Wednesday, April 13, 2005

From the bottom of my inflatable heart
Ack. I was so incredibly sleepy tired this morning. My uncle woke me up with the usual "Don't you have school today, Aleia?"

Let myself oversleep a bit, got up, mad dash, rush rush rush, walk walk walk steep uphill and narrow-ish back streets...


To find that the proffessor didnt even show. Class was cancelled by default.


I found that happend last Wednesday too, when I was sick. So inside, I'm torn. There's "Damn, a break comes along and I'm not here" and then there's "Yay, I catch a break when I'm really sick, cause he wasn't here!"


I wonder if word got out before this morning, because only like 5 people even bothered to show. *shrugs*



I had a strange dream, in which I went to different countries. I remember strongly going to Germany and maybe even Ireland, but I remember it was more than that, mostly in Europe. I dont remember the details of what I did in the different countries, when we landed, but I remember listening to the local music and buying a few cd's.

Oh! And how we got around from country to country. Somone I know was flying a small private airplane. I think at certain points, it was me who was doing the flying, and it felt like driving a car...but not quite.

And when we'd get low on gas and stuff (Drinks and food and...bathroom breaks 0.o), we would fly low and stop at a hanger, where me and some other people would go in to get stuff started and ready, so the airplane could get fixed up and whatever else needed done.

It seemed most of the places were warm, as when I left the plane and went around I was wearing shoes with no socks (I hate doing that, wearing shoes without socks u.u) and pants and a shirt. But there was one time I got out of the plane, and it was blizzarding fiercly, and I was really really cold, but not as cold as I should have been, it being a blizzard.

In all honesty, I think at that point the kids were leaving for school and left the doors wide open. I was a teensy bit awake at the time, and...somehow remember it.


....What? It was very chilly this morning. <.<;;;


*Cough*


I dont remember who exactly was in my dream, but I do remember my uncle leaving me behind when he took everyone shopping, because everyone shoved all their things under my bed, and so he assumed I left the place a mess with my things.


*shrugs*


You know what? About a month or so ago, extremly soon after my mom's dad died, my mom told my aunts and uncles what happend, what her dad did to me and my sisters.

And it fucking pisses me off that it was then that everyone finally believed everything I've been saying all this time, without a trace of doubt in their mind.

I found this out, because one of my aunts was talking to me, and she said "Oh yeah, I was talking to your mom the other night, and she confessed to everything that you said, that everything you said really happend."

Aleia: ......So this whole time, no one really believed me?

Aunt: Well, there was a lot of doubt, because no one else besides you said anything. But we believe it now, because your mom admitted to it.

Aleia: *Softly crumbles inside*

What, is it secret family beliefe that I'm a chronic liar, or that stupid that I'd spin stories on such a grand scale?


It's great to know that I never had any validity with any of the adults. Maybe that's why my uncle always has and still does treat me with heavy mistrust.

Uncle: And where were you? >:|

Aleia: ...I was at school. 0.o;;

Uncle: Lies! Quite telling your stories >:O


That kind of mindframe brings to mind some sort of fucked up Hadith concerning adultery.

From what I remember, I read where the book said "Rape is only validated when there are witnesses to attest that what occured was indeed rape. If there are no witnesses, then it isnt considered rape, and is thus adultery. If the woman accuses the man of raping her, and he denies it, and there are no witnesses, then it is adultery, and they should be punished as accordingly."


Something like that. But it really pissed me off. And there had to be like two or three witnesses to the occurence, to say whether it was rape or not. Bloody hell.


Know what? To hell with the adults. I think the only people that believed me when it was important were the few friends I told at the time.


And I guess that's all that matters.


Oh, now that I'm thinking about that stupid Hadith, I think that the way Islam portrays poligimy is complete BS. It's ok for guys to have muliple wives? So he can have his own private harem/baby factory, mass produce tens upon tens of kids, raise the moms to raise the kids to be good Muslims, the kids grow up, and thus spread the religion.

Honestly, there's this guy around here, he has 4 wives and like 20 kids.


My uncle and his sister believe firmly into it. The reason why it's ok for guys to have multiple wives, and not for women to have multiple husbands?

Because the guy with multiple wives, all the kids are his. It is easily known who the mother and father are, in that scenario.

With the girl with multiple husbands, you cant tell who the father is, and chaos and corruption of family values will ensue.

Plus it makes her look like a trashy street girl, with all those guys. I mean!

It makes her look not that good, in the eyes of the people is what I meant. *nods*


Seems religion is mostly tailored for guys, mhm?

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