven't passed yet. *sweatdrop* oh well but I am going to miss them all. All the big buttload of people. *sniff* its so sad. I hate senoirs. - I just now relized that all my friends that I have, have always talked to me first. Such a antisocial beast I am. I never really liked people, now that I think about it...I've always been a quiet distant kid. And those were the good times. ahh memories... ....nothing good came from those memories.Things that came to my head: 1] Dad 2] mom 3] death 4] alone 5] time inside my head Fester I'm such a festering wound. Fester. Fester. thats all I do. Please tell me somthing right out of the blue. I'm not good, not good at all All I do is bleed and cry someone just tell me why what am i to do. I'm on the ground in a sicking scream I'll crawl I'll crawl no one ever heard me sing My voice is just absent I'm a discarded shell I'm just a Festering soul fester, fester. thats all I do. hmm.. kind of random. Very. not even in a poetic mood. when I saw the word fester, my fingers just went loose and just typed. I don't care if any ones reading this. I kind of just need to get some shit out of my system. i'm not even talking about what I want to talk about. i'm not even gonna publish my mother's name apon this sanctuary. My best freing (purgatory as you might know her) wasn't at school today. So I've been an unopened box on christmas all day. I'm just writing things down as they come to mind nad I prolly havn't even posted what I origgnally wanted to post when I came here. I thank any one who accutaly read this whole thing through (yeah right who'd read it besides Bakuryu-chan and he never get's on here any more >< I miss his comments they always britend my dull day) you desevere a Pocky. yum strawberry kind... I still have plenty to say but I just save it for a rainy day. after all I am just a festering wound. What more would a festering do to the soul? Catch you all some other time. Just make sure you are running first. -Kuronekosama or falling. fallings always good. Like that one time I went high into the mountains and when I looked over the side of the lookout. My breath was caught in my throught and I was so amazed. But not the good amazed. The amazed that rots the inside of your stomach. I wanted to fall off, I wanted to see if it really hurt when you fell. So far away, and I was so close. i remember my eyes were out of focus and I wanted to jump and die so badly. i wanted to fall, or fly, I wanted to fall and never hit the ground. But at the same time I wanted to feel my bones shatter. My heart go fast as I neared the ground. i wanted to feel the wind and the smile that would spread acoss my face when I finnaly relized: 'death has clearly come to great me. Hold me in your arms sweet angel of death. I know there is no heaven nor hell. just hold me close and let me become one with your blackend soul, at least there I can find eternal happiness. The happiness I could not find on earth. The only happiness I could find would be if I was a guardian angel. Gaurdian of a loved one. Or within your darkend soul within i could fester with you, and feel your pain and you could feel mine too. We are, apparently, two sides of the same mirrior.'

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Monday, May 17, 2004

   ^^^^^^^^ happy, uh, many eyed monster >

OH MY GRAND JUMPING FRUIT LOOPS! CHEESE LOGS!!!!!!!!!!! okay...just had top do that >< so fucking hyper....I'm hungrey I wanna a rice ball and a cheese cake. Dammit bakuryu-chan you brought out my inner cheesecake. now you must pay the price... *whacks Bakuryu with a cheese log* you have been cheesed! Bwahha haa haa! I feelo like being evil! Oh, let me be evil to day I want to run

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Saturday, May 15, 2004

   ^^

Not much going on today. just so overly bored. I'm gonna change my music on my site and a few other things...its a little old. Same colors though unless I change my mind. i've been downloading all this music of the internet latley and burning a whole lotta CDs. Schools almost out we have six days left and our finals are next week on wensday and thursday. i'm not even gonna study out of school. School is being a real ass this month. The teachers are pushing us too hard giving us extra work. My grades suck. My C's have morphed into D's. Mother is going to skin me alive. I'm failing French, Pshcology, and Chorus. very sad. I'm only passing one class. If I make up the test that is in my back pack i'll pass Psychology, so i'll try to do that. In chorus I've never been to one performance so yeah. I suck. Bu I couldn't ever go to any of them, i've had so much stuff to do. I had to work or watch my little sister or we were out of town or I was sick. In french well lets just say the only thing I remember is Jai suis faim. It means 'I am hungrey' So yes. i suck and I'll never make it to colloge. So to all my fans...(three people ><) till we meet again, farwell.

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Thursday, May 13, 2004

   ^^ I am married to Takkun-sama! Yay!

Certificate of Marriage This is to certify that Kuronekosama and Ta-kun (Mamimi's Cat) Were united in Marriage on the 14th day of May 2004 MYFC

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

   ^^

Yay! My bestest best better best friend finaaly came on here! Her name is Purgatory and you need to make her feel welcome! Go sign her guestbook! AS a thanks for drawing an image for me GTK, i think I shall draw you something while I'm on my psycho/depressed-spurt. oh yes by the way i'm still sick! *cough* when will it go away? I would like to know what it feels like to breath again...I'd also like to accutaly taste something. And this is too my mother: NO MORE GODDAMN NIQUIL!!!! i sware that stuff is gonna kill me. I hate the taste. I hate the smell, it makes my stomach hurt, and It is a vile gross liquid. bleh. >< later.

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Sunday, May 9, 2004

   ^^ lyrics again....

Sameold same old my pysco lyrics that if read by my mother she'd lock me up and send me to the loony crate. (not an exgareation my mom thinks I'm the perfect child, no suicidal tendicies or anything she thinks I worship god or something, >< I don't have a religon nor do i want one, just another burden to carry. no more please, life is harsh enough) Well no stealy its my art and my feelings and thats horrible for someone to steal somethingfrom any one. This is my second favorite I've written first is Torn and Tattered I love it. with dpression comes could things I guess. Static Lyrics by: Chara/Kuronekosama Screaming and bleeding Ashes to ashes Chicken in the bone Children crying Look into my eyes Death can be a misconception Noose just a bit to loose Rotting to the hell Crying to be set free Wrapped in chains Blood dripping from the rusted nails Face being beaten I never saw Rotting in the flesh Sky turns to ash Ring around the rosy Pocket full of posies Ashes, ashes We all fall down 'Till death do we part Ashes to ashes Dust to dust Cling to your hopeless dreams Too many angels Too many demons All taking one form Nothing to gain Except pouring black rain Rusted nails Sorry I can not hear you now Cannot win Burning to broken ash Torn glass Bleeds for you You may now kiss the bride Won't you come out to play? I have a knife To pop a ball Glass will break Stars will fall Mary had a little lamb Fleece as red as blood And everywhere that Mary went The lamb was sure to go Crack the nut Break the shell Search inside of me In my dream I will scream Please find me You smile barbwire Shine through the rain Overdose on fear Tainted and torn Feast upon my life You never should have been born Wait until you kill tonight You are just as guilty Stained with my blood Broken breath Stand in pain Ring around the rosy Pain Oh the burning pain Pocket full of posies Clouds sing to me Crying The whole world crying Ashes, ashes I'm really on a noose Tight Ever so tight We all fall down Bleeding rusted nails all around Bound Bound by my purgatory Ring around the rosy Pocket full of posies Ashes, ashes We all fall down Excuse me ma'am May we have a cookie? (c)Kuronekosama/Chara/Kurokumo_yume Yeah kinda random at the end but heck, creepy voice. marilyn manson like. it'd be cool. yes, band come back to me! My Battle Fish wah...I want it to work! ;_; stupid band *kicks logo* dammit ><

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Thursday, April 29, 2004

   ^^

Well. Today is a day that nothings really going on. I'm feeling quite poetic today. Kinda depressed too. Not really sure why. just kinda dead... I might put somne fragments up. Don't reall pay attention. I'm at school and I have nothing to write on or write with. so maybe. Might be on the peak of a new song, yesh. Locked inside I've finnaly reached the bottem Can't find the key Totally black inside of me broken bones can't be seen fallen back you're way off track all alone all confused

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Thursday, April 22, 2004

   ^^

Bakuryu-chan you are so sweet! I love that picture its so alwsome! Although there is one thing I must know, i was looking at the picture a bit more, and I noticed that the bed was messed up. I wonder went on there. What were you thinking, eh? just kidding, I just have a dirty mind. But thankyou so much Bakuryu, I really love it! Your are super sweet, and if you really look like that you look damn sexy. I love your guitar it is very sexy yes. makes me want to hug it. *hugs guitar* sexy. aww look it has a boner. ha hah. Well I have another lyric. But I'll put it up later. Like tomarrow later. Thankyou so much Bakuryu-chan! If ya'll want to look at it its titled 'Calming Tune' under Bakuryu-chan's site

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Thursday, April 15, 2004

   ^^

Yay! we finnaly get our yearbooks tomarrow. I got manga....DNAngel its okay I still wanna see the anime though. well...i think thats all...maybe...yes my brain is dry, well it usaully is, just a little bit more now. Bakuryu-chan you must go wash the grass, its calling you! bleh...hungrey. wanna go home...eat RAMEN! *shuffles outside to catch bus. gets runned over by the bus and falls into drain* bleh. today has been a 'bleh' day. have fun on spring break, bakuryu-chan. Seeya peeps.

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Tuesday, April 13, 2004

   ^^

Okay whatever. I dunno if the site rejected my art or if its just being slow because they said 'wait up to 24-48 hours' they changed the time. that sucks. well anyway I thought I'd talk about the art I drew. >< it would fit under the caption thing. Sleeping Angel this is my art I did for Bakuryu-chan. Finnaly got it up I know took me forever. That guy that the angel has around her arms is you Bakuryu. I have never seen you before, but I thought you would have dark hair with ice blue eyes. blue because it means calm traqulity and even a little depression. This I do belive suits you, so thats you Anime style! And then there is the angel. I ended up drawing her looking like me instead of being some random girl. whatever. it just came out like that. se is your guardian angel. Made of glass wings of light. Not allowed to own a halo or solid wings. lower class and a guardian. That is a guardain angel. So for drawing her like me, I say that if I die soon, i will enter an application to be your guardian Angel.With wings of light I will fly. With skin of glass I will die.like my saying? came right off the head. >< bleh, well it did get posted. And I got a negative/good comment saying i copied of the yugioh card. all i did was do the pose, i have a hard time doing poses. Dream On Naruto. Not much to say about this just its Naruto off the ending credits. Cute little Naruto. Sky sucks. it totally sucks. next picture. Starr very interesting character. very. He's dead yet alive. refused from heaven rejected from hell. He has now where to go. No one to love him. no one to care for him. The reson he is dead is because he comited sucide. He hung himself from his ceiling fan, thinking he could escape the pain of his life only to find when you die the pain gets so much worse. Expesscailly if you never exsited under anyones eye. To be forgotten is ones worst fear. well i see some people are voting agaisnt me now because i said pokemon is better than yugioh to me the are both annoying but sence I have to put up with my young sister watching it i grew to love it again, so its just cute. people are asses can't they just pick truthfully? I guess not. I just wanted to draw a good picture for Bakuryu-chan but apprently ether they think its ugly or they'er bitches. I say both. (pardon my french for it may not be correctI'm not the best student ><) J'ai prier adeiu.

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