Sunday, August 27, 2006

Tomorrow isn’t promised today.


[Life’s a garden. Dig it ;P ]



Mhm, it’s been awhile indeed.

Since it is I, Aleia [*insert middle and last name here*], that we’re speaking of, it is very much safe to assume that some chaoticness of sorts has happened from the point of the last post until extremely recent, which is part of why I hadn’t had much internetic connections till now. And I’m very sorry if I worried anyone with the abrupt lost of contact for almost three months and stuff. *hugs*

But yeah. Hmm. I guess it would only make sense if I started from where I last ended. The lady of the kids that I took care of, she fired me (by phone, from her office) on a Tuesday, and then rehired me immediately the next day. The thing is though, after the initial shock of having suddenly losing both a (low) paying job and a place to stay simultaneously, I saw that I still had an opportunity and not all was lost. See, at the very end of the semester a friend of mine by the name of Derrik had spoken to his parents about letting me stay with him and his family for the summer, so I could get a job and earn money to go back to school. I went to school with Derrik in 7th grade, and randomly bumped into him during spring break, when I went back to Pennsylvania for stuffs I had to do.

So yeah. They consented without a problem, but since I had already accepted the childcare job, along with the fact that I really didn’t want to burden his family, I didn’t go. I spoke with Derrik right after I was fired; he confirmed that the offer still stood, and so the only thing I had to do was get enough money to travel northward. So after the lady rehired me, I only stayed for two weeks total.

I grew up with an autistic brother, and that was tough, to say the least. I was told by the mom that her four year old was born normally but that her three year old was autistic, and so I was sort of nervous that the autistic child would be the one that would give me a hard time.

Irony of ironies! Turns out it was the autistic child that was a breeze, and the undisciplined four year old that *insert word that means stressed/drained out beyond all repair* to no end, even when I was supposedly supposed to be not working. So it was more or less a 24/7 sort of deal. So, to make a long story short, every time I had to babysit, which really was pretty much every day for almost 12 hours a day, I would count down the seconds until she reached from her car to the front door, and then I would lock myself in the one bedroom and cry out of frustration.

For reasons I won’t go into, I am firmly convinced the mom is undiagnosed OCD, and that added stress on top of stress X 10,000. That in itself is a long story, so yeah.

Anyways. I didn’t know/realize the mom’s views on quite a few things until 20 minutes before I was to leave for the train station. She uh, made them clear to me by slamming open the front door and screaming at me about how ever since I’ve arrived at her house, she’s been miserable and how I can’t clean (for an example, she wanted the kitchen scrubbed out with bleach and water nightly. I scrubbed with soap and water instead. Is bleach on everything daily normal? o.o;;) and I couldn’t take care of her kids properly (her eldest would scream and cry the whole time her mom was gone. I swear to you, for a week and a half solid, the 9 – 12 hours her mom would be gone, she would scream and cry and she wouldn’t listen to anything reasonable that I would tell her to do. After she got over doing it daily and cut it down to every other day, there would be times when she would trip and fall and look over at me with a half devilish grin and say “Why did you trip me? I’m telling my mommy that you hit me/pushed me/some sort of other abuse”). She screamed at me about those things, amongst other stuffs, and I was trembling the whole time.

So I ended up waiting at the Dallas train station for 7 hours for a train that was only two hours late and so northward I journeyed.

And so ends the story for now. It’s too long to post all at once, and I have too much to deal with at the moment.

But I am ok for now, really really. *nods*



And Sara, I received your letter about two weeks ago (handed to me by my mom), and the post mark on the envelope is very much faded, which gives me a bad feeling that it was sent a long time ago. =x

I’m working on writing you back though. *grins sheepishly* Is the address still the same?

Azure, I appreciate your offer muchly. Like I said, I only wish that I had known of it sooner. *nods*

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Hasn't been mine to give away, not for the longest time.



Hey, anyone out there have an under the bed space I can keep for the summer? Cause uh, I apparently dont have a job anymore.

That, actually, is a very short story, but a story that I dont want to get into at the moment, nonetheless.

Funny enough, I think I had a feeling this was gonna happen since... maybe yesterday, so oh well. *shrugs*

But yeah. I dunno. I guess more later. I'll prolly blow this popsicle stand in a day or so, so whever I end up, and if I have internetic connections, is when I'll prolly update.

[I'm apparently not welcome in Jersey anymore, so I most likely wont be there. To anyone who was expecting a visit from me this summer?]

[Hey. I wasnt able to watch the Spurs game last night, and AOHell is too stupid and slow for me to attempt to look up the scores now, and everyone I know that keeps track of them is either asleep, at work, or isnt fond of phone calls. So if you can tell me if they won, I'd appreciate it. =3 ]
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Friday, May 19, 2006

Helter - skelter and lickity - split

I re-watched Sin City the other night and then fell asleep around 4 am.

I woke up with a start around 10 am, because of a scary beeping noise that resounded throughout the house.

Without putting on my glasses, I could tell the ferociously horrid kitten (the one who always tries to eat me in my sleep; I have the scratches and bite marks to prove it) had made a mess all over the floor. All over the floor, as opposed to using her cat box.

With as warm as it was in the house (there's central air) and lack of green lights telling the time, along with certain noises not occurring, I could tell the power was out.

I reach over for my glasses, which were on the high table next to the couch and next to my cd player, when something seems amiss (not counting the fact that after a few seconds of poking around, it occurred to me that my glasses seemed to be missing)

The earpieces from my headphones were decapitated. Bitten cleanly off and residing goodness knows where.

After some more squinting and poking around, it was deemed that my glasses were indeed... not where I had left them the night prior.

I found them under the table, on the floor.

I also found the kitten behind the couch, playing with the remnants of my headphones.

.....

Cleaned up the mess she made; figured out the loud beeping was emitted from the home security alarm system. There was a red light lighting up the word 'trouble. Pressed a button that seemed to make sense, to turn off the sound.

It worked. Then I realized that someone had left the front door unlocked.

.... o.-

Stuff and stuff. Eventually made supper, and everyone liked it, but getting to that point involved battling the sink hardcore, amongst other things.


Uh, I'm apparently leaving tonight for Irving. Tonight meaning the bus is departing from San Antonio at 1:45 Friday morning.

I... don't know why I'm so reluctant to go. <.<;;

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Thursday, May 18, 2006

Malesh, habibti. *gently pats head*
Spurs won.

...

Hey! Since when did I care about basketball, let alone sports? When exactly did this happen? >=\

Hmm. Seems I’m leaving for Irving either today (Thursday) or Monday.

[I found out rather recently that I owe X amount to the hospital downtown, which is less than ¼ of what the bill they keep sending me says I should pay them. Today, I check my account online and see that the stupid hospital from downtown took more than they should have from my account, and they are pressing for more money, which is funny, because it seems that they owe me money now. I just.. have to find a way to get it back. And to make them shut up and stop sending me phone calls and bills and letters from collection agencies, while I’m at it. I can’t say I’m all too fond of hospitals sending lawyers after me for money I don’t owe. It’s just sorta stressful. Just a little. ]

But it’s all good. *brushes hands together*

I was informed that there’s something called a-kon happening around the second weekend of June (9 - 11)

I’ve never been to an anime convention. I think it’d be interesting, to say the least. *grins*

So. Anyone wanna go with me? =3

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

black cherry vanilla berry
Just wanted to let you guys know that I’m ok.

What had happened after I posted that was I went into a furry of packing. I had called the RA (the one and the same that I had a few classes with, along with a small history, so talking to him is a bit odd on my part o.- ) I was registered for the checking out with and had asked him if I could have an extension and he said prolly not, cause any talk about extensions had to be done with his supervisor yesterday (Friday) during office hours. He said the best he could do would be to move my time forward, past my 12 o’clock noon deadline and check my room out then, but I would be charged a $35 improper check out fee, along with $10 or $15 in addition to every hour I had to stay extra.

I consented. I didn’t really have too much choice.

Stuff and stuff, a friend of mine sort of went to the RA (they’re both in the same fraternity, so yeah) and explained stuff about my situation to him (That reminds me. I still need to find a way to talk to him so I can figure out what exactly he said to him) and then the RA spoke to his supervisor, and then the RA called me back and said his supervisor agreed to let me have an extension till 7 pm, without any charges. So that was good.

I finally got a hold of my room mate’s boyfriend, as he agreed a while back to hold my things for me at his house, till I get back from summer break.

I got done with everything around 2 pm, but I couldn’t use my computer, as it had been unplugged and dismantled quite a while ago. I eventually found the friend that is trying to transfer to Japan for next semester, and he offered his girlfriend’s sister’s apartment for the night (him and his girlfriend were going to stay there the night too, so yeah). I was really appreciative of the offer.

My “foster mom” called me around 4 pm, and asked me how things were going. I ended up explaining my situation, and she said I could stay at her house for a few days. I’m still at her house now, actually. I know I can’t stay here for very long, and I’ve been trying to see if the Irving thing is going to still happen.

You know, I dunno if I explained that. I had an offer from a friend of a friend to be a nanny for her kids for the summer. I’d stay at her house, cook some, clean a lot, and take care of her one kid, who is autistic, and the older one, who isn’t.

What makes me feel funny is that I have already dealt with my autistic brother before, and that… never went well, so I have reservations about that. Plus the fact she just very recently moved to Irving, which is very close to Dallas, and I’m not familiar with that area. I don’t know the lady or her kids at all, and I’ve only seen one kid so far, now that I think of it.

But yeah. I would be working from 8 – 5, and I would be paid for it. I was figuring on picking up a part time job in the afternoons.

If she changed her mind, then I need to figure out where I’m gonna be for the rest of the summer, but yeah. Not gonna worry bout that till I have to. =P

And even if I wasn’t able to stay where I am now, it wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world. I could have taken the bus to the homeless shelter, to find that they weren’t accepting anymore people for the night/for a while, then I would have no choice except to either stay awake for a third night in a row, or sleep on the street. And then while I would be somewhere on some dark street, either awake for the third night in a row or half asleep, I could be jumped and raped by a huge group of guys who would be creative in ways unimaginable, who all, of course, would be infected with every form of STD and AIDS under the sun. And after that would be over, I could be beaten senseless by said group, and end up with amnesia and then wander the streets like that, with no form of identification, because of course that stuff would have been stolen a long time ago.

So yeah. I’m always ok. At the time that I had posted the last post… I was just thrown off.

Oh yeah. I saw Ken yesterday and was “mauled and attacked” by his dog. I’m scarred for life. =(

And I want his fedora.



We <3 Katamari for the win.

=)
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Saturday, May 13, 2006

All hail The Suffering.
[I can still taste all the held back bitter angry words that didn't mean how they would have come off.]


Seems most of my things are in a sort of organized mess. I have to be out of here in a few hours, so yeah.

As of 7 this morning, I’ve officially been awake for 48 hours; unless you count the times I slipped into seconds-long periods of unconsciousness during the history final. I think I really fucked that particular final up, but oh well. =\

I think I passed all my classes. I already have a few of my grades back, and one or two of the averages are almost B’s. Almost almost. I know I can do so much better; the C’s were results of really stupid mistakes/choices on my part. Ah well, I have next semester to get ‘er up. =)

[To be honest, I think my downfall was acquiring a social life of sorts. And the fact I never learned time management. <.<;; ]

Mhm. I think the plans are for me to crash in Austin for a few days, to figure out where I’m going from here. So I might have internet till then, Gerry’s computer pending. *nods*

Edit: Somehow, I figured his impulsivness would get me in some sort of trouble, and I was right. He calls me back the morning that I'm leaving, telling me that he isnt going to anywhere near his room, much less the city of Austin, till Sunday or Monday.

Wow. I am so fucked. I have to be out in less than two hours, and here I am. *shakes head*

The other night I inheireted from Franco 619 MB of Coheed & Cambria.

All hail The Suffering. =)

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Saturday, April 29, 2006

Pattern Against User
I didn’t figure on going to Fiesta. Mostly cause it costs more money than it really should, but since I don’t quite favor hobbies such as being smushed in tightly packed crowds of rowdy drunk people and having a very large chance of beer being poured on me (I have heard many a story of beer rain from survivors), Fiesta was prolly not quiet my sort of scene. Thursday night was college night for niosa (niosa = Night In Old San Antonio. A lot of the stuff for the event is held in and around old historic parts of downtown).

But yeah. Thursday afternoon, a friend unexpectedly invited me to come along with him, his older brother and another friend of his. And that is how I ended up going. Whenever we go to the entrance, he paid for half my ticket ($10 just to get in) and that was very sweet of him. *nods*

Niosa = Walk around, eat food, look at stuff, drink alcohol (if able. Oddly enough this year seemed to be the year the police felt like making an attemptto crack down on underage drinking for Fiesta. Ha, I’ve heard many a story about under 21 drinking occurring downtown, as it seems to be common knowledge that no one cares during Fiesta. I say attempt cause the one girl that was with us (the only one from our group that drank) had a relative’s state ID to get alcohol from the vendors, as she was underage and looked kind of similar to the relative.)

We got back around 11. If you ever hear stories about Fiesta, all I can say is that they’re probably true. The only other time I’ve seen so many pairs of boobs was when I watched the uncensored version of Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. *raises eyebrow*

Even though there were times when I was smushed in crowds of people, I didn't have beer spilled on me. It happend very close more times than I'd like to count, but in the end, it didn't happen. *wipes sweatdrop*

It was interesting and sort of fun, for walking around and eating random types of (expensive) food. I don't regret going. *shakes head*

Anyways. Soon after I got back, my room mate and her boyfriend took me and three other friends to IHOP, and we didn’t get back to the dorms till like 2:45 am, which was bad cause I had a test at 9:30 am and I wanted to get in some decent sleep and still wake up to study for it. One of the guys from our group was doing his laundry in our building sort of illegally (long story; has to do with the laundry machines in his building being very sucky and thusly a waste of your money) and so was illegally staying in my friends room with her and her boyfriend (yes, her boyfriend being in her room illegally because it was long past after hours.) Somehow or other, the one guy friend ended up in my room and quickly hooked on the one flash file paddle ball game that I have. Now that I think about it, I think he ended up in my room cause he felt odd being in the room with the couple, as they’re very… affectionate (to put it mildly) with each other around everyone.

I was sitting in the one chair and scootched backwards. There was an earsplitting screeching noise and I found it an odd noise for my chair to make when it suddenly hit me that it wasn’t the chair that made it.

The fire alarm in my dorm building was going off. I swear, I think I was like the fourth person to be out of the building. Haha, mostly cause I was still up, and also cause I had the guy friend in the room with me. I didn’t want to be caught by any of the resident assistants and get into loads of trouble for it, so yeah.

Speaking of illegal guests, roughly half of the evacuated people standing outside in pajamas (it was around 3:20 am then) were people who either don’t live in our building or don’t even live on campus to begin with. I found that rather amusing.

15 minutes later the RA’s come and tell us that it was a false alarm; everything is ok and to go back in our rooms.

I think I got an hour of sleep before the test. *shrugs*

It seems that all schools in San Antonio, public or private, were let out at 12 pm because of the battle of the flowers parade, but I think more for Fiesta in general. I think the mayor of San Antonio goes on tv and announces it or something. Didn’t really matter all too much for me this year, seeing as how I got 20 minutes taken off my last class for the day anyways, and the easiest class I have no less.

I woke up from a nap to look out my window in awe. It was dark out and the wind was blowing so hard that the large white birds that live on the trees on the little island in the middle of the lake looked like they were suspended perfectly still in the air. Then the wind got stronger and blew them off backwards.

From the distance I saw a huge rolling swirling misty-white land cloud (It looked to be touching from the ground to the high sky). It was quickly approaching the direction of the campus, and so I promptly closed my window. The sky lit up with a fierce bright blue light a few times, and the strange misty white cloud touched down on the lake and rushed smack into my building. The misty white land cloud was a rolling swirling ball of intense rain. Whenever I looked down my window and into the parking lot, there was so much water, rain and wind that the parking lot literally had waves rolling across it, and so the parking lot looked like a deep black top ocean, with my dorm building sitting right in the middle of it all.

The whole thing was freaking kick ass. I really love storms.

*grins*

Around 5:30 in the morning there was the horrid screeching noise again. I was slightly annoyed cause I was messing around on the computer, but with only underwear and a sports bra and there was no way in the world I was going to go anywhere like that, much less run and rush outside into the freezing cold and wet for an obviously false alarm.

Most figured it a false alarm as well, as they were grudgingly straggling slowly out their doors and down the halls, as opposed to the hurried frenzy of the previous night.

So yeah. Another false alarm.

It has been whispered that a few police people are going to be hanging around opportune places in my building for a while, so we might not have another false alarm till everyone lets their guard down.

Eh. I kinda view all this as sorch of childish, slightly annoying, but more or less amusing. Granted, I have yet to be woken up from the fire alarms, as I was wide awake both times it happened. My amusement just might fade as fast as the sleep from my eyes, if it so happens that the alarm catches me next time in the middle of sleep. *half grins and shakes head*

Ugh. The both times that the alarms went off, two friends of mine never left the building, as they had somehow slept through the horrid screeching and flashing of lights. That’s scary, but what’s scarier is that I can very well see myself sleeping through something like that in the right conditions. It seems I have full enthusiasm for whatever it is that I put my mind to, whether it be procrastination to sleeping. So when I sleep, I sleep hardcore.

<.<

>.>


This is the last week of classes, which is why I’m dedicating this weekend to lost causes of homework and extra credits. Finals are the week following, so yeah. Still trying to figure out a place to stay for the summer. I’m sure something will happen soon, and if not then oh well. I’m not going to die from it, so it isn’t as huge a deal as other stuff. *shrugs*

As part of the campus ministry staff, it is required for me to help with the graduation ceremonies. So from now till the 12th or 13th, if you don’t catch me online or in person, you prolly won’t be able to till late August. So speak now or till August hold your peace. =P

Eh? 0_o;;;



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Sunday, April 23, 2006

Pocky. It's better than porn.
I don't know if there are any proper words for this.


It seems to speak for itself as is.


Eh. A friend of mine is transfering to Japan next semester, and my brother is officially transfering to somewhere in England next semester.

My school raised the tuition, and whatever it is that they raised it by is whatever else I have to pay out of pocket plus a thousand. So uh, I dont know where I'm going to be next semester. *shrugs*

Last day of classes is May 5th; last day of school is May 10th.

Wow. How did time go so fast?


Dunno if this made me laugh cause it really is funny, or cause it's 6am and I didn't sleep yet tonight.



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Friday, April 21, 2006

Not for the weak of mind
I woke up the other morning because there was a scary fluttering racket rather close to my head.

That was because a pigeon was sitting on my room mate’s bookshelf. It flew in through the window. My room mate’s window is the only window in the building that doesn’t have a screen, and that’s the one that just happens to be open.

Speaking of birds. Tuesday morning was the first time since Easter break started that I went back to work. Walked outside and two friends greeted me. A few seconds later there was a thunk noise and there lay a small little bird on the ground. What the bird had done was fly strait into one of the dorm’s glass doors. Assuming the bird was more stunned than anything, I gently picked it up and cradled it gently in my hand, making sure it was in a comfortable position. (I didn’t want it to get stepped on by someone who wasn’t paying attention to where they were walking >.<;;)

I figured the bird was going to be ok when after a few minutes I felt it slightly shift its legs to a more comfortable position, as it nestled in my hand. It started moving its head around a bit, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

And then it pooped on my hand.

Made a nest of grass near a tree for it to rest, gently placed it down, and washed.

Hey, it wasn’t all too bad. I was only a minute late for work, so yeah. *shrugs*


Speaking of animals. I learned that “Hey, wanna watch a movie in my room?” translated to college speak means “Hey, wanna come to my room and have sex?”

For a week strait I had strait hair.

Mwar. Both taken at 3ish in the morning. *raises eyebrow*



I have in my possession, finally ever after, the newest Katatonia cd. And now a part of my insides I was never aware of has made its presence known by becoming overwhelmed with joy. Weird how that works.


Fiesta is going underway.


This made me grin. That made me sorta laugh and shake my head.





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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

Living life to the fullest (at the bottom of a glass bottle)
I spent the past weekend in Austin... and I haven't had that much fun since fishing. Well, Austin > fishing, by slightly. *grins*

I stayed with a few friends on the UT campus. Of course there was a few slight chaotic type happenings on the way going to Austin, but since this is me we're talking about, I think it is to be expected. I dont think that's very fair, but that's another story. Anyways, the stupid stuff that happend had me end up there much later than expected, but oh well. A lot of the weekend was spent in the dorm room playing games and hanging out with the people that wandered in. An aquantience of mine (a friend of theirs) sort of dragged me out to the 40 Acres festival that was happening on the UT campus, but cause we came out later, we werent able to see everything. It was still really interesting, so yeah.

Long story short, being back in San Antonio after being in Austin sort of makes it obvious how... San Antonio... is missing a lot of ... stuff.

Crap.

So the basic equasion is:

Austin > > > > San Antonio.

Yes indeed.


*sighs* Some stuff became answered, and so everything is more on the ok side. So now there's nothing to talk about on that subject. *dusts hands*

Man. Finals are coming up really soon, and school is supposely over May 10-ish. It kinda hit me that I need to start now in finding a place to stay over the summer, but yeah.

Everything's happening fast fast, cause it seemed like I just got done with midterms not that long ago. Is it just me?

Let's see, let's see. Easter break next week, and plenty of papers due before then. (Cause the teachers seem to be sadistic like that. =_+ )

Oyeh, tis late at night and that means it's time for bed for me. *grins sleepily*

Ack. I just remembered about how I never really got around to posting pictures. Ha. It will happen sometime. We'll call it "fashionably late". ;P

Oh yeah! The CD from Katatonia, called The Great Cold Distance has finally been released to the US.

I need it. I need it badly like how a person needs... uh... food. And water. Maybe like a candy laced with some sort of drug? =x

*falls over*

Someday someday. ;_;

...

Unless somone wants to buy it for me. =3


http://www.thinkgeek.com/newsletter/20060401.html

(I liked that. It made me grin.) =D
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