Tuesday, July 31, 2007

tired of crying...but between no1 on here loving me and my mom.....and her boyfriend eddie....i just cant stop crying....no matter how much good there is in my life my day always ends with me crying....i just wanna scream and make it all go away.....i wanna throw something....and i wanna go back to the beggingin of my 6th grade year where everything made sense and if it didnt my best friend was there to make sense of it
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

no one comes to my sites so i should just delete them all....sure ppl talk to me but they dont come to my sites.....i dont go to pppls but i cant help it casue my comp is the slowest suckiest.....and now i dont even have a comp anymore
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Saturday, June 23, 2007

A Boat Story
They say the two happiest days in life are the day you buy a boat and the day you sell it! Well, here's a good BOAT story!! Joe and John were indentical twins. Joe owned an old dilapidated boat and kept it pretty much to himself. One day he rented out his boat to a group of out-of-staters who sank it.Joe spent all day trying to salvage as much stuff as he could and was out of touch all that day and most of the evening. Unbeknownst to him, his brother John's wife died suddenly. When he got back on shore he went into town to pick up a few things at the grocry. A kind old neighbor women mistook him for John and said:"I'm so sorry for your loss. You must feel terrible." Joe, thinking she was talking about his boat said:"Hell no! Fact is I'm sort of glad to be rid of her. She was a rotton old thing from the beginning. Her bottom was all shriveld up and she smelled like old dead fish. She was always holding water. She had a big crack in the back and a pretty big hole in the front too. Every time I used her, her hole got bigger and she leaked like crazy. I guess what finally finised her off was when I rented her to those four guys looking for a good time. I warned them that she wasn't very good and smelled bad. But they wanted her anyway. The damn fools tried to get in her all at one time and she split right up the middle!" The old woman fainted.Copy and paste this on your site to hopefully make some people laugh!!!

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Friday, June 15, 2007

AHHH I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!! i always wanna cry or throw something to get my anger out or scream or do something....somethimes i even wanna cut myelf it hurts so bad...and right now most of it is comeing from my mom.....i hate her.....i hate my life and im so confused which makes me cry even more.....i hate my mom and want her to die.....but i dont kno watd id do without her.....she had a boyfriend and hes ok but first off hes an idiot and i hate him only because helives with us and my life is completely out of wack b/c of him......i cant blast my music while my mom is at work b/c hes always sleeping.....he stay in my moms room all day and when my mom gets home she goes strait to her room.....the other day i made dinner for my mom....and him though mostly my mom....she kne i was making it too.....her bf was working outside that day....i had also cleaned all day the house was all clean...well my mom came home and was talking to him and put her purse down about to go over to him...and b/f she started talking to him i had told her dinner was done.....she didnt say anything...anyway when she went to go over to him i slammed the screen door and went in and layed on the living room floor.....she came in and asked "wat" i said nothing and she didnt buy it of course.....i kept saying nothing and she said no come on i came to u first.....and after she said that i wanted to cry and in my head was saying u only came to me first b/c i slammed the door other wise u wouldve completely forgotten about me once again......then id eat dinner by myslef again....oh and then later...and my mom still kne about dinner.....we went in town(cause we live in the country) and at about 8 go mcyd's(my mom gets home at 6:30) so eddie(my moms boyfriend) wins again and i did all i could not to cry while we were in the car on the way to town and my mom....she said the living room looks good...but i had wanted to show her all of it i was gonna show her my room cause shes always mad when i dont keep it clean and i had cleaned it and she didnt even notice till later when we got home.....god i hate my life i just......AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...i dont kno wat i want......i just want the pain to all go away.....but it wont.....ever
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

im to scared to do it...can someone please come to my house....blindfold me.....and shoot me...right in the head....please....please....yea i wish it was that easy
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

lets sing a song...how about the song called no1 cares for me...or the song my life is shit.......or lets just not sing im not in a singy mood
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Sunday, May 20, 2007

   YAY!!!
I MISSEDED U GUYS DID U MISS ME!?!?!:)
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

   i wont get to see u guys..........
well the ones who care anyway.....its 5 in the morning and im getting ready for this class trip thingy to dc(washington dc of ocurse) yea we had to pay for but.....im really nervous man...well anyway the reason im telling u is b/c i wont get to see u guys till late saturday or early sunday.....the ppl who care about me i wont get to see anyway...well im real excited and have to get ready so bye...i love u all who have been my friends:)
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Thursday, May 3, 2007

i told u
ok im not gonna use a pillow like i said but.................





*BANG!!!!!!!!!!* IM DEAD.... NOT THAT ANYONE CARES




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Saturday, April 28, 2007

ok i just wanna do this
actually i am gonna do this
i am going to go in my room
i cant turn emo cause i dont like pain so cutting myself is out of the question
im gonna go into my room
and cry
then when im done crying
im gonna lay face down in my pillow
and cry some more
until from crying and being smothered all at once
i die

yes my life sux this bad right now
so far by one guy in less than two months
ive been called three names
twitchy-fatso-whale
its one thing when ppl who kno me
call me names
and r joking
or even not joking
but its another when ppl who dont kno me
call me names
or hate me for no reason
yes ppl who kno nothing about me
hate my guts
they kno nothing
and hate me
so tonite
im gonna go in my room
and cry
and cry
and then die
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