Monday, October 22, 2007

   *dizzy with lack of sleep* ahhhh....

current time: 6:25 PM current mood: TIRED current song: i'm with the band by little big town [no quote today] --**-- yeah, i changed my theme again. XD i found this wallie and i really liked it, so i changed it. and the song, too. carrie rocks! "sometimes, that mountain you've been climbin' is just a grain of sand...sometimes, what you've been searchin' for forever is in your hands...and when you learn that love is all that matters after all, it makes everything else...seem so small." as you can see, i'm also way too tired to even capitalize what i'm supposed to be capitalizing. this computer is REALLY pissing me off. it's being REALLY REALLY slow. it took me forvever just to get to this page! >_< (so i won't be getting to sites today. even if my computer was going at its usual speed, i probably would'nt get to sites out of exhaustion anyway.) well, my day was kinda crappy, seeing that i just found out someone i know (i'm not calling sakura my friend anymore because she's hasn't really been my friend at all lately) is a total lesbian. O.e alright, before you get all offended, i have NOTHING against any kind of bisexual people. that has nothing to do with it, in this case. it just adds to what she's done...alright, the girl she was making out with at homecoming (which was a very enjoyable experience by the way, i had a lot of fun) had a boyfriend, and SAKURA has a boyfriend too! when she told me all of this, i was like "WTF?!" not because she was making out with another girl, but because she's friggin CHEATING on her own boyfriend without a care in the world. and her excuse is "well, he's a forbidden boyfriend, so it doesn't matter!" WHAT KIND OF AN EXCUSE IS THAT?! just because your parents don't know you have a boyfriend doesn't give you the right to treat the person you're dating like that. (at least, in my opinion.) so, i've had ENOUGH. first, she betrays my trust by not caring at all about my other friends. second, she totally embarasses me whenever i'm around her (and not in a good way. the little reputation i had in study hall has now gone up in flames because of her) and third, it's clearly evident that she couldn't give a DAMN about me. and now THIS?! i'm taking care of this, and i'm taking care of it NOW (as in tomorrow, since i don't see her till then.) i've deleted her off my devART, blocked her on there, deleted all the emails she ever sent to me, deleted her email address off of my contacts on my email program (i have microsoft outlook) and deleted her phone number off of my cell phone. not to mention, iv'e gotten rid of every note she's ever passed to me in study hall (i usually keep stuff my friends write/draw for me) AND i've deleted all of the phone call records she's made to my phone EVER. (in other words, i went back through my 'missed' and 'incoming' calls and deleted her number every time i saw it.) so, just by looking at these things, there's no sign whatsoever that i ever knew her. she will no longer be talking to me by tomorrow (and fortunately for you, folks, you're not going to be hearing about her ever again after tomorrow.). i'm usually not the type to end "frienships" (if you could call my association with sakura a "friendship") so meanly and abruptly like this, but she's gone too far this time. i am SICK and TIRED of her bugging the crap out of my friends just because of me. it's not gonna happen anymore. she's crossed the line, and she will NOT be stepping over it again anytime soon, let me tell you that right now. wow, guys. thanks for listening to this ridiculously long rant about my hatred of sakura. i know it was probably really boring. but you have no idea how much you guys mean to me! (i'm serious about this.) all of you, ALL OF YOU, are amazing and great friends, and i love you all TO DEATH. never forget that, okay? i feel so lucky to have all of you still here by my side even after i haven't talked to any of you for so long. i'm truly really grateful. THANK YOU. *uber-mega-super-glomps each and every one of you* thanks again guys, i love you, and i hope you all have had a great monday. if i'm not back soon, then have a great week for me, okay? XD see ya around. *MORE HUGS* sayonara until next time! avi of the day: [there isn't one XP]

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