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Thursday, August 31, 2006


   XD

The ironic side of my Fanfic



It's a ironic side of the previous parts of my fanfic... enjoy and hope everyone isn't too shocked by my transition...XDThe conversation went on and on. This life I'm having was strange. It was like a dream where anyhting I wanted came true. Then I started to think why this seems like a dream. All I could remember was what happened in South Town. Then I heard Dabin's voice echoing throughout the scene then a white light took me to the outside world. When I was able to see things, I saw Dabin crying and I saw Jim and his kitten. I woke up and saw that I am at Jim's apartment. When I was blinking looking lost, Dabin smiled and hugged my tightly. I was sad that Soiree was a made up person after all. I wanted to be with him more. I laid looking all confused. Dabin smiled and cheered me up. I kinda forgot what happened to I asked Dabin and Jim about it.

"You slept for 2 straight days after you came back from the audition. And you missed your first orchestra rehersal," Dabin said.
"Did I got in! I got it!! YES!!! I got into the best orchestra around," I jumped around.
"You made the first chair too," Jim said. "I don't know how much I'm proud of you."
"Thank you!! So any mail?" I asked.
"Got a call from the conductor, he wants you to learn Mendelssohn Violin Concerto Movement 1," Dabin said. "Which I believe you
already know?"
"Oh yay! The lovely Mendelssohn, I love that movment," I said.
"Also Aqua, I got the new Maximum Impact that came out. Soiree looks so cool there, you gotta try it out," Jim said.
"Alrighty," I said. "Does his 2p form come out? I like it better."
"Of course! He has different color outfits too. Here lemme show you," Jim said turning his PS2 on.

Let me introduce myself properly now since that Aqua is a made up version of myself. I'm Aqua Choi known for being a music genius.
No, I don't know everything about music, just have an ability call 'perfect pitch.' Also you can see I'm a fanatic girl dreaming about
such thing. Soiree? He is from a game Jim plays all the time. He said he is going to teach me how to play as soon as the music festival
is over. I'm playing Mendelssohn violin concerto like you can see above. I love that concerto, it is challenging and exciting at the same time. I mentioned about dancer in my dream, but actually I don't know how to dance. I was never asked out to dance before. Oh yeah!
Jim? He is my older cousin who is adopted. He is American, has bright blue eyes and blonde hair. He wants to become a game designer someday. He is using me as a model even though I don't have perfect feature like girls in the game.

"Aqua! The conductor also wants you at the studio tonight," Jim said.
"Wah, I have to practice now!" I said grabbing my violin.
"Later Aqua you just woke up. I told you I'm going to show you something," Jim said pulling my pants.
"I don't think it's a good idea," Dabin said. "That fanatic would go crazy over that boy."
"Dabin, Aqua just need someone to love," Jim said pressing some buttons.
"Aqua you should change your type, besides Jim told me that..." Jim covered Dabin's mouth quickly.
"What about Soiree? I heard 's'." I asked.
"He likes other girl I the game," Dabin said putting Jim's hand away.
"So? I still have my violin and you and Jim. My life doesn't change," I said. "Now where did my score go?"
"I hid it, find it sis," Dabin said teasing me.
"It's right here, hmmm what is this?" I asked.
"Oh! Jim got it for you since you are such a fanatic," Dabin said.
"OMG! It's a poster of his 2p form. Thank you Jim!!!!" I said hugging him tightly.
"I'll put it up for you while you are practicing," Jim said. "It's good to have you back."

It was true that I was upset a bit about what Dabin told me, but com'on he is just a game character right? IT was also true that I didn't want to see Jim playing. Quietly, I went to the kitchen where I normally practice. Because the TV sound was loud, I could hear Soiree's voice over my violin sound. I ignored it and kept on playing, but kept on making mistakes I've never made before. I squad down and cried out loud like a freak all of a sudden. I could not believe the mistakes I've fixed came back to hunt me. Jim paused the game and came to comfort me. Then he laughed at me looking at my music stand.

hope you guys liked it^_^
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006


   First day of school

Interview with Ishi


Hey all!!! It's me Soiree and I'm here interviewing Ishi because today was her first day @ college woohoo I've never been to school or college lucky Ishi getting educated...LOL anyhow, I'll start the interview when Ishi stops listening to her ipod... *waits**waits*

Soiree - Ishi.. interview time..
Ishi - Okay lemme turn off my ipod *turns off*
Soiree - So Ishi how was your first class...^^
Ishi - My first class which was harmonic and sight singing was an awesome class. I love the teacher and I made a new friend in there. Her name is Chelsea and she sat behind me. After class we walked together to the student store.
Soiree - Awesome! Ishi you are so sweet, you'll make more friends as you go on^_^
Ishi - Are you getting controlled by Alex(destinyssweetman) or are you just saying that???
Soiree - Alex? No, he isn't controlling me^^
Ishi - okay..
Soiree - 311(Inuyasha311), told me that you love compliments^^
Ishi - indeed I do actually^_^
Soiree - so nothing else you want to share as being college student?
Ishi - oh yeah! Lots of people and parking lot is freaking big and stuff. I spent like 10 minute just finding my car in the parking lot...TOT But I was on the phone with my highschool buddy so I wasn't alone^^
Soiree - you should have called me instead..T_T
Ishi - you are busy with Alba(Soiree's twin brother).
Soiree - cause bro always drags me around. Meh, I need a cellphone maybe I should talk to bro about it^^
Ishi - sure, you can^^
Soiree - Also you are making a new myo layout soon right???
Ishi - yes! It'll be a div layout and it'll feature both you and Alba^^
Soiree - Yay!!!! I can't wait to see it!!!
Ishi - sure you can wait, you know how slow I will be with homeworks
Soiree - right, but it's just a heads up announcement right???
Ishi - yes it is heads up!!!!
Soiree - you made a new wallpaper with my brother^^ He is soo cool compare to me..T^T
Ishi - awww! Bad Soysause! How dare you do my thing!!!
Soiree - huh?
Ishi - I get to do that low self-esteem thing!!!
Soiree - but he does look cooler^^ and I look cuter^O^
Ishi - *goes to the trashcan* You look cool too, you might look cute to other girls, but not me
Soiree - awww.. but you pat me sometimes
Ishi - cause your hair is fluffy I do that to Ichi too...
Soiree - Oh I see....^O^

New wallie!


If you are curious of how Soiree's older twin brother looks like check out my wallpaper section about 10 minute after the myotaku resets... I submitted about 20 minutes ago.. so it should be up after about 10 or 15 minutes or so.. also I would appreciate comments... I've heard some bad comments somewhere else, but hopefully not in here...T.T Anyhow everyone have a great Tuesday!!!!
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Sunday, August 27, 2006


   Woohoo

Another part of my fanfiction



Enjoy.. it's one of the recent entries I really like...^^ Once again the "I" here is my fav. original character name Aqua.

"What's so funny?" I asked.
"Nothing, just seeing you makes me happy," Soiree said patting me.
"But why?" I asked. "Why me?"
"I don't know. I had a dream about meeting you. I was washed off shore and saw a forest that attracted me. I started walking and then saw a tiny castle floating on a pond. I stood in front of the pond and stare at one spot where a little girl was standing. That girl was you. Her face totally matched your picture that was in Dabin's room. I wanted to meet you that badly cause you seem very mystical," Soiree told me a long story.
"Tiny myself living in the castle floating on water huh? Sounds like a fairy tale. I mean a guy like you dream such dreams? I'll tell you what you saw. That was about thousand years ago when I was a fairy. I was a servent of the fairy queen, but I didn't like the job. I went to the top of the castle and sighed. Then angels passing by found something interesting within me and took me to heaen. I think you saw a part of the scene. Am I right?" I asked.
"Well maybe. You were wearing like a princess in my dream. I was wearing some fancy Prince like clothes too. I can't remember what happened after you spotted me. It was weird. I told Dabin and she gave me her little device. She told me it'll lead me to find that mysterious girl from my dream. Then I found you," Soiree said smiling.
"I see," I said. "Prince Soiree... haha, that does sound like a fairy tale. Have you thought about what takes to be a prince?"
"Nope, but it's one of those things I don't want to try. I like the way I live," Soiree said lying down on the floor.
"Well looks like you never had real parents," I said looking at the picture frames.
"Why so?" Soiree asked.
"Because after this picture, your parents aren't present," I said.
"True," Soiree said getting up. "They died from an accident when we were 3 years old."
"Sorry," I said. "I didn't mean to ask such thing. Forgive me."
"What are you sorry for? At least I'm old enough to be independent. How about you? I bet your parents are way beyond nice," Soiree said looking at me.
"Angels don't have parents. I was born from water lilies around the pond in the forest of fairies," I said.
"Eh, so you guys just pop out of the flower all grown-up?" Soiree was confused.
"Precisely," I said.
"So uhh, never had a childhood?" Soiree asked.
"Nope," I said.
"You gotta be kidding me. What kind of life is that?" Soiree asked with sort of anger.
"Don't know," I said smiling. "I'm alright."
"Wait till your thing is over, I'm going to show you what real life is about," Soiree said smiling at me.
"Real life?" I was confused.
"Yeah, it's not only about sacrificing, but also have something call 'fun,'" Soiree said opening the windows.
"Fun?" I said. "I do know what it is and I've done it before."
"Name those things," Soiree said.
"Let's see... I dance, play my ocarina, and sing. Those are the things I do," I answered.
"Sing? Soiree was surprised. "You sing too?"
"a little," I said.

Anyhow I don't have the rest since that's the latest entry in my notebook... haha anyhow hope you all enjoy!!!!
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Friday, August 25, 2006


   I'm back

Wootie I'm back to States


Hey guys! I'm back to my home. Yes, it's sad that I'm alway from Korea again with my WHOLE family there. I have to survive on my own here in the states and go to college and cook and all that. Well first of all the plane ride kinda sucked, I mean the plane never stopped shaking. It made me really sick with all the turbulence. Well at least I'm safely here. I also got my own digital camera at the duty free shop. I totally love it and yes! I can take all the pictures I want woohoo!!! Also my sister bought me a new PSP game as a farewell gift. It's my old classic favorite game call "Puyo Puyo" but since the company changed they renamed it "Puyo Pop" anyhow it's a great game wootie!

Good news and Bad news


Which one do you guys want first??? Well I'll tell you the bad news first. I found a roommate, my mom's friend's younger sister, but she decided not to live with me just today. It was a shock for me cause I seriously don't like living alone you know, but since she made that decision I have to live alone by myself, which will be a quiet experience for me to become the "Human" haha.. anyhow that's the bad news.

The good news is that I got approved for Soiree's fanlisting on animefanlisting.net or org forgot...LOL anyhow, so yeah! I began building the site and it's coming out quiet nice and I totally love it.. well you guys won't like it since it's not that great, but I like it^^ The hint is.. it's similiar with my current myotaku layout heh... Anyhow, now that proves that I'm his #1 fan hahaha... *laughs on and on*

Anyhow everyone have a great Friday...
I'm busy preparing to attend college..O.o
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006


   Last day!!!

Last Day


Hey guys! Ishi is kinda drunk so I'm posting for her again^^ Who am I? It's me the dude on the layout haha... yes, She calls me Soysause...T_T Anyhow Ishi just came from her family dinner party since she is going to US for college and her family will be in Korea. It was like her farewell party. Because its her farewell party, her daddy offered her to drink half cup of beer. Yes, Ishi drank all that and she is kinda dizzy now. (Ishi: No I'm not dizzy, he just wanted to post for me^^ no worries guys^^) The family took her to her favorite restaurant and she totally loved it.

She is leaving for America with her mom today (23rd) and her mom will be staying with her for 2 weeks. Ishi will be happy, but not for long. She is worried about leaving alone with her roommate who is about 20 years older than her. Ishi's roommate is her mom's friend's younger sister. I've heard she is also a doctor so Ishi will be okay^^ Also I'll be with her so it's okay...^^ (Ishi: Yes, you'll be sleeping in my closit. Soiree: *TOT*)

Great News


I applied for Soiree's fanlisting in animefanlisting.net and thefanlisting.org. I got approved at animefanlisting so yeah that's the good news. I've started working on the fanlist/fansite so it'll be awesome!!!! Well I know you guys aren't interested in him, but please congrats me cause I was really nervous about getting approved and stuff^^ Anyhow well that's the good news... (Soiree: I thought I'm posting...T.T. Ishi: Now I take over the computer)

Anyhow hope you guys have wonderful Wednesday...^^
I won't be commenting cause I'll be on airplane^^
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Monday, August 21, 2006


   New Music

New Music


New music!! Yeah I know.. another happy music to you know...^^;; This music is from Korean movie call "Dong-Gam-Ne-Gi Gwa-Eh-Ga-Gi" That means "Same age, Let's tutor" Its about this guy who is in highschool even though he should be in college and its about his new tutor who ends up having same age as him. And well they fall in love and live happily ever after thing. It's a cute movie...XD I saw that on TV after I came back from the theater...^^

What do you guys Think?


Okay this quote is from Wikipedia info page of KOF maximum impact 2 and I don't seem to agree, but just felt like sharing...

"Soiree is reputed to be one of the worst character designs yet from Falcoon"

Well for those of you who still don't know who Soiree I'm talking about is.. he is the guy on my layout...^^ And I can't believe it!!! I think he is one of the BEST looking character ever in the game series. I mean I think it depends on people, but look at me... I'm totally obsessed with him and planning on creating his fansite even...XD I wish I could do something to correct the creators.. if they haven't created Soiree I would still be Ichi freak and fighting other fangirls on Bleach forums and stuff... My internet life finally found peace after me finding about Soiree...XD Anyhow just felt like sharing again because I totally disagree with what they are saying.. man! I wish I could just email them this and say that they are wrong...^_^;;

Anyhow everyone hope everyone is doing well...^^
see you...
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Sunday, August 20, 2006


   -_-;;

Finally Over


Hey guys...
I'm feeling much better...
finally the banned smile days are over and I'm allow to smile and laugh and be whatever I want. I had to do it for a week I mean have you guys ever spent a week without smiling and laughing whenever you are happy or watching comedy program? Well I have and it was a pain. I had to hold my laughter and all that stuff. I couldn't walk around with my face up it was a pain. But since the week has been passed I'm allow to live the normal life again...

Monster: The Host


It was like the greatest Korean movie ever!!! It's the most popular movie in Korea. Pirates of the Carribean is like 5th popular movie whereas this movie Monster: The Host is the #1 popular movie and today I went to see it since it's like the number 1. You have to order the ticket like 1 week before you watch it. Its that crazy here to get tickets you know. So yeah today was the day to watch it and it was TRUE! It's 10 times I mean million times better than Pirates of the Carribean. This movie should be exported through out the world I mean it has a great moral that everyone should learn at the end. It was so sad at the end, I cried bucket of tears and my eyes were puffed in red when I came out.

Soiree - Yes, Ishi you cried out loud so much that everyone around you think you were koo-koo
Ishi - you don't understand! It was sad!!!
Soiree - Awww Ishi, you could just you know cry on my shoulders
Ishi - you were at the bathroom..
Soiree - oh yeah.. hehe... I forgot^^;;
Ishi - how could you go to the bathroom at the climax of the movie!!!
Soiree - it was urgent...T.T
Ishi - I wanted to go too, but I hold it..
Soiree - oh well, at least you enjoyed it
Ishi - yes! The best movie ever!!!
Soiree - Well I'm glad *huggles Ishi*

Anyhow, lemme know if you guys want info on this movie. I hope this movie gets released in DVD in English so you all can watch it...T.T Lemme know via PM or comment if you want more info on this movie. I'll translate the summary and try to post a trailer well in Korean, but at least you guys can see the visual..

Anyhow let's celebrate my gloomy punishment days being over... woohoo!!!
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Friday, August 18, 2006


   ...

Blah


Well since I don't feel any better I'll post another part of my fanfiction that I'm writing on my notebook. Enjoy!!!!

Part of "Miracle Happens"



The place call 'Gym' was really big. On our way everyone was looking at my direction. As Soiree passed by, most of the girls were smiling and waving at him. Soiree was like a movie star to those girls. I was scare of the girls because some girls tend to grow jealous. Soiree and I arrived at gym finally after about 3 blocks of walking. I saw couple of guys greeting Soiree as he came inside. Soiree was popular wherever je went. I think it's because of the tattoos that he has. The boys who seem to be Soiree's friends, surrounded me.

"Hey Soiree, who is this doll like girl?" the guy wearing black asked.
"Yeah, it is hard to find a cutie like her." Another guy wearing jeans said.
"She's Aqua, m new girlfriend." Soiree said.

Girl...Girlfriend? I didn't see that coming. I wanted to hide myself right now because of him. All the people inside the gym looked at me. I mean, since when I was his girlfriend anyways? I was never asked out on a date before. Everyone started to observe me like I'm an experiment in the science lab. I was scared so I hide behind Soiree.

"Stop it guys, she is new to this town, right Aqua?" Soiree said.
"Aqua?" The boys said. "Dabin's twin sister?!"
"Yeah," Soiree said. "Why?"
"She is just a little girl to be your girlfriend, Soiree." The guy in the black said.
"Little!" I yelled. "I'm not litle, I'm 17 years old."
"So if she is your girlfriend, have you guys kissed before?" The guys laughed.
"We just met 2 days ago." Soiree said.
"Oh I see." The guy wearing jean said smiling.
"You always go for the cute ones." another guy came out.
"Oh! Howard, what are you doing here?" Soiree asked.
"My gf asked me to deliver this to miss Aqua." Howard said pulling out a necklace charm.
"A broom?" I asked.
"Dabin told me that you can ride on brooms. She told me to bring 'it' to her." Howard said.
"Okay! Thanks. I'll be back Soiree." I said going outside. "Release!!!"

When I shouted out, the charm turned into a regular broom. I rode on it and tapped my feet together twice. Everyone inside the gym looked at me floating in the ari. Soiree came out with his mouth open wide. I smiled at everyone as I was going higher.

Hope you guys enjoyed it...^^
It'll be up on my website soon...
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006


   I'm kinda okay now

I'm kinda okay now



Ishi is taking a nap so I'm posting again for Ishi. Who am I??? Well she calls me Soysause but my name is Soiree. I don't know why she calls me Soysause... garrr.. Anyhow, her family members including Ishi is still down because of the recent family member's death and they still haven't did funeral due to some family issues they are having. Ishi is super sensitive so whenever she hears adults talking about him, she gets up from the table and goes to the dark corner. No worries, I try everything to cheer her up you know... She'll feel better later on...

She got a new layout up on her main site and it features me on the layout... wow she must be a HUGE fan of me because this site features me, her myspace features me now her main website features me... wow I must be pretty darn popular to get Ishi's attention or am I just her type..LOL anyhow... uhh what else.. uhh.. uhh.. oh yeah! I hope everyone prays for Ishi to feel better because I don't like her being that way... She even tries to kill herself because she is soo guilty of her doing and *shmack*

Ishi - You over exaggerated freak! I'm not cutting myself or taking a nap or gets up from the talbe.. What an earth are you talking about? I'm okay!!!! Well still down, but not that much!!!!
Soiree - But yesterday you were bleeding
Ishi - I bumped into the wall because of you pushing ack! Look at this giant bruise on my head! Thanks to you!!!
Soiree - *O.O* are you going to kill me Ishi?
Ishi - How could I kill you.. you are already dead remember?
Soiree - That's just in the game.. I'm alive here^^
Ishi - *sigh* Why am I with a childish freak like you...
Soiree - Why am I with such music nerd that knows everything about music and plays Gazillion instruments and always say that I'm wrong..
Ishi - cause you think C major scale is G major scale...^^;;
Soiree - They sound the same
Ishi - *sigh* Anyhow, now the readers know that I'm okay they won't post comments^^
Soiree - Oh yeah? I'll make them comment where are they?
Ishi - *sigh* Just go back to your room...^^

have a great Wednesday...
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Monday, August 14, 2006


   *sigh*

Unexpected Surprise



I know I was feeling down for awhile and then this happened. One of my far away relative died. He is my dad's older cousin and nephew of my grandmother. It happened yesterday at night after party with my best friend... He passed away. I felt bad cause I partied when he was suffering in the hospital. I felt guilty that I laughed while others were crying. I felt guilty once again for not crying when I'm suppose to cry. I felt really guilty for doing the wrong things at the wrong time. I was down, now I hit the ground once again thinking I'm a useless person.

I started myspace again woohoo, so I made a new layout and test on it. I even posted on the bulletin that I decided to come back on myspace. With eager and excitement I went in there, but no one visited and no one commented and no one even bothered to say hi. I was upset and wondered why I spent so many hours on the layout the day before yesterday. I felt stupid and useless once again thinking that the world is against me and it is after me to eliminate me for good.

I had a dream that I was dead, buried under the ground. I was hit by a drunken driver. I was floating in the air watching my family member. They didn't know I was dead, they were Kareoking like crazy. My friends got phone calls and answered "Who is dead? I don't even know her." My sister, she was kissing and watching movie with her boyfriend when she got cellphone call that I died. I was upset and felt useless once again thinking this dream will come true.

I know you guys keep on saying feel better or watever, but I don't think it'll help me anymore. If you want to leave me alone, that's fine. I know everyone hates useless people or depressed freak like me. *sigh* I won't be okay for awhile once again... See you guys later, I hope your days are better than mine...
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