Friday, February 17, 2006

hahaha!
so, went to the movies...the laser tag site was closed so they went to the mall, so i'm glad i didn't go with them.hahaha. sounds mean. But the movie was okay...but Rachael, Emily, Shelly and myself were the only ones in the theatre!!!!!KICK ASS!!!! But i was funny, cause Rachael is kinda a wuss when it comes to horror or suspense movies.lol. she was clutching to my arm to her the whole time, and i thought to myself "This alone makes it worth it." hahaha. everytime something mighta happened, i felt her grip tighten on my arm, and i could feel her heart beating through her chest.lol.she jumped so much. But it made me feel good inside to know that she was holding onto me.hahaha. but i went to the mall for half an hour or so....had to pick up my bro....hmm.....there was sumthin i wanted to say about anime......i don't remember.....T.T

Quote: "It's hard to bitch with a mouth full of lobster."--Alec
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Thursday, February 16, 2006

   ahhh!!!
NAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Today's a half day, and we were gonna go paintballing, but that got called off (even tho i really wanted to go) so my friends and i wanted to go see a movie. I had already planned with them, but then my other ring of friends were like, "So what are we doing Tasha?" and in my head i was like, i don't know what the hell y'll are doing....but i replied," I dunno. i might go see a movie, but i gotta see how that goes." They wanted to go laser tagging, and sure they're my friends, but they always leech to me. Then to make it all worse, Sydney (Friend whom i havent spent time with in a long time) asks me if i want to go laser tagging with them, and then everyone else is like yea!!!! and i'm gong frantic because i know they all depend on me to be there, because they only do things if i'm there, and i wanna go with them sure, but i want to go to the movies, but everyone depends on me, and i'm gonna dissapoint someone somehow.......jeeze.....i don't really give a shit what ppl think about me, but i still don't like to make ppl sad.....i like to make them smile and laugh. So i guess i'll go see the movie then join them in a game or two.....were gonna go see When a Stranger Calls....and that isn't that long....so hopefully i'll be okay. argh! what to do???? Oh!! And have any of y'all watched Love Hina??? They change it so much from the manga!!!! Shinobu sounds cooler in english than japanese, but Kitsune and Su sound better in Japanese....

Quote: "If i saw further than men, it was becasue i stood on the shoulders of giants." (or something like that. -_-;)--Issac Newton.
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Happy Valentines day everyone!!!!!!!
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Sunday, February 12, 2006

   thanks
wow, so i called in sick on friday so i could go to this gay youth group thingy with my gay friend. There were a lot of gay men, lesbian women, a few bi's and a few straight ppl.hahaha, it was very interesting.....but i guess i like bi ppl. real lesbians....kinda...are scary. i mean, they were all nice ppl, but a lot of the females were coupled up already, and sadly, most of them were fat and ugly. (sry if i offended someone!!) looks aren't all that matter....but sadly they matter. There was one girl who i kinda was like "Ooohh! maybe..." but she had a girlfriend. she was boyish lookin, but she was really nice and talkitive.god, it's 12:42 and i work tomorrow morning. i'm so tired *yawns* but i wanted to talk a little, and say thank you to everyone who reads these and comments. yea, my supporters,. hahaha, that sounds funny to my tired mind.....*giggles* yea, and thank you people who....care about me? that sounds weird. i appreciate it all. even if i don't say anything. oh and how do y'all like the new background???

Quote: "Is the truth only what we can see?"--Ramza from Final Fantasy Tactics.
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Friday, February 10, 2006

convo
hmm...i work today, but it think i'm gonna call in sick, cause my friend wants me to go to a youth group with him. It's for gays(i think) but straight ppl can come too. He thought it would be good for me to find somebody....haha, partially to help me get over Rachael. All the conversations i have with her, she accepts the fact that i love her (cause i tell her all the time) but she has a boyfriend and doesn't want it. She's just not into that kind of stuff. OH, and it's also because i'm a girl. So i know i have no chance, but i'm gonna try anyways, just because it's better to try a thousand times and fail than to give in. Haha, our last convo went like this:
Me-sry, but after watching that anime(kannazuki no miko) it once again made the question rign in my mind. Besides mike, is it because i'm a girl?

R-yeah

ME-...that's kind of sad.....

R-what?

Me-I don't want to antagonize you, but from my perspective....it seems sad that you would let me being a girl stop you from seeing how much i love you...but...argh.....

R-I don't know...i can see you like me. I know that, it's just...i dunno yea you're a girl and i don't really like...um...what's the word...i dunno, it's just not something i want i guess.

Me-......i can believe that...then...i guess i better find a way to live with myself.....jeeze this is depressing.....haha.....

R-dude your depressing me, don't be sad. I mean i know its not fair and it sucks, but there are other people.

Me- I guess, but that doesn't matter. Its just...crushes me to know you could never love me, and now...i'm stupid...i can't even cry for myself. you don't know how badly i want to. Sry for making u sad.

R-you could become a trannie...but that would prob freak the shit out of me. ha ha you could cry if you wanted to. let down your guard. watch the anime and it'll help you start and then you can finish it.

Me-what? (points to word trannie) ...no...i can't cry....it isn't me...i'll just smile....my muscles are shaking on me...lol.

R-transetite or however it's spelled.

Me-ok...still don't know what it is.

R-you have surgery to become a male.

Me-...no.

R-haha just cry damnit. CRY!!!!

Then i shook my head, laughed at her then we talked about something else, tho it was hard, cause we were in study hall. That's it for today...

Quote: "Fortune sides with he who dares."--Virgil
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Wednesday, February 8, 2006

   kannaduki no miko
so i've been going to www.youtube.com a lot lately. Just yesterday, i watched the first 7 episodes of Kannazuki no Miko.....it's so sad.....makes me cry actually. (Note: when i say cry, i mean tears well up in my eyes and my vision is obscured by tears.) I've never been the bawling type, but still, it's rather sad, that we humans have to go thru such trials.....hahaha, it's another one of those yuri ones, so of course i feel bad for the girl. She's in love with her friend, but her friend is falling in love with a boy, so she just hides her pain and sorrow and just tries to make her friend smile....you guys should really look it up. They're only 12 episodes...so....ah! And the songs are soo cool too!!! The artist is KOTOKO, and the opening song is re-sublimity (or sumthing like that) and the ending theme is agony. ohh........jeeze....i've gotten softer and girlier in my old age....lol. what happened to the stoic bad-ass???? (I'm still here hiding!!!!)

Quote: "If you can't be the best, kill everyone else."--Evan
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Monday, February 6, 2006

haha, i'm excited about college, even tho i'm only a jr right now. *giggles* i'm sitting in comp graphics with Emily, and we're talking about it! Ah, we're a lot alike too, but more with temprements and our want to kill things. lol. ;p but it seems that i'll at least be able to go to college with one of my friends, cause Emily wants to go to I.U. (if no where else) And Rachael will probably go to Purdue (If not Ball state) and someone's probably gonna go to Ball State, so yaya! Hahahaha, now all i need is a definite career. I know the direction, but not the way. hmmm....imagine all the parties and fun we could have....hahahahahaha.

Quote:Imorality consists largely of boredom."--Cochrane(?) (Star Treck)
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Sunday, February 5, 2006

   ...
...so i'm starting to think i should give up on Rachael. I'm not the type to give up, and i really don't wan too....but i'm never gonna get her. I feel like i'm living a hopeless dream where all i can do is watch. Maybe that's all i was fated to do....but it just tears my heart, cause i love her so much, but she's "just not interested" in that sfuff. I'm starting to feel defeated...but i dunno............i'm getting ripped two ways here................

Quote:"everlasting hapiness only exists with prozac."--Alec
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Thursday, February 2, 2006

hmmm....so now i gotta think again. Mike and Bryan are telling me to back off of Rachael a bit, cause i'm freaking her out....but Norman and Chae-Joo Young are telling me to go for it....i don't know what to do.....hmmm......i think i should tell her i love her, cause i never know when i'll run out of time (even if she does have a boyfriend) and she needs to know. I don't wanna live life with regrets....hmm.....i could tell her today, then go about life normally......hahahaha yea...

I started working fridays now...and this coming up one is my 1st.....hahahaha. That when the stranger calls movie is coming out then.....boo...

Quote: "I'm no angel, but i've spread my wings a bit."--Mae West
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Saturday, January 28, 2006

yuri
so i've been getting into Utena lately, and i think she's awesome, but i like Juri too!!! I've read some shoujo-ai fanfic with the two of them, and i think they belong togeather....i feel kinda bad, cuase i like reading the lemon ones....*smiles wanly and sweatdrops* yea, so.....what about y'all? Yuri or yaoi? or normal? oh, and the dude i like dumped his girlfriend.....gotta see what happens.....lol. At work, Rachael and i usually work all the same days, and usually get to go on break togeather, and it got to the point where the manager automatically assumed that if one of us was working, so was the other one. They're always like, "where's your twin?" or "Oh my god! You two are seperated?! That never happens!!!" and i hafta admit....i do get dissapointed/irritated if we don't......i'm a bad person. wow. hahahahahahahaha. yea.......yuri or yaoi???

Quote: "I love being a female, but i hate all the side-effects."--Tosh(me)
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