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Friday, February 10, 2006
convo
hmm...i work today, but it think i'm gonna call in sick, cause my friend wants me to go to a youth group with him. It's for gays(i think) but straight ppl can come too. He thought it would be good for me to find somebody....haha, partially to help me get over Rachael. All the conversations i have with her, she accepts the fact that i love her (cause i tell her all the time) but she has a boyfriend and doesn't want it. She's just not into that kind of stuff. OH, and it's also because i'm a girl. So i know i have no chance, but i'm gonna try anyways, just because it's better to try a thousand times and fail than to give in. Haha, our last convo went like this:
Me-sry, but after watching that anime(kannazuki no miko) it once again made the question rign in my mind. Besides mike, is it because i'm a girl?
R-yeah
ME-...that's kind of sad.....
R-what?
Me-I don't want to antagonize you, but from my perspective....it seems sad that you would let me being a girl stop you from seeing how much i love you...but...argh.....
R-I don't know...i can see you like me. I know that, it's just...i dunno yea you're a girl and i don't really like...um...what's the word...i dunno, it's just not something i want i guess.
Me-......i can believe that...then...i guess i better find a way to live with myself.....jeeze this is depressing.....haha.....
R-dude your depressing me, don't be sad. I mean i know its not fair and it sucks, but there are other people.
Me- I guess, but that doesn't matter. Its just...crushes me to know you could never love me, and now...i'm stupid...i can't even cry for myself. you don't know how badly i want to. Sry for making u sad.
R-you could become a trannie...but that would prob freak the shit out of me. ha ha you could cry if you wanted to. let down your guard. watch the anime and it'll help you start and then you can finish it.
Me-what? (points to word trannie) ...no...i can't cry....it isn't me...i'll just smile....my muscles are shaking on me...lol.
R-transetite or however it's spelled.
Me-ok...still don't know what it is.
R-you have surgery to become a male.
Me-...no.
R-haha just cry damnit. CRY!!!!
Then i shook my head, laughed at her then we talked about something else, tho it was hard, cause we were in study hall. That's it for today...
Quote: "Fortune sides with he who dares."--Virgil
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